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HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007
Jan 10, 2007
GIRDLE
IN THE 60'S THEY WERE BURNING THEIR BRAS
IN THE 06 IM BURNING MY GIRDLE
CAUSE A GIRL SHOULD NOT BE TORTURED LIKE THIS
I'M SORRY IF YU CAN'T HANDLE THE FACT THAT I'M FAT
BUT EVERYONE CAN'T BE A SIZE 4
AND I'M NOT TAKING IT NO MORE
NO LONGER WILL I WEAR UNDERGARMENTS
THAT SQUEEZE MY ROOLS INTO OTHER PLACES
AND THERE ARED MORE THAN A FEW WOMAN IN HERE
TRYING TO KEEP STRAIGHT FACES
WHILE THEIR PANTIES ARE CUTTING OF CIRCULATION
TRYING TO PLEASE A NATION THAT CAN NEVER BE PLEASED
CAUSE IT'S OBESITY IF YOUR TOO BIG
AND IF YOUR TOO SMALL
IT'S THE SKINNY WOMAN'S DISEASE
ANOREXIA OR BULIMIA
BUT BELIEVE ME WHEN I TELL YA
I LOVE MY FOOD TO MUCH TO BE THROWING IT UP
AND DAMN IT I EARNED THIS GUT
BY GIVING BIRTH TO 2 BOYS AND 2 GIRLS
AND THERE IS AT LEAST ONE MAN IN THIS WORLD
THAT CAN'T RESIST THESE CHILDBEARING HIPS
AND HE KNOWS HE HAS TO COME EQUIPPED
IF HE WANTS TO BE SPENDING TIME WITH ALL OF THIS
BIG GIRS IF YOU FEEL ME
LET ME SEE YOU RAISE YOUR FIST
GENTLEMEN THAT AGREE
LET ME SEE YOU DO THE SAME
CAUSE ITS A SHAME
MORE THAN HALF THE FEMALE POPULATION
IS A SIZE 12 OR UP
BUT ITS ALWAYS A SKINNY PERSON
TELLING YOU, YOU NEED TO SHAPE UP
TRACY CALDWELL
A "MIND EVOLUTION" PRODUCTION 2006
WHERE IT ALL BEGINGS
Oct 14, 2006
Hello all my story starts out just like most everyone else.I have been fat most of my life and just got tired of being tired all the time. I started this wls ride back on December 20th 2004 by going to my first support group meeting, can i just tell you how overwhelmed I was by all the nice people. Who was just like me fat and looking for a better way of life. I have an appt with Dr. Tishler on December 23, 2004 @ 7:45 in the morning can't wait to meet the man who is going to help to change my life. Well until next time.
well today I got to meet Dr Tishler and he was great let me just tell you, when I arrived there was only one other lady in our group meeting and we watched a video about the surgery and later went over to meet with the Dr. one on one. Thats when he and I went over that whole packet of papers that I filled out, You all know with all of your health info. Anyway he told me that I would make for a good canidate for the surgery I was giving a long list of people to call in reguards to appts. to make and was told the news that i really didn't want to hear and that was my ins. AETNA PPO was one of those ins co. that require that you do a six month diet with a doctor before you can even try to go for approval for surgery. I was like what thats crazy here I am thingk look I've been fat for how many years and they want me to go on another diet for six months and get weighted every month. Dr. Tishler tells me to calm down and that as long as I don't gain a pound then i should be fine however try to lose as much as you can every month because if i weigh more the day of surgery then when I first came to see him on Dec. 23 he will cancel surgery until I lose the weight. Until next time.
Well Happy New Year everyone. I pray it was a safe one for everbody. well its the end of the month and all of my test are done, finished, complete. All Im wondering is what the hell is the hold up? Im so ready to have my surgery and start my new life over. The lady in my department at work is going for her surgery in 2 days luck duck I tell you some people have all the luck. anywho I wish her all the best and can't wait to be a bench warmer with the rest of you post op peoples. Oh yeah I went to the first of 6 visit with Mary Noon really nice lady she is the nutritionst at Hartford Hospital and did my first weigh in and it wasn't that bad I lose a couple of pounds but that beats gaining any. Until next time
Hi gang hows life on the losers bench? I went for my 2nd visit of 6 with Mrs Noon and again she was great, she told me some better ways of cooking food and how to make better choices of food when I eat. Im down another 3 pounds hey I wonder if I keep this up I might not need this surgery anymore (SIKE) My coworker who had the surgery is doing great she looks so good can't wait until she comes back to work so I can get all my questions out.
