Argee68
34 Days Post Op
Feb 22, 2012
YAYAYAY!!! I'm finally better!! It feels so good to feel this good, and now I finally realize what everyone else was feeling!! I had a bit of a relapse on Friday, meaning the most pain I've felt since they took that darn drain out of my side!!! So when I went to see Dr. Husain, she poked and prodded and everything all over my belly (RIGHT where the pain was!) until I was crying uncontrollably, but at least she got to see what was going on with me. 
She scheduled me to go to a Pain Clinic to get various needles stuck in my belly until they found the nerve that was "stuck" in my stitches, then they would deaden that nerve. Sounds painful, but I didn't care! That nerve pain was horrible!! So, I went home and waited for the Pain Clinic to call. And finally, less than 2 days later, my pain went away! It just LEFT!! 
I slept on my side for the first time since before the surgery and I was able to put on my shoes and socks with no pain at all! It's GREAT!! So, here's my theory: I think that when she was pushing on my stomach, where the pain was, and moving it around, she must have "released" that nerve somehow, and it's all back to normal!
I'm so happy to be feeling normal and to be able to enjoy my weight loss!! 35 pounds gone and I'm ecstatic now! I guess I can say that the surgery is worth it now.
So, here I go, signing off but HAPPY this time!!
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She scheduled me to go to a Pain Clinic to get various needles stuck in my belly until they found the nerve that was "stuck" in my stitches, then they would deaden that nerve. Sounds painful, but I didn't care! That nerve pain was horrible!! So, I went home and waited for the Pain Clinic to call. And finally, less than 2 days later, my pain went away! It just LEFT!! I slept on my side for the first time since before the surgery and I was able to put on my shoes and socks with no pain at all! It's GREAT!! So, here's my theory: I think that when she was pushing on my stomach, where the pain was, and moving it around, she must have "released" that nerve somehow, and it's all back to normal! I'm so happy to be feeling normal and to be able to enjoy my weight loss!! 35 pounds gone and I'm ecstatic now! I guess I can say that the surgery is worth it now.
So, here I go, signing off but HAPPY this time!!
28 days post op
Feb 16, 2012
Sooo.... I was REALLY hoping to get on this website and write blogs about how great this is and how much I'm loving losing the weight and telling people that you can do this! But... I'm not. And it sucks. I'm still in pain, the nerve pain still hurts and I'm super irritated!! I've lost 35 pounds, so that's good, but I'm having such bad pain that I really don't even care!!
So, I guess what I'm saing is that this surgery has not really been worth it yet to me. I'll wait another month and see how I feel. Oh, and I might go back to the Dr. tomorrow to make sure that nothing is wrong. It sure FEELS like something is wrong! We'll see, I guess.
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So, I guess what I'm saing is that this surgery has not really been worth it yet to me. I'll wait another month and see how I feel. Oh, and I might go back to the Dr. tomorrow to make sure that nothing is wrong. It sure FEELS like something is wrong! We'll see, I guess.
19 Days Post Op
Feb 07, 2012
So, it's been 11 days since I last wrote and, well, I'm STILL not a whole lot better! I'm eating ok, drinking ok, feeling ok (no nausea or anything), but this pain just will not go away! So, I DID wait to go to the Dr. for my Post Op appointment, which was really hard to do, since I was hurting so bad! Dr. Husain (my surgeon) told me that one (or more) of my nerves has been caught up in my stitches in my muscle. Talk about pain! Yeah, it still hurts! It makes me pretty irritable at times. 
She said that, in a week or two, the stitches inside would start to dissolve and I would start feeling better. I'm still waiting. I think it is starting to get a little better. Getting out of bed isn't as bad as it was, and sitting on the toilet doesn't KILL me anymore, but I do still have pain. It usually starts around 4 or 5 at night, for some reason. And it's not like I'm doing a whole lot. I just sit around, sometimes do some dishes or some laundry, but nothing huge, so I don't get it. I still can't bend over at all, and reaching across anything is pretty bad! So, yeah... I'm waiting. Getting frustrated.
I'm also SO paranoid about eating. I'm at the "soft and mushy" stage, but am afraid to eat anything so it's still be soups and malt-o-meal. I did have a boiled egg yesterday and it made me sick. Maybe I shouldn't have eaten the whole thing, I dunno. I actually couldn't eat the last bite, anyway. I know I'm not hungry but I want "normal food" SO bad! Like steak or asparagus or salad... all the stuff I can't eat for awhile! Ergh!
