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 Only three more days of liquid I'm so excited to have a variety of something to eat. But I have to admit being on liquids was easy it took away my options of what I was going to eat so it was harder to make the wrong choices.  I am now reminded that I need to plan my meals. I also realized I need to have a backup plan all the time.  This really helped me to remember to go back to the basics.  I can say I was a little disappointed not to lose more weight than I have in the last three weeks.  today I weighed in and I have lost a total of 8 pounds in almost 3 weeks.  It's hard to remember how fast the weight came off before compared to how it came off this time.  But I do know that if I keep making the right choices my body will level out where needs to be.  I still have not been doing well at recording what I put in my mouth.  My goal for this week is to make a plan for what I want to eat and to record what I have.  I also have not been exercising as much because I haven't had as much energy.  So my goal this week is to work out at least 3 to 4 times.  It has been a hard three weeks and I have had a lot of people criticize me for doing this.  Many people who have not had gastric bypass tell me I'm making the wrong choices by doing liquids.  But I am thankful I didn't listen to them I feel good about what is to come.  I absolutely feel like I'm back on track with where my eating needs to be in making better choices!

Ok, so I decided since I have a friend that just had RNY that I would do her post op diet with her for motivation for me to get back on the wagon!  One of my dr's called it a "time out" and he suggested doing liquids unitl you are at the weight you want to be or unitl you reach your lowest weight thus far.  My goal.  to go from 146 to 130.  Today I weigh in at 139.  I have been on liquids now for ten days!  I am REALLY tired of liquids and ready to eat real food again! 

Things I need to get better at:  Logging my food!!! that is probably the number one thing that will make the biggest difference for me!  Oh, and to stop cooking things that are not healthy for me or my family (like the 50 cupcakes on my counter waiting to go to the teachers for the first day of school).  I have no idea why I do this to myself!  So crazy!

I am always looking for friends to share my journey with, and friends to share healthy good recipes! 

Now, for another week of liquids!

ok, so today marks a new journey for me.  I hit my highest weight since I started gaining weight and have decided to take drastic measures to turn this thing around!  My inspiration is my friend Eryn who is going into surgery as we speak for her RNY!  I have decided I am going to do the post op diet with her to re-start my weight loss and get my body back where it should be.  Yes I had been eating junk that I should not be eating.  And even though, changing my eating habits would help... unfortunaly I was not heavy before just by chance... I can do great one day and then fall on my face the next... so hopefully by going back to the post op diet I will have the time to restart and retrain myself again in the right way!

I will only be weighing myself once a week and no more.  My first two weeks is liquids only, protien drinks, crystal light, water, unsweetend applesauce and sugar free jello. 

today 8/16/12 starting weight 143.  no goal weight posted (however I would like to be somewhere between 125-135)

well, i have officially gained ten pounds!  so now i am back on the wagon trying to figure out all this stuff again!  i just want to kick myself for ever trying to eat bread and sugar again!  but i will prevail!  i will beat this and win!  i will start being more active on here and make sure i do the right things... because i don't want that ten to become twenty, and that is so easy to do!  i have started the five day pouch test to help me!  and i have started kicking up my exercising again!! 

Wow it's been a long time since I put anything on here!  But things are going well.  I had my gall bladder out about a month and a half ago.  I am struggling to keep my weight down... I go between 133-142 a lot.  My "oh no" weight is the 142.  I have to say that I have eaten sugar, and i hardly ever dump anymore.  Wish I had never picked up a cookie or sweet but every day I try to keep it from my mouth!!  I still never have soda pop and don't drink when I eat.  I workout all the time so that helps!  I did just do my first half marathon last november!  yea!!  and I still look at the scale and wish it to be less.... hmmm... guess that will never change! 

I still say that my gastric by-pass was the best thing I ever did.  The tummy tuck was a horrible experience.. and I still don't think I would do it again... but of coarse... now I want my legs done and I need some boobs!  Will I ever be happy with what I have?  I do love to see a smaller me in the mirror though!

I think this was one of the worst decisions of my life, if not the worst!  I would not choose to do this again if I could go back and do it all over again.  I understand everyone has different issues and my circumstance may be unique to me, but in my case, and me personally, I would not reccomend this to anyone!

I was so excited to get my pannilectomy.  I was working out two to three hours a day to make sure my body was in the best physical shape for surgery.  I had lost 140 lbs, and although my skin was not horrible, I definitly wanted the pannilectomy to get rid of it!  I was so ready, or so I thought, for this chapter to start.