MARCH 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME- HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME-HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
Can you tell this month is my birthday yes on the 21st I will be 33 god I'm getting old nah just better well guys I went for that stupid monthly appt with Mary and guess what I gained 3 lbs oh well I'm not even going to sweat the small stuff cause its my birthday and i'm going to have some cake now Mary. No but really she wasn't upset at me just told me that I can do it and I will just not this month April is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can somebody please tell me why i was being so cheap and took the cheapest insurance my job offerd. If I had chosen something else like Ct Care my behind would be post op by now but no I had to go with aetna dame me lol
APRIL 2005
MAY 2005
JULY 2005
Hey baf family well im up and at em felling like my old self again minus some 26 lbs holla dolla, anyway this past weekend I got really sick. I went to my nieces birthday party and tried to eat some food you know real cooked food jerk chicken, rice and peas, curry goat, baked zitti all the good stuff, now mind you I didn't even eat all of that I just tried to eat a little rice and some of the zitti and there I was at the party showin my azz throwing up all over the place my bf was like we should just leave cause your sick as hell. I was a little scared cause up untill this point I could eat what ever I wanted to with out getting sick. Im not going to stress about it cause I have a doc appt at the begining of the month so I will talk with Dr. Tishler about it then.
Im back from the doctor and down 29 lbs and I think I am too cute anyway how is everydody else doing? I must tell you that everyday I get sick, Im so tired of it every where I go. I went back to work on June 15th and I got sick there whats the matter with me. The nurses that I work with feel that I came back way to early but I was like hey if I can go to walmart everyday for 4 to 5 hours then I can come to work for 4 to 5 hours and get paid and then go and spend money. The fact that we just got the house is not helping my shopping any let me tell you. Well I really need some clothes bad my stuff is falling off of me as I walk. I can really tell a difference in my upper body more so then the bottom half of me but in time that shall leave also.
SEPTEMBER 2005
THE WEIGHT IS DROPPING OFF OF ME FOR REAL. I LOVE IT, WON'T CATCH ME COMPLAINING ABOUT IT (UNLESS I LOSE TO MUCH LOL) IM NOT THROWING UP HALF AS MUCH AS I USE TO AND THATS GREAT I CAN EAT ALMOST ANYTHING EXCEPT CHICKEN BOY DO WE FIGHT AND IT WINS ALL THE TIME. CAN I JUST TELL YOU ALL THAT I LOVE EDDY'S SUGERFREE ICE CREAM
WHAT UP WHAT UP WHAT UP PEOPLES MY LEGS ARE ON FIRE FROM THE WALKING I KNOW I KNOW NO COMPLAINING YET BUT I REALLY NEED TO MOVE SOME MORE. THEY GIRLS AT WORK ARE TALKING ME INTO WALKING UP THE STAIRS AT WORK ALL TWEVLE FLOORS ARE THEY CRAZY? THEY SAY THAT IT WILL HELP MY LEGS ALOT CAUSE THE TOP HALF OF ME IS SO NICE AND FIRM MY ARMS ARE NOT ALL WAVING OR ANYTHING BUT MY LEGS. NOW THATS A WHOLE NOTHER STORY. IF I COULD JUST CUT THEM OFF AND PUT THEM ON STAGE THEY WILL MAKE THE WHOLE CROWD LIFE ALL BY THEMSELVES. ITS SO SAD. THIS WEEKEND I FINALLY WENT THRU MY CLOSET AND GOT ALL THOSE TO BIG CLOTHES OUT OF THERE AND MY GOD I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO WERE. NOTHING THE GIRLS AT WORK KEEP TELLING ME EVERYDAY SHELENE DON'T WHERE THOSE PANTS NO MORE THEIR TO BIG. I NEED TO GO SHOPPING REALLY BAD BUT BEING A NEW HOME OWNER KEEPS A SISTER BROKE BUT SOMETHING HAS GOT TO GIVE I LOVE SHOPPING .
