~Amy ~
Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield
Apr 17, 2007
This song just speaks to me on so many levels:
Unwritten
------Natasha Bedingfield
I am unwritten,
Can't read my mind
I'm undefined
I'm just beginning
The pen's in my hand
Ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in you
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten ,yeah
Oh, oh
I break tradition
Sometimes my tries
Are outside the lines, oh yeah
We've been conditioned
To not make mistakes
But I can't live that way oh, oh
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in you
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips x2 (twice)
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Unwritten
------Natasha Bedingfield
I am unwritten,
Can't read my mind
I'm undefined
I'm just beginning
The pen's in my hand
Ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in you
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten ,yeah
Oh, oh
I break tradition
Sometimes my tries
Are outside the lines, oh yeah
We've been conditioned
To not make mistakes
But I can't live that way oh, oh
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in you
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips x2 (twice)
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
April 17th, 2007
Apr 17, 2007
I haven't weighed myself in just over a week now, I am so hoping that by may 1st(my 5 month surgiversary!) that I'll be down 100lbs. It's not too far away and I'm just about 10 lbs from it now...so I'm not sure I'll make it. But I'll keep the faith that I will!
It's been a hard month though...the previous months I couldn't care less about food--now the head hunger has come on full force. Ack! I was so hoping that demon was gone forever...
I am doing my level best to keep looking forward though and it seems to be working so far. I know that this is just the beginning of the fight and though I don't always feel so strong. I will NOT give in. I do not want to waste all that I have been through to get me here...to start all over again. I deserve better and I have to keep reminding myself that!
Additionally, I find that I feel even more isolated than before...I have always been a 'grin and bear it' kind of girl and I find that has been even more the case than usual. I find it very hard to reach out to people...anyone actually. I really want that to change. I miss socializing....but I try not to beat myself up over my feelings as they are just that...MY feelings. I will re-emerge into my life when I am ready. It just gets lonely sometimes...
It's been a hard month though...the previous months I couldn't care less about food--now the head hunger has come on full force. Ack! I was so hoping that demon was gone forever...
I am doing my level best to keep looking forward though and it seems to be working so far. I know that this is just the beginning of the fight and though I don't always feel so strong. I will NOT give in. I do not want to waste all that I have been through to get me here...to start all over again. I deserve better and I have to keep reminding myself that!
Additionally, I find that I feel even more isolated than before...I have always been a 'grin and bear it' kind of girl and I find that has been even more the case than usual. I find it very hard to reach out to people...anyone actually. I really want that to change. I miss socializing....but I try not to beat myself up over my feelings as they are just that...MY feelings. I will re-emerge into my life when I am ready. It just gets lonely sometimes...
