blessd2bfree
very small and quick update
Aug 04, 2012
hello OH family it has definitely been forever in a day since i have been on here to post my weight loss is now slim to none but i hsve to admit I have been slipping on my regimen my biggest problem now has been the extra skin and what to do with it. My weight is now down to 268lbs which makes my total weight loss to date to 200lbs even. My doctor estimates that i have about 50lbs of extra skin, i have done nothing to even begin the process of having the skin removed because i have high doubts that my insurance will pay for it, I plan to recommit myself to the process once my family vacation is done and over,. I dont want to restrict or limit myself during my vacation in which i work so hard for throughout the year. it has been 2 1/2 years since i have had sugar, bread, corn, rice, soda or anything that was set as a restriction when i had my gastric bypass. But i think my biggest problem is the fact that i eat and drink and the same time, i know shame on me. well i pray everyone is doing well in their journey and in their endeavor,
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Just a quick update!!!
Jan 27, 2011
Wow, has it really been that long since Ive been on here??? Im at a point of trying not to second guess myself or my decision to have the surgery, I am much more active now, and no longer feel restricted in my own body. I am doing so many new things i dont know where to begin, I had my surgery on March 16, 2010, on December 30th i was weighed and weighed 468lbs i said oh no enough is enough and started dieting on my own and lost over 50lbs on my own. I am now 10 months out and I have gone from 468lbs to 287lbs now where i would like to be but i will accept it for what it is. I just have to get back on track and work out a lil harder and stay on task a lil more. I hope and pray everyone is satisfied and doing well on their journey and I just encourage everyone to not focus on the setbacks but to avoid stepping back. Stepping back into your old ways and your old habits and just know that this journey is what you make it and will be as successful as you strive for it to be.
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im frustrated and depressed
Aug 19, 2010
Wow I am truly blessed and stressed all at the same time!! I honestly feel i was not fully prepared for the emotional ride that comes along with the weight loss!! I am always second guessing myself and reprimanding myself. For instance i am 5 mos out and disappointed in myself for the # of lbs i lost. I started dieting before my surgery and lost around 50 to 58 lbs on my own in 3 months. now in the 5 mos since my surgery I hove only lost an additional 79 to 87 lbs. What is going on what am i doing wrong?? for the life of me i just cant get this process right!! I forget to drink my protein and take my calcium and vitamins i am really active but i honestly estimated that i would lose about 20 to 25lbs a month after the surgery due to my size which means i should have lost an additional 100 or 125lbs after the surgery by now so boy oh boy am i behind the target i set for myself!! Any suggestions or encouraging words please send them my way because i am becoming so depressed by this all!!
Sorry for the long wait!!!!
Jul 17, 2010
Hello OH family I am back!! Has anyone all of a sudden become so much busier now that they are more active!??! I am happy to report that as of yesterday I am 4 months out and down 115lbs it feels so great my next mile marker is to reach 125lbs down!! This new life is a difficult one at times because sometimes i question whether or not I am succeeding at it and I always feel there is more I can be doing to make the progress a success so much of my hair has come out over the past couple of months but I am coping and dealing with the lost one day at a time!! I have to get better at my nutrition regimen because I so often forget my calcium, my vitamins and my proteins because I am letting my social life and schedule take over!! well i am not reclaiming my focus I must become more focused in this area and I will become more focused!! GOD has been very good to me and because of that fact I will not complain!! I love the changes although I am unable to see them the way everyone else sees them!! I see little changes here and there but not to the extent that my family and friends see them!!
What I find to be odd is that my skin has become very sensitive products that I was able to use before I am not longer able to use in fact they notw cause a severe reaction!! I am at a plateau right now I guess I have been the same weight for two weeks now, Does anyone have any pointers on how to jumpstart the losing phase again or is it just a waiting game??:? I hope everyone is well and i look forward to hearing from you all very soon!! As always I am only as strong as the prayer I speak and the faith I keep!!!
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What I find to be odd is that my skin has become very sensitive products that I was able to use before I am not longer able to use in fact they notw cause a severe reaction!! I am at a plateau right now I guess I have been the same weight for two weeks now, Does anyone have any pointers on how to jumpstart the losing phase again or is it just a waiting game??:? I hope everyone is well and i look forward to hearing from you all very soon!! As always I am only as strong as the prayer I speak and the faith I keep!!!
feeling great!!!!!