OCTOBER 2005
HEY FAMILY IM BACK AND WITH GOOD NEWS WELL EARLIER THIS MONTH I WENT FOR MY 5 MONTH POST OP VISIT AND SO BAD DID I WANT TO BE 100 LBS LOST BUT IM NOT. HOWEVER AS OF TODAY I HAVE LOST A TOTAL OF 81 LBS. I CAN'T BELIVE IT I MEAN REALLY I CANT BELIVE IT THOSE POUNDS ARE GONE FOREVER EVER EVER EVER EVER. YIPPIE I COULD JUST SIT HERE AND CRY IM SO DAME HAPPY WOW GO ME, OF COURSE IM DANCING WRITE NOW AS I TYPE THIS GO ME GO ME GO ME. ANYWAY NOTHING REALLY GOING ON WITH ME RIGHT NOW JUST TRYING TO GET THE HOUSE AND THE KIDS READY FOR THE HOLIDAYS . IM GOING TO TRY TO START TO POST OR UPDATE MY LIFE ON A DAILY BASIS TO JOT DOWN MY PROGRESS AS I GO ALONG FROM THIS POINT ON SO UNTIL TOMORROW
DECEMBER 2005
WELL FAMILY IM ALMOST THERE, ALMOST 100 LBS GONE FOREVER IM AT 91 POUNDS DOWN RIGHT KNOW AND CAN I PLEASE TELL YOU THAT IM LOVING IT BIG TIME. ITS BEEN 5-1/2 MONTHS SINCE SURGERY AND IM DOWN 91 POUNDS YES GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME. IM NOWHERE NEAR AS SICK AS I WAS WHEN I FIRST CAME HOME FROM SURGERY THERE IS NOT THAT MUCH THROWING UP ANYMORE AND I CAN JUST ABOUT EAT ANYTHING I WANT WITH THE EXCEPTION OF CHICKEN WELL NOT TO MUCH CHICKEN ANYWAY. BUT I MAKE DO AND JUST EAT WHAT I CAN WHEN I CAN MY HAIR HAS STARTED TO FALL OUT BIG TIME AND I WENT TO THE HAIRDRESSER AND SHE SAID THE SAME THING LIKE WHAT IS GOING ON WITH THE HAIR. I NEED MORE PROTEIN BADLY. WELL PER THE BMI SYSTEM IM JUST OBESE NOW WOW WHAT A DIFFERENCE 91 POUNDS MAKES ON THAT DAME THING .
HEY FAMILY WELL IM STILL TRYING TO GET THESE 8 POUNDS OFF OF ME WHAT IS THE MATTER ITS LIKE IM SO CLOSE TO THE 100 LBS MARK BUT YET SO FAR. I FEEL PRETTY GOOD LOVING THE NEW SIZE THAT I AM. MY HAIR IS STILL COMING OUT ALOT AND ONLY IN CERTAIN AREAS LIKE AROUND THE FRONT OF MY HEAD AND OF COURSE I ALWAYS WEAR MY HAIR PULLED BACK IN A PONYTAIL. WELL UNLESS I HIT THE 100 LBS GONE MARK I HOPE EVERYONE HAS A BLESSED AND WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS, TRY NOT TO STRESS OUT TO MUCH OVER THE HOLIDAYS THEY WILL BE OVER SOON
SHELENE
I BELIEVE THAT YOU SHOULDN'T BE SO EAGER TO FIND OUT A SECRET. IT COULD CHANGE YOUR LIFE FOREVER
WELL HELLO FAMILY WHATS UP? GUESS WHAT I HAVE MADE IT TO 100 LBS GONE FOREVER AND IM SO FREAKING HAPPY LET ME TELL YOU IT SEEMS LIKE IT TOOK ME FOREVER TO LOSE THAT LAST 7LBS BUT I DID IT. LET ME TELL YOU ALL HOW MUCH OF A SHOPPER I AM NOW. IM IN SOMEBODY'S STORE EVERYDAY AND I HAVE BECOME A BIG OLD CHEAP SPENDER WHATS UP WITH THAT? I MEAN I DON'T WANT TO BUY ANYTHING THAT COST MORE THEN $15.00 UNLESS ITS SHOES OR SNEAKERS EVERYTHING ELSE $15.00 OR LESS. CHEAP I KNOW I JUST CAN'T SEE SPENDING A WHOLE LOT OF MONEY ON CLOTHES I WON'T BEABLE TO FIT NEXT WEEK SO DOTS HAS BECOME A CHICKS BESTFRIEND (SORRY KISHA) YOU KNOW YOUR MY GIRL. WELL UNTIL NEXT TIME I WILL ADD SOME PICTURES SOON AND MY CENTRY CARD.
