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my new motivation
Oct 13, 2008
I added pictures of my new motivation. I hope this helps. I have not gained but I have not lost either. Now I am spending my evenings and weekends outside working with my Sam. Sam is a 17 mth old Percheron. He was not broke and did not know how to drive. The guy I purchased him from says he sat on him a couple of times but that is it. I am now riding Sam and we are working on the driving. He hasn't been hooked to a cart yet but we are getting there.
I have a saddle picked out but will have to get some of this weight off before I can get it.
So, will let you know how this goes and post more pictures.
Jennifer
I have a saddle picked out but will have to get some of this weight off before I can get it.
So, will let you know how this goes and post more pictures.
Jennifer
so very tired and discouraged
Jul 27, 2008
I had my band fixed in May, have got two fills and I have worked out at the gym more than I ever have in my life. Was I a good girl and went 6 days a week every week, no, but I still went on a regular basis until the last two weeks. (they determined I did not have a bone infection but a microfracture in my toe and I have to let it heal) I can not get over the 280 hump. I am so tired of dieting and working out and not getting progress. If I see progress I continue to be encouraged. I have struggled since February without my band. According to the doctor's file, I managed to loose one pound. Don't get me wrong, I am glad I didn't go up over that time but one pound over 5 months is really getting to me. I am starting to get restriction but it is not working like it did the first time. If this is what it is like for some people the FIRST time around with the band, I can see why they get discouraged. I keep holding on to the fact that I lost a lot of weight the first time I had the band installed.
This is my fisrt stall though, I just wish it would be done with. We are going on 6 mths now that is wasted and I could have been loosing. I don't know what to do to encourage myself. I am getting depressed and that causes me to eat...which doesn't help. Maybe I need to make an appointment with my psychologist to help me through. That is what she is here for. I should have been happy my one year bandaversary was here but I was so upset over my lack of weightloss that I forgot what day it was.
Speaking of that, do I could my first surgery as my bandaversary or my second one now?????
I'm just so freaking discouraged!!!!!
Jennifer
ahhhhh restriction
Jul 06, 2008
I got my fill on Thursday and it is heavenly. I missed it so much. My hunger is gone, I get filled up quickly, and the ability to eat more than I should is gone. I know I need a little more in there but they were conservative due to the holiday weekend. So, I will schedule another fill soon and hopefully get back on track. I was down one pound from the last time they weighed me but still, I could have been down a lot more. But, I am back on track now!!!
Fills are awesome!!!
Jennifer
Fills are awesome!!!
Jennifer
fill tomorrow!
Jul 02, 2008
The day is finally here!! I get my fill tomorrow after my second surgery. For over a month now, I have felt like I could handle a fill. I feel a lot different this time around than the last time. I don't think it took my stomach as long to heal and get used to the band this time. I have been going to the gym on a regular basis and working with my trainer but I just can't get over that 280 hump. I am hoping that once I get my fill, I will finally do it. I have been stuck here since February when my band broke.
I have done some stuff since my last post. I have been considering getting a horse so at the first of June, I went to ride two percherons that I was considering. I have not been on a horse since I was around 20 or 21 years old. It was nice to be back up there. Since then, the lady has decided not to sell either of them but I got to ride them for free!! LOL That same evening, I rode my sister's horse around the area at a play day the saddle club was having. The surprising thing is that I was not sore the next day. When I first got in the saddle, a few muscles went "WHAT THE HELL!!!" but then they slowly figured out what was going on and stopped hurting.
I would like to have a horse again but I do not want any horse. I have always wanted a riding draft and that is what I will get. I can be patient. I really like percherons and they seem to have a really nice personality.
My other problem is that I have had a toe swollen for a month now. I know, I know, it is just a freaking toe but it is not going down and hurts like a mother after I get done at the gym. I finally broke down and went to urgent care a week ago as my doctor's office would not see me. My doctor switched hospitals and I am in the process of finding a new PCP. Dr. Edwards referred me to one and I meet him next week. But, I had to go to urgent care in the mean time. They x-rayed my toe, nothing broke or stuck in it. Doctor scratched his head as not sure why it is swollen 3xs it's size. Put me on some SUPER antibiotics and said to try that for 10 days. Tomorrow is the 10th day and my toe is still the same. I see the new PCP next Wednesday, I think I will just let him look at it and see if he can figure it out. I should take a picture so everyone can see my jumbo toe that I think looks like a vienna sausage. In fact, I think I will do that, pictures coming soon!!
