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Yes that is question….We are not taking a true vacation this year.  We need to put a new roof on our house and we are doing the whole Disney Vacation next year (Finally), so we are doing small weekend things this summer.  My sister (Sandy) gets a cabin every year at Knoebles. This is her fourth year reserving one.  The second year we went in on the cabin with them and stayed.  We would all go down as a family every year and make a day of it at park.  We would all bring our favorite foods and put all together in the picnic area of the park.  My parents and my 3 sisters and their families plus my one sister’s ( Sandy ) in-laws would go.  We all enjoyed this tradition over the years.  Then my sister Sandy started reserving a cabin for the last 4 yours.  My whole family would go down when she gets the cabin and make a day of it and meet back at the cabin to eat.  Now this year I decided to stay again for the weekend.  This time not in her cabin (tight for two families unless you reserve a double cabin which is more money), but in a tent.  That’s right…I reserved a camp site not far from her cabin.  Hubby is not thrilled…lol, but the kids are screaming happy about spending two days at Knoebles.  I have already started to get things together…tent, coolers, flashlights….etc.  I never would be this far ahead of the game in the past.  Last 8-10 years I have been known as last minute Michelle.  We like to camp as a family.  In-laws have a camper in upstate NY, near Watertown , but it started to get to be too much for me.  So I am coming into work for four hours on Friday, leaving at 11 be home by 11:30.  Hubby should have the van packed and we will be on our way to roller coaster riding and fun.  I can not wait.   The real test will be to see how I keep up with the kids with a 55 lb loss. 

that I have lost 55 lbs. Woo hoo….I’m loving my RNY.

Ok…..my 8 week doctor’s appoint for last Thursday got cancelled until this Thursday, 26 June 2008.  I have a few concerns I want to ask him about.  The first is not getting in enough protein and why is it so hard for me to eat chicken/turkey/eggs.  It feels so heavy in my pouch.  I chew very well and take my time.  I usually get sick and throw up within 45 minutes after eating.  I don’t mind the throwing up, I feel so better afterwards.  This coming from the QUEEN of willing herself not to throw up in the past. If I did throw up, you knew the vulcano gods had enough and I could not control it any longer.  My husband would know I was deathly ill if I did throw up. Mom's are not suppose to get sick you know....lol  I try to eat chicken/eggs at least once a week to seek if things change.  I know they say sometimes it could be the day and what may not agree with you today won’t bother you another time you eat it.  I did manage to eat 2 bits of baked chicken (from the crock pot/nice and moist) on Friday night and it stayed down, but I only experienced the feeling of wanting to be sick.   Then it went away after I burped like 50 times.  This is another thing I want to ask about...the burping.  I have never belched so much in my life and I don't drink soda...lol  Go figure.  I will try chicken again maybe next week.  If I never can eat chicken again, it will be ok.  I can live with out chicken to feel as good as I feel now.

Ok….I know it’s been a while since I posted.  I really did post my post op experience but before I could save I lost it.  I was too tired to retype it.  Then I got back to work and before you know it time got away from me.  This will be long, so I apologize. 

Ok….My surgery was on 18 Apr 08.  Everything went well with my surgery.  No complications at all.  But let me just state for the record.  I have had 3 C-Sections, Gall-bladder removed and a Hysterectomy and I always bounce back the same day of surgery, like I never had surgery, but this surgery really kicked my butt.  It was hard for me to give in to the fact that I was in pain and out of it.  It was a good week after surgery before I started feeling normal again.  Other than that not too much to report on.

I have lost 40 plus pounds to date.  I get sick at least once a week.  I’m never hunger and have no desire to want to eat.  I will be honest, I have tasted things I loved to drink or eat before and it taste horrible to me.  I wonder why I even ate or drank it before surgery.  I am taking my vitamins and I know I’m not eating nearly the protein I’m suppose to and trying to get all my water in daily is hard, but I always have a water bottle in my hand.  It does get better with each passing day/week.  My next doctor appointment is 19 June 08.  I’ll keep you all updated!

and I'm so looking forward to the start of the weekend.  I received a call this morning from my surgeon's office and Patty tells me they have to move my surgery up a few days....Yes.(I'm thinking)  It was orignally scheduled for 21 Apr 08, but now it is 18 Apr 08.  At least I don't have to bite my nails all weekend prior to my first surgery date.  Now I'll work all week up until that Thursday and before you know it, it's Friday, Surgery Day.  Co-workers think I'm insane for working the day before my surgery, but I would rather take it off after surger to recover.   I may have to leave early that day to go down for pre-op testing, but that depends on what day Patty finds out insurance was approved.  Well my lunch is over now....so I'll keep you all posted.

and the week is half over.   I can not wait for the weekend.  Well I don't know who out there watches Hell's Kitchen, but the new season started last night and I was nice and comfy in bed watching.  I love that show.  I know as much as I love to cook and I am good at it, I would never make it 1 hour in that kitchen getting screamed at...lol  

Going to my son's baseball game tonight.  Go Vikings!  First game of the season so lets hope they start out with a win.