MARCH 2006
HELLO FAMILY IM BACK AND STUCK AT THE SAME DAME 106 LBS LOST. I KNOW I KNOW THATS A WHOLE PERSON BUT I WANT MORE OFF. I REALLY NEED TO GET TO DOING MY PART BY GOING BACK TO THE GYM I WAS AT A POINT WHERE I WAS GOING EVERY DAME DAY AND THEN THE WEIGHT STARTED TO STOP COMING OFF AND I FREAKING FREAKED OUT I COULDN'T BELIVE THAT THE WEIGHT JUST STOPED COMING OFF. SO I STOPPED GOING! CRAZY I KNOW. BUT IT GOT TO THE POINT WHERE I DIDN'T WANT TO BUILD MUSCLE CAUSE THATS HARDER TO LOSE THEN THE POUNDS. ON TOP OF EVERYTHING ELSE MY FULL TIME JOB HAS DECIDED TO HAVE A NEW COMPUTER SYSTEM PUT IN SO WE ALL HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO USE IT AND ITS SO THATS MEANS OVERTIME. AND I AM COUNTING ALL OF THE MONEY. I HAVE BEEN GOING TO WORK FROM 6 AM TO 6 PM MONDAY THRU FRIDAY AND THEN THE PART TIME JOB ON SUNDAY I FELL LIKE I DON'T KNOW MY KIDS AND HONEY ANYMORE. MY BABY HAS REALLY STEP UP TO THE PLATE AT HOME FOR ME HE WORKS A REAL UGLY SHIFT 11-8 EVERYDAY SO HE HAS BEEN PLAYING MR MOM IN THE MORNINGS GETTING THE KIDS OFF TO SCHOOL AND BREAKFAST. THANKS BABY FOR ALL THAT YOU DO I LOVE YOU. CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO TO GET THE SCALE MOVING AGAIN CAUSE A SISTA NEEDS HELP. AND I NEED CLOTHES SO BAD BUT THERE IS JUST NO TIME AND NOT ENOUGH MONEY TO BUY ALL I WANT WHEN I WANT. WELL FAM UNTIL THE NEXT TIME IM WORKING ON MY PHOTO BUCKET AND PICTURE TRAIL ALSO JUST BEAR WITH ME PLEASE ITS COMING.
