Hello Vicki,
Sometimes, it seems like life is uncertain and it maybe, but this is when we need to believe all the more. People seem to think that everything will just fall in place, at times we have to go to exceptional lengths to gain the faith we need.
I am sure you are a strong person and believer, because you took an exceptional leap of faith just by having this surgery. Remember the light may get very dim, but it is ALWAYS there. You will make it.
Godspeed recovery.
judyfromnj