And I'm thirsty! The nutritionist said, like our hunger, the thirst would go away, too. Mine hasn't, at all, and I just want to slam a bunch of water, but I can't. It drives me nuts!!
Well, I'm going to go see how I do with tuna, so I'll write later. Hopefully I'll feel better by then. Here's hoping!!
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She said that, in a week or two, the stitches inside would start to dissolve and I would start feeling better. I'm still waiting. I think it is starting to get a little better. Getting out of bed isn't as bad as it was, and sitting on the toilet doesn't KILL me anymore, but I do still have pain. It usually starts around 4 or 5 at night, for some reason. And it's not like I'm doing a whole lot. I just sit around, sometimes do some dishes or some laundry, but nothing huge, so I don't get it. I still can't bend over at all, and reaching across anything is pretty bad! So, yeah... I'm waiting. Getting frustrated.
I'm also SO paranoid about eating. I'm at the "soft and mushy" stage, but am afraid to eat anything so it's still be soups and malt-o-meal. I did have a boiled egg yesterday and it made me sick. Maybe I shouldn't have eaten the whole thing, I dunno. I actually couldn't eat the last bite, anyway. I know I'm not hungry but I want "normal food" SO bad! Like steak or asparagus or salad... all the stuff I can't eat for awhile! Ergh!
And I'm thirsty! The nutritionist said, like our hunger, the thirst would go away, too. Mine hasn't, at all, and I just want to slam a bunch of water, but I can't. It drives me nuts!!
Well, I'm going to go see how I do with tuna, so I'll write later. Hopefully I'll feel better by then. Here's hoping!!
8 days post op
Jan 27, 2012
Wow, 8 days later and I don't feel much better. I've been reading so many other people's posts and blogs and videos on youtube and it seems that others feel much better on day 8 than I do! On person said they went to a movie on day 8 and another actually walked 2 miles! I can't even sit down to go to the bathroom comfortably! What is wrong with me? I've had quit a few "issues" since I've been home. First of all, I was sent home on oxygen but I quit using it 3 days ago. It was making me dizzy so my mom brought over my dad's pulse/ox monitor and it was 97 oxygen and 67 heart rate, so I'm done with that! Thank God! 
Then I noticed a couple of my incisions looking weird. One, the center one right between the ribs, was open. It was like that when I left theI called and they said to just cover it and "keep an eye on it". Ok, so I did. NOW the incision where my drain was (HOLY COW PAIN WHEN THA T WAS TAKEN OUT, BY THE WAY!!!) was bleeding through the gauze they had on it. So I took the gauze of and now THAT one is open. Like, open enough to stick a pencil in it. So, do I call them on that or are they going to tell me to "keep an eye on it" again?? It's so frustrating calling them because I KNOW they think that I'm just being paranoid or whatever.
Not only that, but I really am still in a lot of pain. I don't get it! Other people are seeing movies and walking all over the world!! I can't even sleep on my side or sit up to type on the computer!! So, what do I do?? Call them or just wait for my post-op appointment, which is in 4 days. Ugh. I mean, I guess I can wait. It's not like I have anywhere to go.
Well, other things have gotten better, so that's a good thing. I can eat full liquid things now. I had malt-o-meal, runny and with a little bit of sugar free maple syrup for flavor! YUM! And some cream of chicken soup, strained. It's like gourmet food!! 
Well, I guess I'll wait it out and see. Take a shower, get all the pillows off the couch and maybe maybe get all my paperwork together. It's been in a pile since I got home!!
Talk to everyone later!! **AT LEAST I DID IT!!**
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Then I noticed a couple of my incisions looking weird. One, the center one right between the ribs, was open. It was like that when I left theI called and they said to just cover it and "keep an eye on it". Ok, so I did. NOW the incision where my drain was (HOLY COW PAIN WHEN THA T WAS TAKEN OUT, BY THE WAY!!!) was bleeding through the gauze they had on it. So I took the gauze of and now THAT one is open. Like, open enough to stick a pencil in it. So, do I call them on that or are they going to tell me to "keep an eye on it" again?? It's so frustrating calling them because I KNOW they think that I'm just being paranoid or whatever.
