Brandialexandria
Getting use to this
May 26, 2008
So I am learning to listen to me...To my body and what it is telling me. Yes I can have those sugar free cookies but do I really want them??? Not so much anymore. It still take a minute to learn with I can and can't eat when it comes to new foods (you can only have so much fish before it all begins to taste the same). My newfound exercise is swimming. It's easy, fun and quick. I can do 10 laps and before I know it time is up and I am headed back home. Overall, swimming is great for the whole body and I can see the results everywhere.
On to other things, the one thing I having a hard time coping with is the way I see myself. Others have complemented my on weight loss but I just don't see it. Yeah I wear a few sizes smaller but I don't SEE it. It's like my brain won't let me comprehend what my body is doing....I need to get some updated pics, maybe that will help me see the bigger picture. The other issue is that as I lose weight and move toward a healthy lifestyle I look at my current situation and realize that this is not where I want to be. I want to help people and influence people to be more than what they are. To help them understand their true potential and the position I am in now is not working for me. I work like a dog and to the bone to make someone else money...And that is not even the bad part. I really don't mind working for someone else, but if I am going to work this hard, shouldn't it be for a greater cause? Shouldn't I get some gratification out of it?
Making it Work
Apr 03, 2008
After coming home and getting use to not being hungry EVER was a challenge, but I made it. I am very grateful for my friend LaKesha; she had surgery about two week before I did and she has helped me reassure myself that I have done the right thing and can make it through this. I do have a great support system, but it is always better to have someone who has been through this on your side!
But nonetheless, things are good, I am slowly learning little tricks of the trade of what works for me and what doesn't. In two weeks I have lost
To anyone and everyone who is thinking about the surgery, think long and hard, do your research, talk to people! And not just ONE person but a whole lot of people!!!!! This is not easy nor should it be, but if I had to do all ever again...I would in a heartbeat. To be big, fat, large, plump (call it what you want) all your life and then to finally see the pounds come off, you see all the possibilities open up to you with each pound gone. First, all the glory goes to GOD who sees us through, then you understand that this real, you can do this and you become a better person for it.
Stay Blessed!
Brandy
The Day After
Mar 24, 2008
Surgery was yesterday, March 24 and I feel...okay. After spell of the morphine drip not working for about an hour, everything is everything. Granted my stomach feels as hard as a basketball not to mention the size of one with all the swelling. But you know what, not all that bad, I prayed for the best and expected the worse, and things turned out really well. The staff is working with my breathing to make sure I am getting enough oxygen, I am up and walking on my own and for what it is worth, I would do it all again in a heartbeat. It's funny because know I find myself being a bypass advocate. Whenever someone remotely looks interested in what I am doing I tell them all my reason and it makes sense to them. Like it was told to me, anyone can lose 60 -70
I did not put my body through this just to go home and have a brownie and ice cream. Amazingly when I worked in my doctor's clinic I saw this. Women would come in and tell me how they could eat nachos, pizza of whatever else made them fat in the beginning. That defeats the purpose of what you have gone through.
But anyways, my daughter has little cold and I wish I could be with her, but I know she is loved and as long that she has family and the Most Holy is watching over her, I know she will be okay for a few days without mommy.
Here We Go
Mar 22, 2008
So surgery is scheduled for Monday, March 24. I've come this far, no turning back now. I have pondered and waited for this for about 2 and a half years. Is this really for me? Should I go through with it? After giving it to the Lord, He let all the pieces fall into place and there is no turning back. I am more excited than I am nervous. I look at all the pics posted and read everyone's story; they are so inspirational I CAN'T TURN BACK. I know it will be hard in the beginning but I believe in mind over matter. I have to keep telling myself that it's all worth it to be able to keep up with my family, to not feel sore after climbing some stairs, to bring my health back under control. No offense to anyone who has had this surgery and are over the age of 65, but I refuse to not take advantage to the opportunity now. I do not want to be 500 at 55! I can stop this now...I WILL STOP THIS NOW!!!!!!! I hope you all understand where I am coming from and I look forward to the days ahead.
Be Blessed.
Brandy
