Brenda M.

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Today is my one month anniversary since my surgery. I can't believe how fast the time goes. I am happy to report that I have little to no pain at this point, so I am feeling much better. I have even been able to try some new foods like eggs and cottage cheese. So far, I have kept down everything that I try. Eating still feels like a chore to me, though, like it's something I have to do rather than something I would want to do. I have recently discovered hot tea, which makes my stomach so relaxed I just love it. Nothing else I eat or drink feels so nice and comforting. I recomend it to everyone!!

On thursday I had my first follow up visit with the Doctor and I have lost a total of 21 pounds so far. I am happy about this, but feeling impatient to regain that "normal" feeling about myself again. Everyone reminds me that it hasn't even been 3 weeks yet, but I cant really help it. I just can't wait until I am pain free and am able to function as well as before. Anyway, the doctor thinks I am doing well and I have nothing to worry about at this point. The only thing I should be doing is moving around and walking more, which I don't as much because that is when I am in the most pain and discomfort. I am to see him for one more appointment on the 15th, and then on the 23rd, I am back to school in IA. I have been having trouble sleeping through the night as of recently due to discomfort, but last night wasn't too bad, so I think this is getting better as well. I just hope that everything is back to normal by the time I go back to school.

It is finally one week post op and the scale says I am down 10 lb. Not bad. Right now, I just wish I knew of some kind of support group or something to help me with the mental anguish I am deling with. I am pretty much doing ok with everything else. Getting a little anxious to chew something, but I know that is to be expected. I still have pain around my incisions, but it's slowly decreasing. Something rather interesting that I realized today is that I most likely feel really bored these days because I used to spend almost all of my time eating....that was my number one activity. Now that that activity is gone, it's almost like I don't know what to do with myself. My mom has been really great with everything, though, she reminds me when to eat, and gets and makes as much of a variety of liquid stuff as she can come up with. Her support as well as my Dad's has meant the world to me.

After a very not fun hospital stay of 5 days, I am finally home. I have to be honest and say that everything was harder than I thought it would be. Even though I had my surgery done lapriscopicaly, I had a lot more pain than I thought I would. Things were even a bit scarry, because my Doctor was afraid that because of my fevers and high pulse rates, that I may have had internal leaks. I had to take a barium swallowing test (like an upper GI) which terrified me because I had to swallow a great deal of horribe tasting stuff. Luckily, I didn't throw any of it up. I was also thrilled to find out later that after noon that I did not have any leaks, and I could finally go home. Since my surgery, I have been kind of depsressed, and afraid that I made the wrong choice. However, I have heard that this is common, so I am sure I will get over it once I am not in pain anymore, can eat real food, and start feeling like a "normal" person again. So things are going pretty slow, but the worst is over and I am glad for that.

Well, now I only have 2 days left of my wait until surgery is over. On Wednesday, I had the chance to meet and have dinner with a fellow obesityhelp.com member who was extremely helpful to me. She gave me wonderful encouragement and did a tremendous job at calming my nerves. Thanks Melissa!!!

Just one week until my surgery and I can't believe how nervous I am. I just hope everything goes ok, and I can handle all the pain and discomfort. I am just 20 years old, and I am ready to begin the rest of my life.