BigS_061
June 2013
Jun 02, 2013
Hello All,
I am so angry with myself right now. I got on the scale this morning and SCREAMED!!! I have gained 50lbs!! Not exercising and not eating right has made me back slide. I would hear stories of people gaining their weight back after WLS and wonder how they can let that happen, well now I see and I truly apologize for talking bad about it. Today is the day I get myself back on track I NEVER want to go back to where I was, I like the smaller me. I started at 387lbs got down to 247lbs now I am at 297lbs not good. The first thing I have to do is get my knees right. I can exercise good for 2-3 days then after that my knees hurt so bad it takes a week to recover. I have been diagnosed with osteoarthritis which I am told exercise helps but it hurts to bad to exercise and I don't want to keep popping Tylenol all the time. While I am in search of a remedy for the knees time to get my eating habits back on track, I know it is the snacking, not eating healthy snacks My goal is to start with losing 10-20lbs that is obtainable and I have started today!! So wish me luck!! I plan to use 3 snacks, 2 shakes and 1 meal plan. And get back to drinking more water I seemed to have cut back on that too. I can do this!!!
Until next time....
Voluptuous 1 out....
Jan 2013
Jan 08, 2013
Happy New Year All!! 
Well Dec 30, 2012 was my 3 yr anniversary since my surgery. 
I had lost a total of 140lbs gained back 40lbs but after all the swelling went down from my blood clot I have only gained 20lbs. That's right, I had 20lbs of fluid in my body. So 20lbs is not to bad over 3 yrs but I don't like it; I have to get it off. I am determined not to go back to my 387lbs self. The exercise is the key. 
I am slowly gaining my strength back. At first I had planned on riding the bike for 10 mins a day but when I got to 2 mins I thought I was going to die. lol Didn't realize how weak I had gotten. My doctor told me to start slow, now I see why. I had all kinds of tests done during this episode in my life, they even thought I had a heart problem ,I had a stress test, chest x-rays, a nuclear lung test, and even had to wear a holter monitor for 24hrs, that's just to name a few, but everything came back normal, Thank GOD. 
Sometimes I think the doc's want to find something wrong. You know the old saying, "If you are overweight you can't be healthy."
I am sharing this not to scare anyone desiring to have WLS or those that have already had it, I just want to let you know if you are having issues you are not alone and don't let it discourage you.. this too shall pass. Here I was worrying about the 20lbs I have gained but one of my doctors reminded me of the 100+ that I have lost and kept off. 
All there is left to say is that I am so happy to have made it through another year and I pray I make it through another..I am still glad that I had WLS. 
All of you considering having WLS do it ... it is amazing how you will feel after...those of you that have already had it...keep doing your thang....
Till next time.....
Voluptuous 1
Dec 2012
Dec 18, 2012
Well it has been a long time since my last post and a lot has been happening. I think I told you about my knee problems, now I have another blood clot, it is in my leg this time.
I told my mom the other day I had less problems when I was heavier, sometimes I wonder did I make a mistake having this surgery? Then when I see myself in a pretty dress, the way my boyfriend looks at me (yes I have a boyfriend now, Woo Hoo!!
), or the way I feel inside... I say naw, I did the right thing. Since this is the second time I have a blood clot I will be on Coumadin for the rest of my life which is not a bad thing, just a minor adjustment. I have gained 30lbs, which half is from the swelling in my feet and legs, but it is mainly because I have not been able to exercise; but now since I can move more now, with my doctors approval, I have invested in a recumbent bike for my home so that way I can do it everyday. Right now I have to take it slow to get my strength back but I am going to make it through.....
I will keep you posted....
Happy Holidays to everyone...be safe!! 
July 2012
Jul 21, 2012
As I was eating my meal tonight I started to get full but looking at my plate I still had food on it.
I really had to say out loud, "It is okay not to eat it all." I remember growing up my mom would tell us to eat everything on our plate or else 
... it is amazing at 50 I can still hear her saying that. At first I felt guilty because of "all the starving children in the world I shouldn't be leaving food on my plate" she would say. As I got older and a little wiser I know now that my leaving food on my plate wouldn't stop those children from starving but it was a hard rule to break for me. Now as I put smaller portions on my plate and I can't eat it all I feel okay with it. 
My knee problem has gotten much better, the constant ache and pain is gone, still can't walk like I was before, but thank goodness for Wii Fit,
30 mins a day helps alot, 
but my goal is to get back to my peaceful 1-2 mile walks outside,
but I am not pushing myself to far, I don't want to set myself back with the knee pain. It is so funny, I lost the weight to prevent knee problems and ended up with them anyway, lol, all because I got too active, but I still have no regrets..... 
Till next time....