Will let you know how things go with my fill!!! My personal trainer wants us all to go to Diamond Head tomorrow night to eat (he is training for a body building competition that is in 2 weeks and eating like mad) so I will get to go and watch while everyone pigs out!!! sigh.......
Jennifer
I have done some stuff since my last post. I have been considering getting a horse so at the first of June, I went to ride two percherons that I was considering. I have not been on a horse since I was around 20 or 21 years old. It was nice to be back up there. Since then, the lady has decided not to sell either of them but I got to ride them for free!! LOL That same evening, I rode my sister's horse around the area at a play day the saddle club was having. The surprising thing is that I was not sore the next day. When I first got in the saddle, a few muscles went "WHAT THE HELL!!!" but then they slowly figured out what was going on and stopped hurting.
I would like to have a horse again but I do not want any horse. I have always wanted a riding draft and that is what I will get. I can be patient. I really like percherons and they seem to have a really nice personality.
My other problem is that I have had a toe swollen for a month now. I know, I know, it is just a freaking toe but it is not going down and hurts like a mother after I get done at the gym. I finally broke down and went to urgent care a week ago as my doctor's office would not see me. My doctor switched hospitals and I am in the process of finding a new PCP. Dr. Edwards referred me to one and I meet him next week. But, I had to go to urgent care in the mean time. They x-rayed my toe, nothing broke or stuck in it. Doctor scratched his head as not sure why it is swollen 3xs it's size. Put me on some SUPER antibiotics and said to try that for 10 days. Tomorrow is the 10th day and my toe is still the same. I see the new PCP next Wednesday, I think I will just let him look at it and see if he can figure it out. I should take a picture so everyone can see my jumbo toe that I think looks like a vienna sausage. In fact, I think I will do that, pictures coming soon!!
Will let you know how things go with my fill!!! My personal trainer wants us all to go to Diamond Head tomorrow night to eat (he is training for a body building competition that is in 2 weeks and eating like mad) so I will get to go and watch while everyone pigs out!!! sigh.......
Jennifer
Second Band surgery
May 14, 2008
I am sitting here after getting back from my second band surgery. I got the call on Monday that my surgery was going through and I was to have it today. Went to the hospital at 8:00 and was walking (okay being wheeled) out at 3:00 pm with a new band. Dr. Edwards was going to trace the leak but since he couldn't really pin point exactly where the leak was, he just put a new one in. I have the new AP band. So, I now have a second Bandivarsery. I asked him if I could have my band but he had to send it back to Lap Band so they could examine it. Which, I understand that.
I did take my camera with me this time and posted some pictures up of my surgery. Dr. Edwards also said he would take pictures of my insides with his digital and give them to me. When he does, I will post them here too.
So, this week has been good and bad. I got my new band and I'm on my way to weight loss again but on Monday, I had to let my Hopper go. She is the girl in my avatar. She was treated for lymphoma and the good news is that it has not come back. But, she developed liver cancer. I told myself that I would not do chemo again as the end results are not near what they are the first time and might only get you another 2 or so months which is barely enough time to finish the chemo. On Monday morning, it took her about an hour and a half for her to physically get up in the morning. So, we made the hard decision to let her go.
I held her till the end and she passed on in my arms. It was very hard and I am currently dealing with the feelings of guilt for taking her life and the feelings of relief as she is no longer in pain. I miss her today as she is my care taker when I do not feel well and she is not here. She would lay by my side and not leave. She would watch over me and help me feel better. My other girl is trying to do the same but she is a little 'flighty' (which is what we loved about her personality) but gets distracted easily but bugs, dirt, dust, noises, etc and forgets what she is doing. But, that is what makes her special.
Will let you know how I heal from my second surgery!
Jennifer
I did take my camera with me this time and posted some pictures up of my surgery. Dr. Edwards also said he would take pictures of my insides with his digital and give them to me. When he does, I will post them here too.
So, this week has been good and bad. I got my new band and I'm on my way to weight loss again but on Monday, I had to let my Hopper go. She is the girl in my avatar. She was treated for lymphoma and the good news is that it has not come back. But, she developed liver cancer. I told myself that I would not do chemo again as the end results are not near what they are the first time and might only get you another 2 or so months which is barely enough time to finish the chemo. On Monday morning, it took her about an hour and a half for her to physically get up in the morning. So, we made the hard decision to let her go.
