Melissa ~ my sugery is on the 7th and I am going through the same thing. Every time there is a death, I say to myself "are you sure you want to do this". As the date gets closer, I get more scared but this website has helped me realize that most of the pre-ops feel the same way. We all want someone to tell us we will have no complications. I have decided that if I don't have this surgery, I will be miserable and alone for the rest of my life so to me that is a slow painful death and I don't want that. I NEED this surgery to help me live a healthier, happier life. If I don't have this surgery, I will continue to have health problems. Try to stay positive. Although the deaths are extremely sad, it is a very small percentage of all the porple who have had this surgery. Hugs ~ Stacy