Alicia, the previous post was correct, we are never alone, our Lord and Savior is always by our side. He always loves us unconditionally! I understand how you must hurt from the behavior of you 2 friends and the prospect of going through this alone. Your husband will be there the day of surgery which will be some comfort I know. But the good news is that you are taking this wonderful new step out of love of your self. Once you have your life back, you will be free to embark on what ever adventure you are led to. If that includes your friends or new ones will be seen! The Bible tells us "all things work together for the good", so be of good cheer, your life is about to begin anew! If you would like to email me any time you feel alone or like you just want to talk, feel free, redeemed801@aol.com God Bless you on this journey! Toni <><