My surgery was on Friday, February 4th.  Everything went fine, I was doing great even into Saturday.  Saturday morning the nurse came to get me up to try to sit up and walk, and when I sat up on the side of the bed I passed out.  So they put me back in the bed and waited for the dr.  Two hours later I needed to go to the bathroom but they had already taken my catheder out.  The nurse asked the dr, and he said I could use a bed pan or go to the rest room.  Of coarse I was not going to use a bed pan!  I am going to the bathroom, so I hurried with the nurse and my husbands help to get to the potty, and as soon as I got there, passed out again.  They took my blood and ran some tests and my blood count was down to 9 and was supposed to be a 10.  I don't even remember them re-inserting the catheder, but they did.  That was when they started the first blood transfusion.  I felt fine, except for a little pain in my tummy, wich I thought and the nurse agreed that it was probably gas pains from the surgery.  I was ordered to stay in bed until my blood count went up.

Sunday morning my blood count was at 8 and my stomach pain was starting to increase.  The dr came in and said that I had internal bleeding and had to have another surgery.  They then decided to give me a pick line instead of an iv line.  By noon I was being taken to surgery again, to be re-opened and my bleeding stopped and cleaned out.  My husband and I truely beleived I was going to bleed to death on the table and that was the end of the line for me.  By the time I was going into surgery the pain in my stomach had increased to almost unbearable!  It was a very irie feeling, beeing wheeled into the empty surgery area on a Sunday afternoon with no one around except for the dr and nurses for my surgery.

Thankfully by Thursday, and after 8, yes I said eight, blood transfussions, I was doing better and released to go home.  The dr said he thought everything was fine, although I may have to have another surgery, but only time would tell.  I went home with four drains, to be cleaned twice a day, and my compression band.

I had one drain taken out per week.  One week I made the mistake of not takeing pain meds before my apt, and that was a HUGE mistake!  Thankfully my husband had gotten time off from work to help at home and my mother was able to come and help as well, as there would have been no other way we could have made it.  We also had a great support system in place with friends and church family that were so wonderful to help!

Now I am five weeks post op - still not feeling 100%  I would say I am at about 75-80% right now.  I still get tired, I still hurt where my bleeding was, I still swell by the end of the day and I am depressed from everything I have been through.

With all that said, I know my God is bigger than me and my troubles and that He will see me through to the end.  God says in John 14:18 "I will not leave you as orphans:  I will come to you"  I know God did not and will not leave me.  I did learn that my body and my obsession with my body is not the fight to be fighting, it is not the reason I am here, and there are many more things that are much more important than my skin.  God showed me in the time before my second surgery that I am to love God first and then love others the way that He has loved me.  A simple truth we all know, but is much harder to live by.

before and after pics to be posted soon

Today I reached MY goal weight!  When I started this process, I always thought, if I could get down to 140 I would be happy and 135 would be perfect!  Today I finally hit that goal!!  This is celebration day!  I did post my new pic on my comparison pics... so it is way worth checking out!  My doctor wants me down another 10lbs... and I am ok with that!  But for today.... I celebrate!

33 weeks post op - down 126 lbs to 144!  feeling great!  still have to watch what i eat... but i can say i have a taste here or there of a few things i shouldn't.  i am very careful though, dont' want to be in danger of going the other way!  i am still losing pretty good.. it has now slowed to 2-3 lbs per week.  still say it is the best thing i ever did!
wearing between a size 6-8 right now!  Woo Hoo!

21 weeks and I can finally say that I have lost a total of 100lbs!  Wow!  I cannot believe it went so quickly!  Things have still been going great and I have had no major problems!  I would still do this again, and am very happy with my decision to do it!  My life has changed for the better, and I am still learning how to not let food control my life!  And I have to recognize and give credit and glory all to God for making this all happen for me!

I am finally not obese, only overweight with a BMI of 29!!!  I have not blogged in so long... I have been so busy!  I decided to go back to work full time, so I started that about three weeks ago, so I have been running crazy!  With that, I have tried eating a few things that I should not... but I have been careful and limit myself.  I still have not had a dumping experience.  I am now down to 174, wich is only 4lbs away from 100lbs lost!  I still to this day do not regret having the surgery!  new pics to be posted today!  Oh, and I can fit into size 12 jeans!!! YEA!
Merry Christmas!