Friday I met with my psycologist and said he would would send a letter stateing that I am his patient, and that I suffer from depression and anxiety and I am stable at this time to undergo surgery.  So let's hope that is good enough for Dr. Lee to finish his evaluation.  Only 20 days left until surgery.  Count down begins....

to be positive.  Ok, on the issues of the letters needed from my doctors.  Well I finally got my PCP to move my doctors visit up to today at 11:45.  Hope once he sees me he will get the letter sent over to my surgeon.  One down and one to go.  I have an appointment this Friday with Dr. Patel's office.  Lets hope after he sees me and I get to talk to him myself (not going thru his "I'm getting nowhere" receptionist) this will have a more positive outcome.  Lets hope I have everything I need to my surgeons office by March 31, 08. 

Ok...I thought wow I can see the finish line 4 weeks until my surgery.  There was a few minor details to work out before my paperwork is submitted to the insurance company.  Well I went to my psyc evaluation with Dr. Lee and because I see a psyc where I live and am being treated for depression, he will not send my evaluation paper to my surgeons office until Dr. Patel sends him a letter stating that he feels I'm stable enough for surgery.  Well Dr. Patel's office said he won't do that.  He will release a copy of my file to him for his own evaluation.  So now I'm screwed.  I should have kept my mouth shut and not have said I take Cymbalta...but I was being honest when I was filling out the chart information at Dr. Lee's.  I called my surgeon and she said well let them release your records to Dr. Lee and lets hope he can come to a conclusion from them.  If not I won't be able to get the surgery.  I want to cry now.  Why can't the doctor's office's talk between them...Why do I have to be the go between.  I call this one and they tell me one thing, and I call the other doctor to hear another...and back and forth.  All day on the phone.  I'll keep you posted on this situation.

Yes I do.  I don't hate what I do.  I am just sick and tired of the bull shit that goes on.  I fucking hate this place already.   I did not get the promotion I interviewed for.  Found out today I was not selected.  I know it's my weight and I'm not showing my true self.  I know I'm confident on the inside but because I am...I'll say it...."Ashamed" of how I look.  Even though looks should not play a part in your abilities, it does.  I'm done putting in for jobs until after my surgery and I loose the weight so I can march in to an interview, holding my head up high and really showing them how capable and confident I truely am.  Plus I have petty office shit going on with a new secretary.  Showing me her atitude.   I'm sorry for venting, but I'm feelin a tad bit better now.  Thanks for whoever is out there listening.  

Its 6 weeks come Monday until my surgery!!!!  Yay ME!  I truely can not wait.  I'm so ready to go now.  That was my bright side to today, plus the fact it's my friday off tomorrow.  Talk to you later.

I don't know about you all......but I can not take any more of this crap at this time of the year.  I'm getting the spring itch if you know what I mean.  I've said it before, I'm not a snow kind of girl.  I'm only here at work today because I have an interview....We will see how it goes.  I feel I've been on numerous interviews over this past year and I have not been selected.  I'm definately qualified for those promotions, however I feel my being overweight is what is holding me back from getting selected.  Who wants a fat secretary?  Even though I dress nice and I am more than qualified.  Go figured.  I'm sure I will not get this job either, but as I told a friend of mine, I bet you $100 that after I loose weight I'll get promoted.  Yes it is sad to think that we live and work in such a discriminated world.  

And in other news of the day.....I had a doctor's appointment with Dr. Sawyna yesterday.  Yippie...it getting closer.  My next appointment  is on 20 Mar 08.  My surgery date has been moved up...don't to excited now.  It was only moved up one day...lol  Yes my surgery date is now 21 Apr 08.  Also, my surgery is no longer at Sacred Hearts Hospital.  That also has been changed to Westfield Hospital at 4814 West Tilghman Street, Allentown, PA.  It is like those surgical centers you see on Big Medicine for example.   It has hotel like qualities about it.  It's very beautiful and state of the art.  I can not wait.  I'm getting so excited.  All I have left to do is give a stool sample....lol, and see the dietician and psychologist before my next appoitment.  After that, it is submitted to insurance company and wait for surgery day.  It will be here before I know it and I can not wait to be on the losers bench.  It's gonna feel sooooo good!