Not only that, but I really am still in a lot of pain. I don't get it! Other people are seeing movies and walking all over the world!! I can't even sleep on my side or sit up to type on the computer!! So, what do I do?? Call them or just wait for my post-op appointment, which is in 4 days. Ugh. I mean, I guess I can wait. It's not like I have anywhere to go.
Well, other things have gotten better, so that's a good thing. I can eat full liquid things now. I had malt-o-meal, runny and with a little bit of sugar free maple syrup for flavor! YUM! And some cream of chicken soup, strained. It's like gourmet food!! Well, I guess I'll wait it out and see. Take a shower, get all the pillows off the couch and maybe maybe get all my paperwork together. It's been in a pile since I got home!!
Talk to everyone later!! **AT LEAST I DID IT!!**
It's been 4 days
Jan 23, 2012
Day 4 post surgery and I feel like CRAP! I'm in a LOT of pain! It's making it hard to do anything. I can't eat, obviously, since I'm still on the liquid diet, but it's hard to even drink anything. It's hard to walk or to even get off the couch. Once I'm up it's not TOO bad. I hold my stomach pretty much the whole time I'm walking and I SURE can't bend over. That's extremely painful!!
I'm starting to regret this decision, which sucks because there's nothing I can do about it!!
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I'm starting to regret this decision, which sucks because there's nothing I can do about it!!
Two More Days
Jan 17, 2012
Well, it's almost here! Two more days! Wow, I can't believe it. I'm on my day 2 of the clear liquid diet and it SUCKS!! Seriously, I'm SO hungry! If I could just have a peice of toast! That's sounds SO good! Actually, pretty much ANYTHING sounds good. 
And, I really am getting SO nervous! I just keep thinking, can I really do this?!
I mean, this is a HUGE change of life! I don't eat that much and really don't eat TOO horribly bad, but I DO love to go out to eat try different foods a lot! It's going to be tough to do now, I'm sure. I keep saying to myself that I can STILL do that, if I just try a bite or two of something, but really?? Can I?! What if I'm out, or at someone's house, or at WORK, and I eat something "new" and I get sick! I mean, how embarrassing!! 
Oh well. This is what I've been wanting for so long now, soooo.... yeah, it's all good. When I think about the things I'll get to do now and how much better I'll feel, yeah... it's worth it. It BETTER be! This is a lot of money for me!!
Anyways, on to the liquid diet. Blech...
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And, I really am getting SO nervous! I just keep thinking, can I really do this?!
I mean, this is a HUGE change of life! I don't eat that much and really don't eat TOO horribly bad, but I DO love to go out to eat try different foods a lot! It's going to be tough to do now, I'm sure. I keep saying to myself that I can STILL do that, if I just try a bite or two of something, but really?? Can I?! What if I'm out, or at someone's house, or at WORK, and I eat something "new" and I get sick! I mean, how embarrassing!! Oh well. This is what I've been wanting for so long now, soooo.... yeah, it's all good. When I think about the things I'll get to do now and how much better I'll feel, yeah... it's worth it. It BETTER be! This is a lot of money for me!!
Anyways, on to the liquid diet. Blech...
7 Days!
Jan 12, 2012
Wow, a week FLEW by!! I now have 7 days until my surgery and I'm starting to freak out! 
Am I the only one to have second thoughts about this? So close to the surgery, anyway? I keep thinking I can just lose the weight on my own now, since I know about nutrition and how to eat well. I mean, I guess I probably could, but I have a feeling it would all come back before I reach my goal! And I'm SURE I won't lose weight quickly enough to have my knee surgery! So, yeah... I guess I'm answering my own question. Haha!
I just hope I'm on the right track with everything. The protein drinks, the diet, the vitamins... Ugh! It's all so much!
I'm starting to do well with the not drinking while you eat thing (still really hard to do!!) and taking small bites and chewing and all that, I just hope I can keep it up. The bagel story REALLY freaked me out! If any of you don't know that bagel story... it sucks. And it's scary. I don't care if I'm able to, I don't think I'll EVER have a bagel again!!