HEY FAMILY IM BACK SORRY ITS TAKING ME SO LONG TO POST AND UPDATE BUT A GIRL HAS BEEN BUSY (YEAH RIGHT) ANYWHO WHATS UP WITH EVERYBODY WELL WHERE DO I BEGIN? WELL THIS MONTH ON THE VERY FIRST DAY I WAS A YEAR OLD. CONGRATS TO ME GO SHORTY ITS MY BIRTHDAY SO I PARTIED LIKE IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY. ANYWAY I HAVE LOST A TOTAL OF 112 LBS AND I FEEL GREAT AND LOOK EVEN BETTER(LOL). I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GO ABOUT AND GET MY CENTURY CARD SO I KNOW THAT IM A LIFE LONG MEMBER. MY BMI SAYS THAT I AM STILL OVER OBESE, HOWEVER I WILL GLADLY TAKE THAT SEEING THAT I STARTED THIS JOURNEY AT EXTREMELY OBESE. I CAN HONESTLY SAY THAT I DO NOT REGREAT A DAY OF THIS SURGERY AND WOULD DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN IF I HAD TO. I DID HAVE A SMALL SET BACK WHICH HAD ME BACK IN THE HOSPITAL FROM MONDAY TRU THURSDAY BUT I WAS BACK AT WORK ON MONDAY MORNING BRIGHT AND EARLY. CAN I JUST SAY THAT GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME. WHAT HAPPENED TO ME WAS I WAS STARTING TO FEEL SOME REALLY SHARP PAINS ON THE LEFT SIDE OF MY STOMACH AND COULDN'T TAKE THE PAIN ANYLONGER SO WHILE AT WORK I WENT OVER TO THE ER AND THEY SAID THAT I NEEDED TO TAKE A CAT SCAN SO THEY HAD COME AND BOUGHT THIS HUGE BOTTLE OF THIS WHITE DRINK FOR ME TO HAVE BEFORE THE TEST AND OF COURSE IM LIKE UM IM A GASTRIC BYPASS PT I CAN'T FINISH ALL OF THIS AND THE NURSE SAID OH WE KNOW THATS WHY WE PUT THE CAT SCAN OFF FOR LIKE 2 HOURS SO YOU HAVE PLENY OF TIME TO DRINK MOST OF IT . SO THERE I AM DRINKING THIS STUFF AND WE FINELLY GO TO TAKE THE TEST AND THE NURSE SAYS WELL WE DON'T SEE ANYTHING WRONG HOWEVER THE PAIN IS STILL THERE SO THE NURSE TELLS ME THAT THEY ARE GOING TO GET ME A TRAY OF FOOD AND IF I CAN KEEP IT DOWN THEY WHERE GOING TO LET ME GO HOME. OK FINE BUT IM THINK WHY WOULDN'T I KEEP THE FOOD DOWN I HAVE NOT THROWN UP IN LONG TIME. AS THE NURSE LEAVES THE ROOM HERE COMES ALL THE WHITE DRINK THEY HAD ME DRINK FOR THE TEST SO THE NURSE COMES BACK AND SAYS OK I GUESS YOU ARE STAYING LET ME CALL DR. TISHLER AND LET HIM KNOW WHATS GOING ON. I FINALLY GET UP ON THE FLOOR AND THEY SAY I CAN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO EAT UNTIL THEY FIND OUT WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME SO OK THEY GIVE ME SOME PAIN MEDS I KISS DH AND OUT LIKE A LIGHT I GO UNTIL THE PAIN WAKES ME UP AND THE DOC ON CALL COMES IN TO TELL ME THAT TOMORROW I AM GOING TO TAKE SOME TEST TO SEE IF THE SEE ANYTHING DOWN IN MY STOMACH SO I SAY OK THE NEXT MORNING I GO TO DO AN UPPER GI TEST AND OF COURSE THEY CAN'T FIND ANYTHING SO THEN MY DR. TISHLER COMES IN AND SAYS WHAT IN THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU CAUSE YOU HAVE NEVER COMPLAINED ABOUT ANYTHING SINCE I HAVE KNOWN YOU SO HE LOOKS AT THE TEST RESULTS AND THE CAT SCAN AND SAYS EITHER I HAVE A VERY SMALL BOWL OBSTRUCTION OR MY INTESTINE IS KNOTTED UP SO EITHER WAY I WILL HAVE TO GO BACK INTO SURGERY TO FIX THE PROBLEM. AT THIS POINT IM A LITTLE SCARED SO I JUST TELL ME THAT I HAVE COMPLETE FAITH IN HIM AND TO DO WHAT HE HAS TO DO.WEDNESDAY MORNING IM OFF TO THE OR AGAIN AND WHEN I WAKE UP IN RECEVERY DR. TISHLER TELLS ME WHAT THE DEAL IS. LOOKS LIKE I HAD 1 SINGLE STRAND OF SCAR TISSUE THAT WAS STUCK TO MY PANCRESS WHICH INTURN HAD MY INTESTINE KNOTING. OUNCE THE DOC CUT THE SCAR TISSUE THE INTESTINE JUST CAME A LOOSE ALL BY THEM SELVES THE SAID HE DIDN'T EVEN TOUCH THEM THE CUT OF SCAR TISSUE DID PUT A HOLE IN MY PANCRESS WHICH HE JUST GAVE ME A COUPLE OF STICHES AND THAT WAS THAT. CAN I JUST SAY THE PAIN WAS GONE NO MORE PAIN IN THE STOMACH AREA AT ALL LATER THAT DAY I WAS EATING REGULAR FOOD AND I WENT HOME ON THURSDAY AND THE BEST PART WAS HE WENT BACK IN THRU THE SAME CUTS AS WHEN I HAD THE RNY I LOVE THIS MAN HE IS TRULY A GOD SENT.
