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My story: where do i begin? I decided to have weightloss surgery in 2003. i was 5'4 and almost 300 lbs!!! I had sleep apnea, begining stages of type II diabeates, PCOS,endmeterisos, (ended up losing my left ovary in oct 2003) and last but not least-severe depression ( I'm bipolar) and anxiety. ( I avoided people at all costs My self esteme was so low I wouldnt even go to school fuctions for my daughter who was in 1st grade. I sent my husband to do the shopping most of the time! If I HAD to go I went to the next town over to avoid seeing anyone i knew.
I was sure I was an embarrassment to my family. I was ashamed of what i had let my self become. I was miserible! I even got to a place, a dark place where I felt like my loved ones were beter off without me, 
was to far in "my dark place" that I couldn't function! I didnt clean my house, I didnt cook, I didnt do anything but lay around. 
I almost lost my marriage because of my inscurities. 
I didnt shop for clothes. when i out grew somethings i started staying in pj's ALL day. So I can honestly say that having this surgery SAVED my life! 
I was only 4 1/2 monthes out and found out i was pregnant!!!! Me.. only 1 ovary... I had lost around 50 lbs maybe a little more. I continued to lose weight even thought I should have been gaining it. My husband moved us from N.C. to F.L. where i found the greatest OB/GYN. He took such good care of me I had problems...
I couldnt keep enough water built up for the baby so I was put on bed rest. If I moved around Id blackout from LOW bloodpressure. Finally I delivered a very healthy 5'lb 15 oz baby boy. ( for you who dont know me that made three boys and one girl!) after about 7 weeks my husband moved us back to N.C. where one of my sons (step son but I never use that word! Hes mine just like i gave birth to him)moved in with us full time. 
At this point i had lost around 80-90 lbs and after I delivered that dropped fast. I'm now around 135-140 making a total loss of 160 lbs or so. I'm not that ugly miserible LOST person anymore. I still have some health issues..I have fibromyalgia, and sever fatique, bipolar. But I've found the girl I used to be and I can look in a mirror now. I like myself. 
I loved being able to wear my moms clothes, and shopping for my own. I even wear some of my daughters (shes 11 now) I went from a size 28-30 jeans to an 8 if i had this extra skin removed I'd be able to wear smaller I know. We have moved BACK to F.L. now. I'm 4 years out and felling so much better. I knew the risks that went along with this decision. I knew that worst case I could lose my life. But I was on that road already. 
Do any of you know what I mean? If you are considering this surgery as a choice for you please contact me! I will gladly share my testamony withyou! I think that the results I have, far out weigh the risks. I was prepared for anything. I even left notes to my husband ,mom and my kids! Which really upset my husband when he found out but I knew this was what I needed to do to save my own life! I still have good and bad days. I struggled with my protein, and my vitimans, and was sooo sick at my stomach, had a real hard time eating anything!!!
. My hair fell out... my nails were breaking. But Im okay now. my hair has grown out long again and my nails also. I'm celebrating my babys third birthday tomorrow. Every thing is going great with my weight. i dont hide anymore. I hope to make up for all that LOST time and make my family proud of me again. I will upload recent pics if I can figure out how lol. well that is the compacted verision of my story. I have a healthy relationship 
with my husband of 12 years,
(he even acts jealous over me a little, again.. Thats a nice feeling..)I have three out of four of my kids with me. The oldest boy stayed in N.C. with his birth mother. He will be 20 in sept. And he has a beautiful daughter of his own..Jaden my grandaughter...me a nana at 33. OMG! She will be 1 in Oct. I miss her alot now that we have moved again. Well thats my story andi mstickin to it!...lol