I held her till the end and she passed on in my arms. It was very hard and I am currently dealing with the feelings of guilt for taking her life and the feelings of relief as she is no longer in pain. I miss her today as she is my care taker when I do not feel well and she is not here. She would lay by my side and not leave. She would watch over me and help me feel better. My other girl is trying to do the same but she is a little 'flighty' (which is what we loved about her personality) but gets distracted easily but bugs, dirt, dust, noises, etc and forgets what she is doing. But, that is what makes her special.
Will let you know how I heal from my second surgery!
Jennifer
First Island trip!
Apr 29, 2008
Well, I had a few NSV even with needing a new band. We left on the trip my parents purchased for us to Punta Cana. I have been stressed like mad over the seat belts in the plane but it BUCKLED! YEAH! even had a little room to spare, not a lot but I had a little. The island was great and I have a nice tan, won't last long but it is nice for now. Best tan I have ever had. We walked down the beach to the outside market and haggled over prices, took a trip inland, swam, snorkled, and just lounged in the sun. It was great and now that I know I can fly, we will take more!
As for my band, my insurance said no to the "revision" which is just replacing the band. I can understand why as it is not their or my fault so why should they have to pay for it. I have to call back at the end of the week to see what Dr. Edwards is going to do. He is attempting to get someone else to pay for it as I was assured I wouldn't pay for it and I am not going to.
Other than that, I am just sort of maintaining, no loss but I go up and down on the weight, just not down any further. Will keep everyone updated on it.
Jennifer
As for my band, my insurance said no to the "revision" which is just replacing the band. I can understand why as it is not their or my fault so why should they have to pay for it. I have to call back at the end of the week to see what Dr. Edwards is going to do. He is attempting to get someone else to pay for it as I was assured I wouldn't pay for it and I am not going to.
Other than that, I am just sort of maintaining, no loss but I go up and down on the weight, just not down any further. Will keep everyone updated on it.
Jennifer
getting a second band...
Apr 03, 2008
I will be getting a new band or part of a new band. I learned today that once again, my restriction is gone, gone, gone, gone...... 
They can not see a leak so they have to go in and check it out. Dr. Edwards is hoping to find it in the tube but if not, he will replace the entire thing. I am just waiting on Mary to call me and give me the schedule for the next surgery.
I am discouraged...have gained 2 to 3 pounds back. I am still working out but I could be working out harder. I am going to have too. I just wish it wasn't happening right before I went on my first big vacation.
sigh......
Jennifer
They can not see a leak so they have to go in and check it out. Dr. Edwards is hoping to find it in the tube but if not, he will replace the entire thing. I am just waiting on Mary to call me and give me the schedule for the next surgery. I am discouraged...have gained 2 to 3 pounds back. I am still working out but I could be working out harder. I am going to have too. I just wish it wasn't happening right before I went on my first big vacation.
sigh......
Jennifer
Band problems
Mar 27, 2008
Well, I posted that I got a fill last week, by Friday I didn't feel like I had a fill. I ate way more that I should have been able to on Sunday so on Monday I called the doctor. They scheduled me to come in on today to check the band. Well, I get in there and they can't get any saline back out of my band. The fill is gone... So, they put dye in it, I wander around for awhile, drink water (I forgot to mention I had to drink a bunch of that nasty barium) and waited for them to pull me back in. Finally get back in and they can't see a leak. Get Dr. Edwards in there, he looks at it, no leak. They can't explain where the saline went other than the leak is too small to see that quick. So, they fill me back up (causing me to drink a crap load more barium) and we are going to see how it does. If my saline disappears again, I will have to have the entire band replaced.
So, I am on liquids for at least 48 hours as they had to fill and unfill my band 5 or 6 times. Heather said my stomach would be swollen for a couple of days.
I was doing so good and this is putting a big hamper on things. I have gained a few pounds but I think it is water, I hope. I still work with the trainer 2 days a week and work out 6 days a week. Okay, I do miss a day or so here and there but not much.
It is very stressful and if I do have a leak, the replacement will have to wait till AFTER my trip.
Will let you know more as I do.
