Damon,
You need to cheer up!!! I know self pay has to be very hard. Mark & I would never be able to do it. I am so proud that you are able to budget in a way that you are able to pay and be determined to not let the money end stop you.
I have went on the regrets and memorial pages and I had a couple of reservations; however, my quality of life sucks out loud right now and I may be trading this set of problems for a new set but I am willing to try. There are so many more success stories- of people who 2, 3 5 years out that are normal weight people; living and breathing; being abel to enjoy taking a walk; playing with thier children or grandchildren- right now I can't do any of those things real well and I really want to have that chance. Please don't get discourgaged - You know doom and gloom will only make you sad "Think happy thoughts"
Luv Ya, Pam