Hi Shannon, You are feeling what we all have felt going into this surgery. I think your head's in the right place you've weighed the pros and cons and being a nurse you know what can happen, I'm sure that you know too, that a positive outlook is so important in healing. If we didn't have families it would be so much easier going in and not having to worry about anyone else. I think it's always the care givers who suffer the most anxiety. Just give it all to God, who will be watching over you, and your surgeon, they both have your best interests at heart, and remember that we will all be praying for your speedy recovery. BIGGHUGGZZZZ to you and your family, and thank you for being a Nurse;)