Jun 10, 2010
I would like to begin this entry by first giving GOD all the glory, honor and praise that he deserves. Sorry I haven't been on OH in a while, but the new found energy has kept me extremely busy!!!! My social calender is now through the roof. I was speaking with one of my great friends (that I had met on OH) and she has helped me to realize that I have transferred addictions. I no longer crave or think about food excessively, now I constantly think about shopping and feel the urge to splurge!! I am now realizing how much of a problem this is becoming. I love to shop but then I become depressed because I buy clothes and they look great on me and make me feel confident, sexy and cool and then a week or two later they dont look as nice or they are way too big and then I feel like I wasted my money. I am not doing good with my protein and/or vitamins I truly believe honesty is the best policy and that is why I am being honest here today.
My main goal and focus now is to get my life back on track. I want to get better at my protein and vitamin intake. I want to also learn to avoid things that are addictive such as shopping right now because I am in such a vulnerable state. I have found two items that my body has violent reactions to and those two items are brown and serve sausage and rice. I had a bad experience with salad and broccolli as well but it was not violent reactions. I still avoid all sugar and only drink calorie free, caffeine free and sugar free drinkables. I dont do bread and i feel I have been pretty good with my food choices. Please all keep me in prayer until you read again.
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My main goal and focus now is to get my life back on track. I want to get better at my protein and vitamin intake. I want to also learn to avoid things that are addictive such as shopping right now because I am in such a vulnerable state. I have found two items that my body has violent reactions to and those two items are brown and serve sausage and rice. I had a bad experience with salad and broccolli as well but it was not violent reactions. I still avoid all sugar and only drink calorie free, caffeine free and sugar free drinkables. I dont do bread and i feel I have been pretty good with my food choices. Please all keep me in prayer until you read again.
The Stall is over!!!
May 11, 2010
Blessings to you all. I would like to start by giving GOD the glory, the honor and the praise because through All things HE is worthy to be praised. The past week and a half had proven to be a difficult one! Mainly due to the fact that my weight loss had hit a bit of a stall!!! From April 21st to May 7th my weight had remained at my last appt. weight of 387lbs I had begun to become disappointed in myself and discouraged. I could not understand why my weight had not changed. Then I kept hearing from the Dr and others, "oh" maybe it is because you are currently losing inches instead of losing weight!!! Huh!!! I did not understand that concept! The stall had caused me to become frustrated with myself and second guess myself! I thought to myself OH LORD this is the end of my weight loss and I am so close to the 100lb mark. But by the grace of our Heavenly Father when I got weighted I found out that I have recently loss 7 more lbs. I am trying to upadate my health tracker but for some reason the system keeps shutting down on me!!! I have decided to stop comparing my journey to that of others! Please OH keep me in prayer that this journey will be a successful one for me and that I will be able to handle all of these changes better mentally!!! I plan to come out victorious. I am only as strong as the prayer I speak and the faith I keep!!!!
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Well so far so good!!!!
May 06, 2010
Well everyone so far so good what I am going through right now is more mental than anything!! I find myself so often in a state of wonder!! Because i want so badly to be successful and do well I find myself second guessing everything I do even drinking a glass of water I find myself saying OMG did I drink too much or did I drink it too fast! SO to you all I post a few questions here they are: Did you ever go through a phase where you were afraid you were not losing any weight? I feel I am always in a state of puzzlement, am I losing? have I stretched my pouch? did I do something wrong today? am i not losing enough weight? WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME?? This change effects you in so many ways I am really concerned about my proteins because all though my surgeon suggested protein isolate, I can only tolerate protein concentrate and/or a protein blend? do you think it is OK for me to use a protein concentrate?? I know I am bombarding you with questions but I really need a little direction right now!
Cant wait to hear back from you and I hope that all is well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6.5 weeks out!!!!!!