Jennifer
So, I am on liquids for at least 48 hours as they had to fill and unfill my band 5 or 6 times. Heather said my stomach would be swollen for a couple of days.
I was doing so good and this is putting a big hamper on things. I have gained a few pounds but I think it is water, I hope. I still work with the trainer 2 days a week and work out 6 days a week. Okay, I do miss a day or so here and there but not much.
It is very stressful and if I do have a leak, the replacement will have to wait till AFTER my trip.
Will let you know more as I do.
Jennifer
fill today
Mar 19, 2008
I went in today as I have not felt like I had any restriction for the last few weeks. Well, the reason is that I had no restriction. They didn't get any fluid back out so there was no restriction in the band. I had went in a month ago as I was not doing well and vomiting a lot. They don't know if the fluid leaked out during that appointment or if I have a leak in the band. I got 2.7 put in, I was 3.4 before but she didn't want to do that much in right off and make me sick. If it turns out that I loose the fluid again, we will have to check the band for a leak.
The good news is that I only gained a pound doing this time when I was going on will power alone. If I wasn't working out 6 days a week, it would have been worse.
So, now that I have restriction again, we will see how I do!
Jennifer
The good news is that I only gained a pound doing this time when I was going on will power alone. If I wasn't working out 6 days a week, it would have been worse.
So, now that I have restriction again, we will see how I do!
Jennifer
motivation
Mar 18, 2008
I am struggling with motivation right now. I have no restriction in my band and get a fill tomorrow. I think that will help as I am going on will power right now and let me tell you, my will power SUCKS! I talked to my trainer tonight and we are going to set a goal tomorrow. This is the first time since I started this over a year ago that I have not had a goal and I think that is part of the problem. I have only lost 2 pounds in the last three weeks. Not good.
On the other hand, I did have a NSV. I am light and small enough to get in the tanning booth. I have never tanned before and I started this week. So, while I am having motivation problems, I did have some good news. I am trying to work on my tan so that when we go to the carribbean next month, I won't burn to a crisp.
I still say the trainer is worth it. I am up to 50 minutes of cardio and could do more if motivated. On Tuesday and Saturday, it is cardio only with no weights. On those nights I do 50 minutes. I do 30 on the eliptical and 20 on the treadmill. When I started the eliptical just a 3 weeks ago, I had a hard time pedeling fast enough to just keep it going. Now I am up to 3.5 or so on it. These are all good things and something I would not have accomplished without the trainer.
I think that is all for me right now. Oh, I did by a new bathing suit. Wasn't as horrible of an experience as before but still not great. I did find a dress that was normally $80 and I got it for $16. Is a little BIG (YES!) but will work and for that price, I couldn't pass it up! I need some new outfits for Court as all mine are too big and one year I gave all my smaller stuff away in frustration. Sure could use it now. I did find one dress crumpled in the bottom of my closet that escaped when I was giving them away. Tried it on and it FIT! So, now I have two court outfits until I loose more weight.
Keep being a looser!
Jennifer
On the other hand, I did have a NSV. I am light and small enough to get in the tanning booth. I have never tanned before and I started this week. So, while I am having motivation problems, I did have some good news. I am trying to work on my tan so that when we go to the carribbean next month, I won't burn to a crisp.
I still say the trainer is worth it. I am up to 50 minutes of cardio and could do more if motivated. On Tuesday and Saturday, it is cardio only with no weights. On those nights I do 50 minutes. I do 30 on the eliptical and 20 on the treadmill. When I started the eliptical just a 3 weeks ago, I had a hard time pedeling fast enough to just keep it going. Now I am up to 3.5 or so on it. These are all good things and something I would not have accomplished without the trainer.
I think that is all for me right now. Oh, I did by a new bathing suit. Wasn't as horrible of an experience as before but still not great. I did find a dress that was normally $80 and I got it for $16. Is a little BIG (YES!) but will work and for that price, I couldn't pass it up! I need some new outfits for Court as all mine are too big and one year I gave all my smaller stuff away in frustration. Sure could use it now. I did find one dress crumpled in the bottom of my closet that escaped when I was giving them away. Tried it on and it FIT! So, now I have two court outfits until I loose more weight.
Keep being a looser!
Jennifer
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Republic, MO
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Surgery
07/25/2007
Surgery Date
Jul 09, 2007
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