bariatric_babe
Hi, I'm Rebecca and I'm ready to change my life. I have been fat my entire life. I remember being teased as early as Kindergarten and I remember shopping in the "Pretty Plus" section at JCPenny's as a child. Food was my comfort from a very early age. My mother was an alcoholic and bipolar and her anger and rage one minute and over loving the next made me very insecure as a child. My mother commit suicide when I was 15 and again food became my comfort. I went from over weight to obese in no time. I graduated Highschool around 300lbs and a size 22/24. I got married to my highschool sweetheart who loves me at any size. He love me for who I am and finds me beautiful when I was thinner and even now at my heaviest. We went to College together and I became a Graphic Designer and him a Computer Tech. We enterered the corporate world and after 4 years of marriage we were blessed with our sweet daughter. She is my everything. She is almost 4 now. I have always been a person who put others before my self. I spent my time taking care of my husband, daughter, our home, etc and didn't take the time to love me and take care of my health. I stayed around 300lbs for years and years. Over a year ago I got pregnant with our son, Nathaniel. The pregnancy was a nightmare. I developed a Placent Abruption early on and had terrible hemmorrhaing through the entire pregnancy. The doctor thought our son would make it and was causiously opptimistic. I was on bed rest most of my pregnancy and put on a lot of weight due to inactivity, fear, and depression. I made it nearly half way through my pregnancy when my son was born sleeping at home. I cannot wait to hold him and love him in Heaven. I discovered after his birth that I have a bleeding disorder called VonWillebrand's Disease. The death of my son was the hardest thing I have ever gone through. It hurt in ways I can't describe. At one point, I didn't care if I lived and I only chose to keep going on because of my precious daughter. I managed to gain 50lbs through that experience. I started counceling and joined groups of mothers who have lost babies and have finally learned to live again. Over a year later I finally love myself enough to give my self this gift of health. I have tried every single diet there is and every program there is. I have even tried OA and hypnosis. I am great at loosing 30-50lbs, but am never able to keep it off. I thank God every day that he gave me hope and loves me enough to show me how to love me too.
