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Summer is more than half over
Aug 06, 2008
Well, I have been bouncing around 195 since February. I finally got down to 190 last week, but after a weekend trip to Dorney Park, I'm back up again. I guess I should be happy that the weight is really staying off. For the past six months I've been at or around 195 lbs, which is 115 lbs lost in 18 months, a year after surgery. I've never been able to lose and keep it off before. So this is the glass half full part.
The glass half empty says that I am not really losing any more. I am stuck!
The glass half full is talking again. It is pointing out that I was able to ride my bike for four and a half hours (with around 30 minutes break for breakfast) and I made it 44 miles on my 44th birthday. I didn't even hurt more than usual the next day!!
I really haven't followed the rules this summer. I blame my part-time job and my strange schedule. I eat what I want to eat, but can never eat very much at a time. I snack, on mostly healthy foods. I drink some red wine sometimes.
Last week, my hubby and I did protein shakes all day and then a healthy dinner. My weight finally went down to 190. But then my birthday celebration, dinner, cake, and a margarita!!!! brought me back up.
I am freaking out because tomorrow is my one year doctor's appointment and I haven't lost anything in the past six months! What are they going to say to me? What am I going to say to them?
I don't feel like a failure. I feel lucky and healthy. But, I did want to lose some more.
I know we'll talk about plastic surgery now. Do I want it? Yes... but I don't know when I will fit that into my schedule.
Truly rambling. But, this is what is going on in my head.
The glass half empty says that I am not really losing any more. I am stuck!
The glass half full is talking again. It is pointing out that I was able to ride my bike for four and a half hours (with around 30 minutes break for breakfast) and I made it 44 miles on my 44th birthday. I didn't even hurt more than usual the next day!!
I really haven't followed the rules this summer. I blame my part-time job and my strange schedule. I eat what I want to eat, but can never eat very much at a time. I snack, on mostly healthy foods. I drink some red wine sometimes.
Last week, my hubby and I did protein shakes all day and then a healthy dinner. My weight finally went down to 190. But then my birthday celebration, dinner, cake, and a margarita!!!! brought me back up.
I am freaking out because tomorrow is my one year doctor's appointment and I haven't lost anything in the past six months! What are they going to say to me? What am I going to say to them?
I don't feel like a failure. I feel lucky and healthy. But, I did want to lose some more.
I know we'll talk about plastic surgery now. Do I want it? Yes... but I don't know when I will fit that into my schedule.
Truly rambling. But, this is what is going on in my head.
Finally, I feel like blogging
Apr 20, 2008
Warning.... a lot of just getting things off of my chest follows. Sorry if it's boring. But it feels good to get it all out.
I am just over 9 months out from surgery. I have been losing weight for 13 months. I've lost 115 lbs in that time; 85 since surgery. I have been on a plateau for over two months now. In fact, just last week I finally lost a lb. Then I went on a dream vacation at the beach and gained some lbs back. I am not counting those! I will go right back down again. I exercised a lot on vacation, but I ate like there was no tomorrow! So.... it's back to basics now. I will lose those four vacation lbs and then some quickly. When I get back down to 195 I will have only 25 lbs to go until the surgeon's goal. I want to lose another 45 for myself, because I'd like to see what a "normal" BMI would look like on me.
I was recently diagnosed with arthritis in my lower back and I've seriously backed off on the weight lifting. Even walking hurts, but I keep doing it because I would just balloon up if I didn't. I find that the elliptical works and so does a treadmill on about an 8 incline. I wanted to run some 5Ks this summer, but I just can't with my back the way it is. Yoga is great! I want to do more of that. Also, I need to find a bike that doesn't exacerbate my pain. I need to find out if a kayak is going to hurt or help. I really want to buy one, but I don't have lots of cash. Anyway... I love exercise. My Physical therapist is helping, but it goes slowly. I know this won't go away anytime soon. I will just have to deal with it.
I guess I am at a point right now where I can see what hasn't worked before and I can see that I am getting to a point where I would normally begin to fail. I have pain that is getting in the way of my exercise. Once I let one thing start to slip I start letting everything slip. So, I have to stop this now. The weather is getting beautiful... so I have to bike and walk and do my yoga... The next two weeks are really busy for my kids, so I am freaking out. One is in a show this weekend, the other is in a show about ten days after that. The third one has her first real school dance this Friday, same as opening night for the first one. Then the first one has a piano recital the following weekend. Meanwhile, I am a school teacher and constantly having a lot of work for that. My husband works full time and goes to graduate school.
Finally, I am terrible with money. So, my car breaks down the day before we leave for vacation last week and this week, my septic tank is on the kerplutz! We are on emergency budget for this week and I have many bills to pay.
I am one stressed out lady. I like writing all of this down. It probably sounds like gushing and ranting and silliness to anyone who takes the time to read it, but it feels good to get it out.
I tried meditating for the first time while I was on vacay! I need to do more of that. It felt amazing. Well, I've got to go get some work done. I think I just might do this again some time.
I am just over 9 months out from surgery. I have been losing weight for 13 months. I've lost 115 lbs in that time; 85 since surgery. I have been on a plateau for over two months now. In fact, just last week I finally lost a lb. Then I went on a dream vacation at the beach and gained some lbs back. I am not counting those! I will go right back down again. I exercised a lot on vacation, but I ate like there was no tomorrow! So.... it's back to basics now. I will lose those four vacation lbs and then some quickly. When I get back down to 195 I will have only 25 lbs to go until the surgeon's goal. I want to lose another 45 for myself, because I'd like to see what a "normal" BMI would look like on me.
I was recently diagnosed with arthritis in my lower back and I've seriously backed off on the weight lifting. Even walking hurts, but I keep doing it because I would just balloon up if I didn't. I find that the elliptical works and so does a treadmill on about an 8 incline. I wanted to run some 5Ks this summer, but I just can't with my back the way it is. Yoga is great! I want to do more of that. Also, I need to find a bike that doesn't exacerbate my pain. I need to find out if a kayak is going to hurt or help. I really want to buy one, but I don't have lots of cash. Anyway... I love exercise. My Physical therapist is helping, but it goes slowly. I know this won't go away anytime soon. I will just have to deal with it.
I guess I am at a point right now where I can see what hasn't worked before and I can see that I am getting to a point where I would normally begin to fail. I have pain that is getting in the way of my exercise. Once I let one thing start to slip I start letting everything slip. So, I have to stop this now. The weather is getting beautiful... so I have to bike and walk and do my yoga... The next two weeks are really busy for my kids, so I am freaking out. One is in a show this weekend, the other is in a show about ten days after that. The third one has her first real school dance this Friday, same as opening night for the first one. Then the first one has a piano recital the following weekend. Meanwhile, I am a school teacher and constantly having a lot of work for that. My husband works full time and goes to graduate school.
Finally, I am terrible with money. So, my car breaks down the day before we leave for vacation last week and this week, my septic tank is on the kerplutz! We are on emergency budget for this week and I have many bills to pay.
I am one stressed out lady. I like writing all of this down. It probably sounds like gushing and ranting and silliness to anyone who takes the time to read it, but it feels good to get it out.
I tried meditating for the first time while I was on vacay! I need to do more of that. It felt amazing. Well, I've got to go get some work done. I think I just might do this again some time.
