Hi Scooby doo,It's not unusual to be filled with all kinds of emotions. I'm a very emotional person, it don't take much for me to cry. I even cry when others are in pain or in need of a comforting shoulder to lean on.I'm sure your having several types of emotions,sadness at being alone,feelings of despair,your love for your children, the surgery itself,and just alittle bit of everything.I'll lift you up in my prayers.I'm a STRONG believer of prayers!!!But right now I just ask God to put his arms around you and to comfort you and to reassure you of his LOVE for YOU!!!May he give you peace of mind.Lots of Love, Lora