So, here's my problem: Not only am I thinking that I could do this on my own (even though I know I'll never stick with it), the cost is REALLY freaking me out! I had no idea it would cost as much as it is! When they told me $7,600, I thought I paid 30% of THAT. No such luck. That's MY portion! And then it's going to be about $2,000 MORE for other costs?? Holy cow!! And I didn't even get my son's teeth fixed because I couldn't afford it. That was $1,800. But they wanted it up front, and couldn't do that, for sure. He's 19 now, so maybe he can help me pay for it. I dunno. I just feel ... selfish. Like, why would I do this when my son needs his teeth fixed and when I have a 6-year-old who just did a paper at school about a wish he would want for his family, which was more money so "we could buy more food". Seriously, what am I doing?!
So, I guess I"m still doing it, right? I guess. Okay, we'll see. But, yeah... I'm pretty sure I'm doing this. And I'm PRETTY sure I'm happy about it! Right??
We'll see.
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Am I the only one to have second thoughts about this? So close to the surgery, anyway? I keep thinking I can just lose the weight on my own now, since I know about nutrition and how to eat well. I mean, I guess I probably could, but I have a feeling it would all come back before I reach my goal! And I'm SURE I won't lose weight quickly enough to have my knee surgery! So, yeah... I guess I'm answering my own question. Haha!
I just hope I'm on the right track with everything. The protein drinks, the diet, the vitamins... Ugh! It's all so much!
I'm starting to do well with the not drinking while you eat thing (still really hard to do!!) and taking small bites and chewing and all that, I just hope I can keep it up. The bagel story REALLY freaked me out! If any of you don't know that bagel story... it sucks. And it's scary. I don't care if I'm able to, I don't think I'll EVER have a bagel again!!
So, here's my problem: Not only am I thinking that I could do this on my own (even though I know I'll never stick with it), the cost is REALLY freaking me out! I had no idea it would cost as much as it is! When they told me $7,600, I thought I paid 30% of THAT. No such luck. That's MY portion! And then it's going to be about $2,000 MORE for other costs?? Holy cow!! And I didn't even get my son's teeth fixed because I couldn't afford it. That was $1,800. But they wanted it up front, and couldn't do that, for sure. He's 19 now, so maybe he can help me pay for it. I dunno. I just feel ... selfish. Like, why would I do this when my son needs his teeth fixed and when I have a 6-year-old who just did a paper at school about a wish he would want for his family, which was more money so "we could buy more food". Seriously, what am I doing?!
So, I guess I"m still doing it, right? I guess. Okay, we'll see. But, yeah... I'm pretty sure I'm doing this. And I'm PRETTY sure I'm happy about it! Right??
We'll see.
Two Weeks!!
Jan 05, 2012
It's exactly two weeks until my surgery. I'm having the Gastric Sleeve and I'm getting SUPER nervous and SUPER anxious! I'm so worried that I won't know what to eat. And I REALLY can't afford it, so I have no idea why I'm doing this. Okay, I have SOME idea!! 
Anyway, I'm actually going through with it.
I've got all my chewable vitamins, jello, broth, water, juice and popsicles, now I just need to figure out the best protein drinks to get. The best AND the cheapest!
Also, I don't really have a lot of support at home; I think they think I'm crazy. Like, surgery is a little drastic, you know? Which, yeah, it might be, but then, they don't know what it's like. I'm the only one in my family that's overweight. THIS overweight, for sure. And, even though it's only been for the past 7 of my 43 years, it's very difficult to deal with. And if I ever want to have knee surgery, I'm going to have to lose weight, and this is the only thing that's going to do it for me. So, I'm doing it. Yep, that's that. I've actually made a decision ON MY OWN and am sticking with it.
So, until next time... take care, good luck, hope to see you later and hope you see me greater!
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Anyway, I'm actually going through with it.
I've got all my chewable vitamins, jello, broth, water, juice and popsicles, now I just need to figure out the best protein drinks to get. The best AND the cheapest!
Also, I don't really have a lot of support at home; I think they think I'm crazy. Like, surgery is a little drastic, you know? Which, yeah, it might be, but then, they don't know what it's like. I'm the only one in my family that's overweight. THIS overweight, for sure. And, even though it's only been for the past 7 of my 43 years, it's very difficult to deal with. And if I ever want to have knee surgery, I'm going to have to lose weight, and this is the only thing that's going to do it for me. So, I'm doing it. Yep, that's that. I've actually made a decision ON MY OWN and am sticking with it.
So, until next time... take care, good luck, hope to see you later and hope you see me greater!