Apr 29, 2010
Well I am 6.5 weeks out and still consider myself truly blessed. I am feeling much better and feel truly new and rejuvenated. I have had some ups and downs with trying to figure out the new me, such as what I can and can not tolerate and convincing myself not to second guess me!!! As of 4/21/10 I have gone from 465lbs to 387lbs which is a 32lb weight loss for the month since my surgery and 78lb weight loss in total for the diet I put myself on prior to the surgery. Sometimes I find myself telling myself you should have lost more weight than this by now, but now I have a new response for myself "NO I SHOULD NOT HAVE, I HAVE LOST EXACTLY WHAT GOD HAS DETERMINED MY BODY WAS ABLE TO TOLERATE!!!" I have decided to be happy with me at all cost after all GOD has created me in his own image and he is flawless and perfect and therefore anything he creates he creates to perfection, hence ME!!! I feel that I have so much more energy and confidence now and am so proud of the road I have traveled and how far I have come. The only major problem that I have had is with getting my protein and fluid intake in. So I have dedicated this week to me working on me bettering me.
I have decided to consider this whole process trial and error, I have to go through some trials to weed out all the errors. I no longer try to tell myself that I am failing at this process I now tell myself that I am traveling on the road to victory and I will be victorious. I have had quite a few milestones and WOW moments during this process and am delighted to share them with you:
1) I was able to comfortably cross my legs!!
2) I was able to sit in a chair with arms without feeling restricted!!
3) I was able to take a long walk with my husband without feeling winded!!
4) My sleep apnea no longer has control of me I actually now have control of it!!
5) Life is great and i feel all my wishes are so attainable now!!
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I have decided to consider this whole process trial and error, I have to go through some trials to weed out all the errors. I no longer try to tell myself that I am failing at this process I now tell myself that I am traveling on the road to victory and I will be victorious. I have had quite a few milestones and WOW moments during this process and am delighted to share them with you:
1) I was able to comfortably cross my legs!!
2) I was able to sit in a chair with arms without feeling restricted!!
3) I was able to take a long walk with my husband without feeling winded!!
4) My sleep apnea no longer has control of me I actually now have control of it!!
5) Life is great and i feel all my wishes are so attainable now!!
Sorry for my absence!!!
Apr 15, 2010
I am so sorry for my absence everyone. I would like to first start this post off by giving GOD his honor and glory for if it had not been for him I would not have made it this far. I have not been on here for a while because I had a family tragedy that needed to be attended to. My parents home burned down, so please all just keep them in prayer. Well I am now a month out and 30lbs down bringing my total weight loss for this year to 78lbs, I am fastly approaching 100 and cant wait to get there. The crazy thing is I cant see the weight loss when I look in the mirror I still see the old me but apparently everyone else sees the loss and thinks it looks great. I just wish i too can see it. I did not expect the mental psychii that this surgery plays on your eyes and your mind.
I have not cheated or eaten anything that I had no business eating or drinking and I am so proud of my commitment to this process. I think the best decision I have made is to make sure that GOD is a part of this journey. With GOD, my husband, my sister, my mothier-in-law, my children, my niece and my nephew I see myself being victorious and successful throughout the duration of this process. Life just looks so much better. I started at the gym yesterday and it felt great. Today I worked in the fitness center with a specialist for the first time and she truly made me work out for an hour and a half. I am so looking forward to attending my nieces graduation, prom celebration and track meets as a a newly confidence and self secure me.
I know my weight loss journey has just begun and the road will get a little rougher as I go, but I honestly feel I am more than ready for the challenge. I didnt risk my life and my families livelihood just to self sabotage myself. I plan to fully utilize this tool as my transportation mode to a new, improved, healthier and happier me. So watch out world here I come healthier, happier and ready to participate in all the activities and joys you have to offer with my family and friends. I no longer plan to live through them but with them and for them. " I am only as strong as the faith I keep and the prayer I speak" "Oh and I plan to remain prayed up and with you my OH family always be straight up, keep your head up and know that together we will make it through!!!!!!"
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I have not cheated or eaten anything that I had no business eating or drinking and I am so proud of my commitment to this process. I think the best decision I have made is to make sure that GOD is a part of this journey. With GOD, my husband, my sister, my mothier-in-law, my children, my niece and my nephew I see myself being victorious and successful throughout the duration of this process. Life just looks so much better. I started at the gym yesterday and it felt great. Today I worked in the fitness center with a specialist for the first time and she truly made me work out for an hour and a half. I am so looking forward to attending my nieces graduation, prom celebration and track meets as a a newly confidence and self secure me.
