Dear Angela,
I know it looks really bleak right now, but just know that it will get better. There was a time when I, too, seemed to hit bottom and was so totally depressed that it felt like I was encased in my own shroud of darkness. Eventually, however, things changed. That is the law of life. NOTHING stays the same forever. Just think of this period of time as being a lesson, and I promise it will pass. It will get better. Hang in there.
LInda