urban.pigeon
hard to believe
Sep 27, 2009
I got on the scale this morning before a shower and am still not quite sure it was right. It said 199 pounds. 199 pounds. That's just under 200. I can't imagine how long it would have taken or how hard it would have been for me to be less than 200 pounds if I hadn't had surgery. But it's been such a short time. I still feel and look swollen, but it's hard to tell how much of that is my insides and how much is from the insane allergic reaction I had to the spray adhesive they use during surgery.
I keep having the fleeting thought wondering if it's true, like when is the number going to go back up to what I really weigh? It is so difficult for me to get my mind around the fact that I might have actually lost that amount of weight and that this is a permenant direction. Craziness.
back to the books.
rachel
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I keep having the fleeting thought wondering if it's true, like when is the number going to go back up to what I really weigh? It is so difficult for me to get my mind around the fact that I might have actually lost that amount of weight and that this is a permenant direction. Craziness.
back to the books.
rachel
No counting here...
Sep 08, 2009
Two - or is it three, days before surgery. What am I going to do?! Oh I know...move forward one day at a time on a great path to a better me! RIght. Imagining all the things that will soon be easier for me to do. Focus on the positive, the potential, the future. Right. Still scary for some reason...
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