JUNE 2006
HELLO FAMILY WELL I HAVE FINALLY MADE IT TO 199 POUNDS I CAN'T FREAKIN BELIVE IT I HAVE ALL WAYS SAID THAT OUNCE I GET TO UNDER 200 LBS THAT I WAS GOING TO MIAMI TO FIND A STRIP CLUB AND TAKE OFF ALL OF MY CLOTHES AND BOY DO I WANT TO DO IT. IM SO DAME EXCITIED TO BE UNDER 200 POUNDS I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU. I REALLY NEED TO GO AND BUY SOME CLOTHES THAT FIT ME CAUSE THE ONES I HAVE ARE REALLY TO BIG. I ALSO NEED TO ADD SOME PICTURES AND STOP PLAYING CAUSE I KNOW THAT I LOOK REALLY DIFFERENT.
OCTOBER 2006
HEY BAF FAMILY IM BACK AND I EVEN HAVE SOME PICTURES UP OF ME THIS TIME JUST CHECK THEM OUT . WELL IM DOWN 115 LBS AND I LOVE IT RIGHT KNOW I WEIGH IN AT 197 BUT IM TRULY HAPPY WITH THAT I CAN EAT ANYTHING THAT I WANT TO EAT . I WAS TALKING TO ONE OF MY FRIENDS THAT HAD THE SURGERY ABOUT 3 YEARS AGO ABOUT THE BAF BALL THATS COMING UP IN JUNE AND SHE REALLY WANTS TO GO . SHE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THAT THIS SITE WAS AROUND SO WE ARE THINKING ABOUT COMING TO THE BALL . I EVEN HAVE A COUPLE OF MY EMPLOYEES TALKING ABOUT COMING TO THE BALL BY THEN THEY SHOULD BOTH BE POST OP. THE PICTURE THING IS SO EASY TO ME KNOW BEFORE I COLDN'T FIGURE IT OUT FOR THE LIFE OF ME BUT I GOT AND THERE IS NO STOPPING ME KNOW. I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO LOSE SOME MORE WEIGHT BUT I NEED TO LEARN TO DO THE RIGHT THINGS AND STOP EATING THE WRONG THINGS LIKE CAKE HOW ABOUT THAT IS SUCH MY WEAKNESS IT 'S A SHAME BUT I NEED TO GET DOWN TO LIKE 170 THAT WAS MY GOAL FROM THE BEGINING AND IM SO CLOSE TO THAT I MUST KEEP GOING . I HAVE NOT BEEN TO THE GYM IN A WHILE OK LIKE MONTHS BUT I GOING TO START GOING BACK AS SOON AS MY HOURS CHANGE HERE AT WORK RIGHT KNOW IM WORKING LIKE 12 HOUR DAYS AND WHEN I GET OFF OF WORK IT LIKE NOWAY DO I WANT TO GO TO SOME DAME GYM BUT SOON THE OVERTIME WILL BE DONE AND I WILL BE BACK TO WORKING MY 8 HOUR SHIFT AND THEN I CAN GET MY BUTT BACK INTO THE GYM . WELL PEPPS UNTIL NEXT TIME
