It's been 4 months since my last post....
Nov 25, 2009
Well, It's been 4 months since my last post and a lot has happened. I would love to be able to get on here and say I've lost 60lbs but I haven't. I am actually 3lbs down from the weight I started at but I have a pretty good excuse. I'm Pregnant! Yup... I got pregnant about a month after I had the lap band surgery....and my Dr. is not very happy with me :).. What can you do? So I am due March 13,2010. I'm having a little girl and I am going to name her Gabriella Alina. I am very excited. Hopefully after I have her I will be able to resume my fills and start back on the right track of loosing weight. For now I am going to enjoy the holidays and the good food that comes along with it! :)
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3 months out!
Jul 24, 2009
Yesterday I went in and had my 3rd fill. I am now up to 5cc and I still don't feel any restriction. The Nurse Practitioner said I am doing well at maintaining my weight and to not get discouraged. At this point, I'm getting very discouraged I am even considering going back to the weight loss clinic to get put back on diet pills. That seems to be the only thing that has worked for me in the past. Anyone considering LAP BAND surgery should know that it is a tool, a frustrating tool that works differently for everyone. I know about 10 people at my job that have had it that can't even eat when they are filled to 5cc's and I can't even feel any restriction at all. I have hopes that once I get to the right fill level in my bad I will have more success with it. I'm going back next week for my 4th fill and will be going up to 6cc... Hopefully that will help me out!!
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Past my 2nd Fill
Jun 09, 2009
Okay. So I am at a point now where I wonder if I jinxed myself saying that I wouldn't be able to notice a restriction after I received my fill? Last Thursday I went in to receive my first fill and didn't notice any difference at all. I called Dr. D's office and they told me to come back in. I went in yesterday and received my 2nd fill. I am now up to 4cc and still don't feel a difference. What is wrong with this picture? All I know is if I don't start feeling any type of restriction soon I am going to freak out..... or just pay another 30 dollars next week to get filled again. My Dr. said it's actually pretty normal. That with your first few fills, since everyone is different that it may take up to 4 to 5 to feel a restriction. Maybe my stomach just wants me to remain fat because it loves food so much?! Probably not!
In other news, I am moving in with my boyfriend within the next couple of weeks. The complex I selected is amazing, it even comes with a country club membership. At the club they have a full gym and classes-such as yoga and cycling. On the premise of the complex they have a good sized gym. I can't wait to get back into the gym. I am scared my boyfriend is going to demand too much out of me. He runs like 6 miles a day religiously and is really athletic...not to mention REALLY good looking! (Lucky Me).
Well I guess I'll see how I feel after my next fill...hopefully there will be a difference!
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4 weeks out
May 18, 2009
Today marks 4 weeks since I had my surgery. I have not had a fill yet and won't get one until June 4th. In my head I keep thinking that some how a fill won't make a difference for me and that even though I decided to have this surgery I will always be overweight and won't be able to lose the weight. I have done a lot of research, looked through a lot of people's pages on here and realize that I need to get in the gym ASAP! I can tell I'm eating a lot less then I used to eat before, but with no restriction I know I could easily eat what I used to eat. I definitely try to follow my diet but at times find myself making excuses, well... I'm going to eat this now because I shouldn't be able to later, after a fill that is. My pants are getting bigger and people can tell me I have lost weight but I refuse to step on a scale. I keep my scale in my garage. Whenever I have dieted in the past I have found myself getting obsessed and disappointed if I worked out really hard and didn't lose any weight. This time around I don't want to put that kind of pressure on myself. I want this to be a lifestyle change, not a crash diet to pick up my self esteem. I just want it to drop off on it's own but I know that's not possible. My 24th birthday is on Wednesday and I wish I would have lost more weight by now. But... I know that for my 25th birthday I hope to be at my goal weight. I'm frustrated! I'm tired of everyone asking me how much weight I have lost, what did I eat, what am I eating. I feel like I'm under a microscope and everyone is waiting for me to fail. It's a bad feeling! I just hope I can get myself together so I can go to the gym and get my positive outlook back!
