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I am astounded by how seldom I have updated this site... I'm so sorry guys! So how has my life changed? I am down to 170lbs with probably 20lbs of extra skin around my midsection and thigh area. I have never felt better. I still suffer from what some call "big girl" syndrome. I still perceive myself as much larger than I actually am. I'm proud to say that I am still losing... I monitor my eatting although I am not as hard core as I was in the beginning. Still no sodas... low sugar , and VERY rarely will I consume something fried. I do love bread.... and that has continued to be my weakness. No sweets with the exception of a handful of m&ms or a mini candy bar when the urge gets too strong. I still love coffee and found that I had to monitor my intake of caffeine because it was really upsetting my already sensitive intestinal track. How is this for honesty? I suffer from gas on almost a daily basis... thankfully I have a super awesome boyfriend that understands that my insides are different and super sensitive like my personality. Haha.  I eat about every 2 hours... that hasnt changed. I consume more water than I ever have in my life!!

Tuesday was exactly one year out.
I thought I was gaining weight but as it turns out... it was pre-period water weight. AAhhh sigh of relief!!! I thought that my hormones would balanace out with all the weight loss but I still have problems associated with my PCOS. My boyfriend took a sneaky picture of me last night singing karaoke... i cant believe how thin i look!!! Holy crap!! I still want to lose a good 25 pounds... most of that would be extra skin I think... but wow, what a trip this has been!!!! Dear Lord... thank you so much for this opportunity. When I was a whopping 380lbs... I used to dream I would wake up thin or would get into a car accident that would require emergancy gastric bypass... isnt that ridiculous? I am sooo thankful that I had this opportunity... I work in a industry where I see people everyday that do not have the same ability that I did.

November 12 will be exactly one year out...
Life has brought many changes
I am putting myself on a liquid diet because I feel like I am gaining weight.
I can eat more now and that really scares me.
I refuse to gain my weight back.
I want to get my extra skin removed...
I see pictures of myself and it weirds me out... I am literally half the size I was a year ago.
I am celebrating my re-birth day! 

Wow... I haven't updated since May!!!

My current stituation:
190lbs and a size 10/12!!! I'm 5'9, so I think I look fabulous. I am more confident and feel like a million dollars. It hasn't been easy.. I have come across self perception issues. I still see myself as larger than I really am but I know that it will be awhile before my mind catches up with my body. People who have never noticed me before are now noticing me. I am the same person I was 10 months ago.. I hold my head higher.

I hope everyone is doing fabulous.

Seriously... I feel like I am not losing anymore weight and I am worried... I still have 50lbs until I reach my goal weight. It is slightly frustrating and a little bothersome. I know that this is normal but I hate it none-the-less. Any words of wisdom? Advice? Encouraging thoughts? All are welcomed with open arms. Perhaps I need to increase the amount of protein I eat or ensure I am exercising... argh.

I am sooo bad about posting on here. I really dont know why because I feel more at ease and more honest on this website than my normal myspace. So guess what? I am down 138lbs! I can fit into a size 16 and I haven't been able to do that since literally 7th grade! I have some loose skin but nothing that is too terrible or causes me to cover up! Tube tops are my new best friend because I think I have sexy shoulders! Haha. Most people say that their eyes, or smile is their prize attribute... I say shoulders! Just one more reason I think I may be crazy! I have a new beau in my life. He is amazing! I think I just might have met my other half. He is unlike any man I have ever dated before... he skateboards, sails, snowboards, plays the guitar etc etc. In otherwords... he keeps me active! Also... he works for the airline! So he is taking me to Chicago in a few weeks... I feel like a princess! My hairloss has virtually stopped I dont know if it was those drops or it was just time... but my hair appears to be thicker and fuller. I had an emergency room scare on Saturday... I was smart and tried to eat a hand full of cashews.... I have never been in that type of pain before! It brought me to my knees! All I kept thinking was that I had somehow lodged a peice of cashew in my stomach... so after about 7 hours in the ER, and a Cat scan and a million dollar hospital bill... I think I just witnessed my first episode of dumping syndrome! And guess who will never eat another cashew again? Thats right... yours truly! Lol.

I need to work out. That is the bottom line. I am down 115 pounds...which is crazy! I never really fathomed that the weight would fall off this fast. I am ever so grateful though! I went to a follow-up appointment on Thursday at Dr. Patel's new Austin office. Thank goodness I dont have to drive an hour for a ten minute appt. anymore! I need to drink more water and increase my vitamin intake as well. Tomorrow I am going in for blood work. I am noticing that people pay more attention to you when you are smaller. That slightly pisses me off! I went out on Wed for my birthday and got hit on by 2 guys! wtf? Since I have been using the sillicon drops my hair is getting better! (sigh of relief)

The situation is this... I am down over 100 lbs. I am losing my hair... I feel so incredibly self concious about this that I went to People's Pharmacy and asked about an ancient chinese remedy to stimulate hair growth.. instead they gave me sillicon drops... I put 5 drops in V8 and well I will let ya know how it works! I am thinking of joining Premier Lady Fitness... I went and worked out for and hour and a half... did the treadmill, elliptical, weights and a bike... needless to say I feel great and I am excited to make this part of my daily routine. To be completely honest I haven't really worked out ... I have walked the neighborhood once or twice and rollerskated about the same. I am ready to be hardcore! Haha. I found some pictures of myself from back in September and can't beleive how different I look... I guess I didn't realize I was as big as I was.... thank god for insurance. WLS has changed my life! I feel like I eat out of necessity now instead of boredom and to be honest sometimes I probably don't eat enough. This truly has been a life changing experience. I feel like I have so many wonderful things to look forward to. Oh...big bonus.... are you eady for this? I am over my plastic chair phobia... I fit in them and well I don't feel like a heffer when I sit in one anymore. Hooray... I have crossed another item off my lifelong list!

I had another doctors appt on Thursday in San Antonio.  Currently I am down 75lbs! I think that is incredible for being post op 2 months! The best part? I have these curves that I never knew I had. Before the surgery my brother and I were talking about what men want... I was saying that for a big girl I am not blessed in the chest department but I am perfectly content with the size of my breasts. He told me "Don't worry April, men like butts!" I started laughing because I realized I was not blessed in that department either..he replied "You don't know what is hidden under that!" The REALLY funny part? He was right! I have never felt sexier in my life! Thursday I also put a deposit down on my new tattoo.. I am hoping to have the outline done by this time next week. Oh... Dr. Patel said that I am still not allowed to eat salads, raw veggies, red meat, or bread. =( I am getting tired of ground turkey.. the texture makes me want to gag. So far I have only gotten sick one time.. but it was because I ate too fast. I have yet to experience "dumping syndrome" Thank God! Perhaps it is because I refuse to self sabotage and eat things I am not allowed too. Boy am I craving a Diet Coke... my old gulity pleasure.  Hope everyone is doing well!

I have been horrible about posting. I can't believe it has been almost a month. My life is changing and so is my body.. where in the world did this "womanly figure" come from? I am loving it! I am officially down 3 dress sizes and I am exstatic. I am excited to start working out and getting in shape. Sometimes I feel as though I am not eatting enough but I am too terrified to over eat.  My feet don't hurt when I get off of work anymore and I have a significant increase in the pep in my step!  So far everythign I have eatten has agreed with me and I am excited to report that I have not gotten sick yet..