catherinelmsmith
happy new year!
Jan 05, 2011
I had a very interesting new years..... it ended in a lot of drama! but seems like everythings looking up.
my kids enjoyed it and thats really all that matters to me. im up early on the site to say hi and to let my OBH friends know that im okay, and im trying to DEAL with things. Jan 4, 2011 marked a new start for me and i intend on getting through this beautiful new year positively! well let me go, the alarm clock is about to start screaming (the worst part of the day is hearing this horrific alarm clock raging in my ear lol) soooo im going to go ahead and dismiss it bcuz im already up and ready to get my little man up for school yay!
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my kids enjoyed it and thats really all that matters to me. im up early on the site to say hi and to let my OBH friends know that im okay, and im trying to DEAL with things. Jan 4, 2011 marked a new start for me and i intend on getting through this beautiful new year positively! well let me go, the alarm clock is about to start screaming (the worst part of the day is hearing this horrific alarm clock raging in my ear lol) soooo im going to go ahead and dismiss it bcuz im already up and ready to get my little man up for school yay!
I guess it was just meant for me to HATE myself!
Dec 29, 2010
I guess it was meant...... i absoluetly hate myself. ive done all the possible changes to love ME and help myself. everytime it seems im loving myself 10 times more than i did three days ago something is done to me. since ive had my gastric bypass its been nothing but tormoil, and pain. about two weeks ago i tried commiting suicide #FAIL . when i woke the next day i said "lord thanks i really would have missed my kids" .... now im sittin here trying to figure out ANOTHER way. I know nothing in this world should make me feel like harming myself, but i just feel like all the pain would be gone. i have a husband that cheats and cheats. hes a lier, and i dont trust him. he used my surgery as a reason WHY he cheated in the past. About a hour ago i found a number in his iraq belongings in his tuff box that were shipped back from iraq and i went through it, and found a number... i called it.. and a lil bird told me about him! sad very sad. I wish i could just run to the top of the rocky mountains, close my eyes, and jump. ill be gone b4 i hit solid ground and i wouldnt be feeling pain. its this feeling in my chest it keeps shaking and beating really fast and it hurts slightly. ughhh hell i dunno. I GUESS I WAS JUST MEANT FOR ME TO HATE MYSELF.
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Im back on the site!
Dec 28, 2010
So hi guys I'm back. this is my new page and ill be adding all my old friends on here and getting new friends! sooo its Dec 28 2010. I had my surgery Feb 23 2009 I'm almost two years out and man how time fly's. i haven't been back to a doctor yet because we are moving to another post in another state soon. once I'm there ill start my process all over again. I've recently gained 8lbs and I'm having a horrible time dealing with it! 8 lbs isn't much when you take into account that your bowel movements arent regular anymore and your retaining fluid.. so im willing to bet that thats where the extra lbs are coming from "crossing fingers" I don't know what i would do if i ever gained anymore weight. in total I've lost 70 lbs and I'm looking to lose 20 more just to get to my 130 mark. or 125 which ever looks best on me! i have three beautiful babies and a husband. sometimes i feel alone on this road because he doesn't do too much "supporting" me, which i think is sad. one thing I've learned is you have to be strong for yourself when on the WLS road, because either someone is being negative about the surgery or they are trying to tempt you with bad food choices! my husband started right out once he got me home the first week he would cook steaks and come in the room and eat it and smack uncontrollably. when your in the first stages its so hard. just smelling the food gives you a headache because u cant eat nothing but liquids. but i did it NO THANKS TO HIM! all in all I'm happy with my body. lol one of my favorite things to do is drink alcohol I don't do it all the time but I'm in the process of finding that "healthy non carbonated alcoholic drink lmao.
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About Me
Ft. Stewart, GA
Location
28.3
BMI
Surgery
02/23/2009
Surgery Date
Dec 26, 2010
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