Voluptuous1
Hello It's Me...
Jun 06, 2012
I still cannot get use to men looking at me in a positive way. Sometimes I look around to see if they are looking at me, one time one gentleman said, " Yeah I am looking at you, with your sexy self." Me Sexy??? Never thought those words would relate to me. lol Although I get embarrassed,
I feel funny, in a good way, I say thank you and go on my merry way with a much bigger grin on my face. 
My daughter teases me saying I am borderline conceited, I tell her it is my self-esteem that has blossomed, then she tells me she loves the new me. I was shining before but now I am even brighter 
Haven't reached my goal yet but I am still so very happy that I had this surgery done. 
Voluptuous! a.k.a. BigS
May 2012 News
May 15, 2012
I have another minor set back...after walking a few weeks ago my knee started hurting and as the days went on it go worse and worse. So I finally went to the doctor, just thinking maybe I strained a muscle or tendon, found out I have osteoarthritis.
Doc said I probably already had it but since I lost the weight and started exercising more I sped up the process. It is manageable, a possible knee replacement down the line but right now we are trying other options they say I am too young for that. Right now I just want the pain to stop so I can get back to walking. Never thought I would hear me say something like that...get back to walking..lol I still have 50lbs more pounds I want to loose.Till next time...
Voluptuous1
Happy Valentines!!
Feb 01, 2012
WOW!! January went by so fast. I am still having a great time!!
New situations popping up everyday. I still cannot get use to the attention I get now but I am adjusting well. I even notice that I walk taller and even sit taller. I use to slouch when I sat but it was brought to my attention the other day how straight I sit. I guess being overweight I was slouching so as not to be noticed so now it is not the case. I get invited to parties more and I actually want to go. 
This has been the best decision for me. I turned 50 in December but I sure do not feel like it!! YAY ME!! 
All of my fellow WLS friends hang in there, keep doing the right thing and enjoy this rebirth of you!!
Wishing you a early Happy Valentines Day!!
Sg
Happy New Year!!
Jan 01, 2012
Welcome to 2012!!
I am so looking forward to this year, more than any year in the past. I have also claimed this year to be all about me. All the years I have taken care of others I now have the strength to take care of me. Saying NO to people has been easier and easier.I now feel that I don't have to say yes to get people to like me I don't care if they do or not and I feel good. I am ready to continue with the new me...look out world here I come!! BigS
Happy Anniversary to Me!!
Dec 19, 2011
Well it is coming up on 2 yrs since my surgery, 30 Dec 2009. Hooray!!
I have kept the weight off!! I still want to loose 50lbs to be at MY goal weight, my surgeon wants more, but I am going to go by how I look, which I am happy with how I look now, I already feel great. I did really well during the Thanksgiving holiday I am so proud of me! 
It has not been hard to stick with my plan, I treat myself sometimes to things I shouldn't eat but I get back on track (my fear of going back to my previous weight keeps me in check). It is amazing how many people accommodate me when I do go to parties, they always make sure there is something there for me to eat. One of my friends' mother even remembers so every time she has a fish fry she will bake me a couple of pieces of fish and have a salad. So sweet..
I know a lot of people choose not to let people know that they had WLS but I have found it to be better for me to let people know, when I am at parties and everyone knows, I don't have people asking "Is that all you gonna eat?" Instead they say, "I made this for you so you can eat too." or they will ask me in advance so they will make sure there is something for me to eat. It is a personal choice and you are entitled to it. 
To this day, with my getting a blood clot right after surgery, I would do it again, best decision in my life right up there with having my children and getting a divorce. LOL To all of you that have gone through with the surgery I wish you continued success, for those considering, make sure you are doing it for YOU and I pray you have a problem free surgery, and to all follow your doctors orders and you will be successful!! Until next time!!
BigS (I will have to come up with another title LOL)
A thought.....
Aug 01, 2011
I went out this weekend and had a great time
....but while watching the crowd I noticed something....there were women there that were as big as I use to be getting asked to dance and by some really attractive men -that is when I realized it was never about my weight it was about my lack of confidence my lack of self esteem. 
All that time I blamed it on my weight, listening to the world that being over weight was unattractive- I was my own worst enemy. I remember a male friend of mine telling me one day, while at my heaviest, that I have the power I just have to figure out how to use it. 
Now that my eyes are open, I see what he meant. 
Now that I have high self esteem and loads of confidence, this weekend was the best time I have had out in a club in a long time. 
This was the first time in a long time I wasn't the one at the table watching the purses and the drinks!! I am really enjoying the new me!!!!
I still do not regret having my WLS..one of the BEST decisions I have every made; it helped me find my mojo...oh behave...(in the voice of Austin Powers) 
lolBigS
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