Tannette Scully

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I stepped on the scale on monday and I have finally lost 101lbs.  A girlfriend gave me a pair size 22 pants today and I put them on and they FIT!!!!  I was so shocked.  Im doing so much better and I feel amazing so as of tomorrow I am going to get back to excercizing at least 3 times a week.  My energy is finally getting better and it is long over due.  Im hoping it will help move my weight loss along.  I feel more and more like myself everyday and Im excited to see where this is going.

Well its the end of August and I just weighed myself and I down to 266 lbs.    Im excited but I promised myself I wouldn celebrate until 260 lbs when I have lost my first 100lbs.  My goal is to be there by the end of september and being only 6 pounds away makes it seem like a reality.  Im still feeling really tired and finding it hard to eat in general.  Im not getting my protein and my pottasium is still low.  Im still suffering from bouts of my hands seizing up like a claw and not being able to move them.  I just want to feel better.  Im not excercising but I am getting things done around the house.  Im back to cooking and baking but it sucks to not really be able to enjoy it.  The financial advantages of making everything from scratch not to mention to health advantages to my family
keep me going though.

I just never thought that food and eating would ever be a chore but it is.  It is all so weird

I finished my post on thursday and my daughter called and she was in labor.  I was the only one available to drive her to the hospital so I was bad.  We almost didnt make it lol.  She was the almost born in my car.  I didnt even get to be in the room because there wasnt time.  It was a whirl wind couple of days.

 I didnt take very good care of myself and Im paying for it today.  Im sick.   It was amazing and sooooo worth it though.

74 lbs. today!!!!!!

I stepped on the scale today and was so happy to see my weight at 289 lbs.  I dont know why but my happiness turned into panic.  Stupid I know.  I guess Im feeling guilty for not exrcercising more the last two weeks.  Ive lost 20 pound since  surgery but is that good?  I dont know,  I have been reading blogs on here today trying to see how others did at two weeks.  I think trying to make myself feel better.  I dont know why but Im feeling emotionally really down today.

On the plus side my pain is finally better today and I havent had to take anything.  I think Im going to try and catch up on some housework and actually make dinner.  My kids have been eating processed foods for the last two weeks.  They loveit but I have horrible guilt.  I have been making everything from scratch for the last six months including  our bread.  It has saved us alot of money on groceries.  I want to get back on it.

I want to go for a walk to but my husband has an interview today and work so he wont have time to go with me.  Im retarded and cant leave the house without him.  I dont want to get into that right now maybe later.

My daughter is pregnant and is having pain today.  Maybe I will be bad and drive today and make her walk with me.  I know Im not supposed to but I want out of the house.  Besides she needs to get that baby moving on out.  She is due in 6 days and I cant wait to be a grandma.  More later.

Tomarrow will be 2 weeks after surgery and besides the tight suture I feel great.  My stomache seams to be holding on to anything I put in it.  Beans in different ways seams to be the best food choice for me and of course the strawberry jello.  Im eating about 1/3 cup wich I think is ok.  Im getting in at least 50 ounces of water wich isnt perfect but an increase from last week.  I'm disapointed in not being able to walk like I wanted but the suture still hurts so bad.  I cant really complain because I havent had horrible nausa and no vomiting since right after surgery.

I chose not to tell anyone but close family and friends I was having surgery.  I just didnt want to hear all the crap from people about making the surgery choice.  It makes victories a little less fun though.  When I finally dropped from the 300's into the 200's I wanted to scream it from the roof tops but it was a quiet celebration.  I stepped on the scale tonight and Im 290 lbs. it feels so good to see the numbers keep dropping.  I started trying to loose weight in september, at 360 lbs. and finally after really struggling with loosing the weight I decided to start the surgery process in december.  I didnt take that decsion lightly and still feel now it was the right one.  I was at 254 lbs after christmas and felt really hopeless about loosing the weight on my own.  Now I feel that its possible to be myself again.

I have lost 70lbs. since I decided that the time is right and Im hoping to make it a hundred by Thanksgiving but we will just have to see.  I really want to see 160 lbs by the the time September 2012. 

It's been a crazy couple of months, I wanted to post more but life happens. I went into surgery with a weight loss of 50 lbs., I wanted to be an even 300 but close enough I guess.  A week later things are going really well.  I havent really had nausa and beyond the fact eating puried food sucks I cant complain.  The put the one or more of my sutures way too tight wich has meant some pretty painful ripping and pulling pain.  Doc says there isnt much they can do until the sutures disolve.  It wouldnt be so bad but excericise hasnt been as successfull.  Quite frankly standing up feels like someone is stabbing me.  Stepping on the scale and seeing that I have lost 13 more lbs made it all worth it though.  I cant weight to step onthe scale now. 

The things going through my head in the last week with regard to food has been amazing.  I have yet to actually feel hungry wich has been sooo cool.  In fact I dont really evenave a desire to eat but that is mainly because nothing I can eat tastes good.  It will be interesting how my attitude changes over that next few months.

I have been obsessed with food network the last week. lol  My husband says Im torturing myself.  More then that though I want the food I do eat to taste good.  If I cant eat much then it might as well be worth that couple of bites. lol  I also want to figure out how to make healther food tast as good as the junk food Im used to eating.  Im not sure if that is possible but its a dream.  I thought about looking for some cooking classes.

Hurry up and wait has been the theme for the past couple of months.  I decided the first of December that I was finally ready to take this step.  We called the insurance took there questionare and waited for my first letter of approval.  They said it would take two weeks and finally I got it six weeks later  wich was the end of January.  I went to the doctor to establish my beginning weight because I had to loose 5% of my body weight and come up with $1450.  I lost 19 lbs in five weeks and sent in my forms and again I waited.  So I finally got my referal letter on monday.  G uess what I now have to wait another month to take the class at the university.

So now I sit here and wait again.  I have to keep the weight off in order to get final approval with my insurance.  Ugh!   So my plan is to continue to loose weight so I make sure Im well bellow my required weight.  This process is taking forever and I have a feeling the doctors process isnt going to be any faster.

Patience is not my strong point.