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A Day Shy of Two Weeks Since My Surgery
May 10, 2009
Well, tomorrow is the two week mark since I had my surgery. So I guess I should start by actually talking about the surgery and how I felt afterwards. Well, the hospital was fine I just remember being in a lot of pain when I would try to move. *maybe I'm just a big baby* lol. The worst part was the feeling I had that first day. Come to find out I am allergic to morphine so everytime I hit the magical button for more drugs it was actually making me sick. *throw up sick* Morphine turned me into a hot grouchy mess, my mom even had to step out of the room to get away from me. After my night nurse realized what was going on she switched my morphine drip and started giving me liquid vicadin. I started feeling better, a lot better but it still hurt to sit up. I had several friends and my family there for support, it was good! So the next day I went home and just rested and tried to walk as much as possible. The following day I tried to take my mom and little sister to the pool but that wasn't such a good idea considering I only made it about an hour before I felt sick. I tried to stay active but my stomach was definitely hurting! My Dr. made one of my small incisions right in the middle of a fat roll? lol... so that was actually the most painful one! After a week off of work when I went back in I was really tired. I missed all of the naps I had gotten to take, and since pain medicine makes me sleepy my stomach was still hurting. On Wedneday, 9 days after surgery.. I got a really sharp pain in my right side that wouldn't go away. I called Dr. Dietrick's office and they told me to come in. The good news was I lost 10lbs in 9 days! He told me I probably just pulled a muscle from straining my stomach. The next day at work was even worse. I had water and applesauce for breakfast and ended up puking all day. I went home and slept from 2pm-10pm. I don't know what happened but that definitely wasn't my day!!
I feel like I am cheating! I am only in my second week and I am not eating pureed foods anymore, which my diet says that I am supposed to. I know I'm not hungry but when I see people eat I automatically assume I need to it. I HAVE to change that mind set. As of now, without a fill, I can eat breads. The other day I had a 6' inch sub, I guess it's better then the $5.00 footlongs I used to get. I just hope I can continue to eat healthy until I get my first fill 6/4/09! Food is such a tempation for me and I always make excuses like, I'll eat better tomorrow or I'll go to the gym. It's just kind of discouraging that I thought I wouldn't be hungry and I would get the full sensation...but I don't. Hopefully after my first fill I will be able to notice a difference. I'll keep ya posted!
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Getting Ready for the Big Day!
Apr 20, 2009
So I have already been to my pre op appointment last week on Tuesday. I have my sugery next Monday... NEXT WEEK! Yay! I'm really excited my mom, step dad and little sister are coming down from Michigan to visit me for a whole week. I have really high expectations for myself and after talking with people on this site I know I will be able to reach my goal. It's so funny when I tell my friends I am having them all of them tell me that I'm crazy. I guess all of my friends fail to realize I am almost 300lbs. I was just at the pool yesterday with my bestfriend and she was like well you weigh about 240 right? I was like OH HELL NO, I weigh 297lbs. she about died. It's funny how well I hide my weight, which is good for me. I hope when I weigh 200lbs I'm a real hottie! LOL :)
Anyways, Wish Me Luck!
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Surgery Date Scheduled!
Mar 30, 2009
I am so relieved that my surgery date is finally scheduled. I have been very discouraged because my Cardiologist's office did not fax over my Clearance letter for surgery or my dictated report for 4 weeks after my visit! Rediculous! Needless to say I have my pre-op appointment on 4/14/2009 and my surgery date is scheduled for 4/27/2009! I am so excited!
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So It Begins!
Feb 12, 2009
Today I went for my appointment to see the Diet/Exercise Dr.'s. I begin my practice diet tomorrow and even though I am really excited to start I am also a little overwhelmed. 1 cup of food? What!!!! I was like are you joking? She explained portion control and it blew me away because I obviously have a problem with it. LOL. I sat and thought about my "skinny bitch" friends as I call them, and it does make sense. The less you eat the less you weigh. I'm up for it. Another thing I realized today was how lazy I must be. I have time to get ready to go out to the club all of the time, but I don't have time to go to the gym to look better? I think it's time I ironed out some of my priorities. I'm heading to the grocery store to start the process and am getting my gym membership tomorrow with one of my homegirls. Wish me luck!
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