I know my weight loss journey has just begun and the road will get a little rougher as I go, but I honestly feel I am more than ready for the challenge. I didnt risk my life and my families livelihood just to self sabotage myself. I plan to fully utilize this tool as my transportation mode to a new, improved, healthier and happier me. So watch out world here I come healthier, happier and ready to participate in all the activities and joys you have to offer with my family and friends. I no longer plan to live through them but with them and for them. " I am only as strong as the faith I keep and the prayer I speak" "Oh and I plan to remain prayed up and with you my OH family always be straight up, keep your head up and know that together we will make it through!!!!!!"
Giving GOD the Glory he deserves!!!!
Mar 31, 2010
I am not 2 weeks and 1 day out and truly grateful for my ultimate physician bringing me through. I had some complications the day after surgery but my Ultimate Physician stepped in of course and brought me through. I am so happy to have successfully made it through. I am doing good keeping up with all of my vitamins and supplements. Have not eaten anything that was not allowed following my physicians diet to a T. I realize my diet is a little different than the diet other surgeons have prescribed for their patients my diet is as follows below:
WEEK 1 - CLEAR LIQUIDS
ex. chick broth, crystal light, sugar free popsicles, water, sugar free 100% juice diluted w/ water
WEEK 2 - FULL LIQUIDS
ex. clear liquids plus fat free milk, sugar free pudding, strained cream soup, sugar free jello, beef broth and vegetable broth, protein shakes
WEEKS 3 - 7 BLENDED/PUREED Progressing to soft foods by week 8
ex. clear liquids + full liquids + baby food and tuna and chicken put in a blender until applesauce consistency, fat free gravy to help process foods in the blender. carnation instant breakfast and eggs as long as they are put in the blender after being cooked.
I started on my blender phase today and i fixed mash potatoes w/ water and fat free milk and stirred in some turkey stage 1 baby food, I measured out 4oz took about 5 baby spoons of that and was full. I am proud to say I can now take in about 4oz of liquid without becoming sick. The protein shakes are difficult so what I have been doing is special K protein water which has no sugar in it and now I will mix unflavored protein isolate in with my baby food or mash potatoes. I plan for this to be a successful and rewarding journey for me and I know as long as I keep GOD as part of this process I will be successful and the rewards of it will be great. I encourage everyone to remain committed to GOD, yourself and the process and together we can and will all be victorious. "I am only as strong as the prayer I speak and the faith I keep" Please remain encouraged and know that with GOD on your side failure is not an option, GOD Bless and keep you all.-
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WEEK 1 - CLEAR LIQUIDS
ex. chick broth, crystal light, sugar free popsicles, water, sugar free 100% juice diluted w/ water
WEEK 2 - FULL LIQUIDS
ex. clear liquids plus fat free milk, sugar free pudding, strained cream soup, sugar free jello, beef broth and vegetable broth, protein shakes
WEEKS 3 - 7 BLENDED/PUREED Progressing to soft foods by week 8
ex. clear liquids + full liquids + baby food and tuna and chicken put in a blender until applesauce consistency, fat free gravy to help process foods in the blender. carnation instant breakfast and eggs as long as they are put in the blender after being cooked.
I started on my blender phase today and i fixed mash potatoes w/ water and fat free milk and stirred in some turkey stage 1 baby food, I measured out 4oz took about 5 baby spoons of that and was full. I am proud to say I can now take in about 4oz of liquid without becoming sick. The protein shakes are difficult so what I have been doing is special K protein water which has no sugar in it and now I will mix unflavored protein isolate in with my baby food or mash potatoes. I plan for this to be a successful and rewarding journey for me and I know as long as I keep GOD as part of this process I will be successful and the rewards of it will be great. I encourage everyone to remain committed to GOD, yourself and the process and together we can and will all be victorious. "I am only as strong as the prayer I speak and the faith I keep" Please remain encouraged and know that with GOD on your side failure is not an option, GOD Bless and keep you all.-
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Philadelphia, PA
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Surgery
03/16/2010
Surgery Date
Feb 02, 2010
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