Allison - I am so sorry to hear about your mother. I lost my mother when I was only 21. Several years ago, I found a book called MOTHERLESS DAUGHTERS: A LEGACY OF LOSS by Hope Edelman. It took me two years to get past the first chapter, as I would cry uncontrollably just trying to read it (this was after my mother had been gone for over 25 years, so I obviously had not delt with this). Once I made it through the book, I found it to be incredibly compassionate and healing. I have recommended it to several people who have had the same reaction. I sent this book to my sister-in-law, who lost her mother a year ago. She is an oncology therapist, and works not only with the dying, but with the families of those passing on. She has made this book a staple for the daughters left behind, they find great comfort in it. I would encourage any daughter who has lost a mother at ANY age to read this book. I hope you can resolve your differences prior to her passing and, if not, find peace in knowing that you are the wonderful person you are because of her, right or wrong. Bless you.