Bonnie22

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 So today is my first blog entry and the first day of week 6 post op.  I had lap-band surgery on June 7, 2012. I have lost 33 pounds since the surgery. Which is amazing! My band gets tightened on Wednesday the 18th, so I am hoping once that is done the weight might come off a little faster ( fingers crossed) I have been feeling really great physically, but emotionally and mentanlly I have been a mess!!  I knew that there would be some anxiety and depression but didn't really think it would be this bad. Over the last 5 weeks I have come to realize how much I depended on food to make me feel better. My name is  Bonnie and  I Am A FOOD ADDICT. I used food when I was sad,angry,depressed... You name the emotion and if I felt it I used food to deal with it.  It was such a wake up call when you actually have to deal with the problem instead of turning to food to make it better. Hard to do when you have never done that. But as always I am a work in progress and  I knew that having this surgery would in a sense make me grow up and deal with my problems in a heathy way. If it doesn't challenge you, it won't change you, that is my mantra, I say it over and over when it is challenging, because ultimently the reason I had the surgery was yes get healthy and lose weight, but it was also to change and find the person I am without food.