Hi, Jennine. Read your post and then your profile. I just wanted to tell you to not be so hard on yourself. We ALL make mistakes. We ALL make bad choices, bad decisions. It doesn't make you a bad person. If other people treat you badly, that's on them, not you. You don't DESERVE to be mistreated. My wish for you would be for you to wake up tomorrow, look yourself in the mirror and realize what an awesome, empowered woman you are. You have survived bad relationships, bad jobs, raising children, losing another person in weight and YOU'RE STILL HERE. You are stronger than you realize and my hope is that you grab that power to survive with both hands and take on your life like there's no tomorrow. None of us are guaranteed a tomorrow. Make today count as much as possible. If your husband doesn't appreciate you - it's HIS loss. Re-read your profile and I think you'll find that you haven't been happy with him for quite a while. Maybe (even though it stinks right now) this is just the thing you need to be free to live YOUR best life. Good luck to you and my thoughts are with you!!