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     Well my surgery went fine, I am feeling great and I've already lost 19 lbs!  It isn't as hard as I thought it would be.  I am getting plenty of protein and drinking lemon flavored water like it is going out of style.  I do find that I tire out quite easily, but the doctor has assured me that it will get better every week.
     I went to get my staples out today and that didn't hurt at all.  I was really expecting it to so that was a nice surprise.  After we left the doctor's office my husband and I went to Walmart, this was the first time I had been out of the house since coming home from the hospital.  I was only in there for about a half hour and I was exhausted.  I felt like I had run a marathon.  I didn't run around the store, I just strolled and looked for the things that I needed.  By the time we got everything and went to the checkout I felt like I was going to drop.  I actually sat on the merry-go-round thing that they bag your items on.  A couple of people looked at me kind of strange, but you know sitting there was better than ending up on the floor.  I told my husband that I thought that maybe I shouldn't do this again for a couple of days.  He ended up doing the grocery shopping while I sat in the Jeep and rested.  You know there is one happy part of this story, he had to tote all the groceries in and put them away.  ; )
     Well, until next time Happy Losing!

     Well it is finally here.  I am to be at the hospital in the morning at 5:45 am.  I really can't say that I am nervous yet or maybe I just don't want to admit it to myself.  Either way I have come to far to even think about backing out now.  My husband and I took our "before" pictures tonight.  Well that was a shocker!  I didn't realise that I looked so huge.  That is what happens when you never let someone take a picture of you and you only look in the mirror from the neck up.  I think that picture scared me more than having the surgery.

     Well, I hope everyone will take a moment to say a prayer for me and Bill.  I will gladly take all that everyone has to offer.  Everyone take care and I will post again after I come home from the hospital.

God Bless, Boo

     Well, I finally did my last test.  Everything is done now and my surgery is two days away.  I haven't been nervous yet, but I'm sure that it will start to show when I walk in the hospital door.  This is such a big step in my life.  I have did my research, talked to many people, but I don't think you can really prepare yourself for the drastic turn this makes in your life.  I pray each day that God will help me and my husband through this.  (His wls is on February 19, 2008.)  I know what I am suppose to do I just pray that I can do it.

     I come here often and look at all the before and after pictures and think that I hope that I can do as well as all of those people on here.  In the before pics so many are smiling, but you can see the sadness in their eyes.  The eyes in the after pics all look so bright and happy.  I want to look that happy.  I hide the miserable way that I feel from the world.  No one really knows how bad I feel carrying all this extra weight around.  

     I hope everyone will pray for me and my husband.  This is the start of a  wonderful journey.  Until next time, God Bless.

     I will be forever thankful for Vonzie at Inova Fair Oaks Hospital.  She got me appointments with the cardiac and the pulmonary doctor super quick.  The test came back fine and I am cleared for surgery.  I only have one more test to do and that is the endoscopy.  Not one of my favorite things to do.  I have had them before and I came through okay, so I hope I will this time as well.  I go in the morning, January 14, 2008, have to be there at six am.  
     Everyone keeps asking me if I am scared or excited and to be honest I am really neither one.  I asked the cardiac doctor why I didn't have either of these feelings and he said that he feels it is because I researched everything so much before I finally decided to have the surgery.  He said that I will probably get a little nervous the day of my surgery.  Don't know if I will or not.
     You know the only thing that really bothers me is the fact that I might lose my hair.  I don't really care for the Yul Brenner look, especially on me!  But from what I have read and heard from others who have went through this is make sure I get enough protein.   They say I will lose some but that it doesn't last for long.  I hope not.  Us Leo's love our manes.
     Well, till next time.  Keep the faith...

     Well, they had to reschedule my surgery.  The hospital where I went to get my tests done here at home didn't have a Cardiac or a Pulmonary doctor look at my tests or me to get the clearances I needed so they had to postpone my surgery.  I was very upset. I was all ready to do this thing and then they hit me with that.  I could have cried, but I was too busy being mad and getting the doctor's visits that I needed to get back on track.  Time isn't plentiful, they rescheduled me for the 22nd of January.  
     I called my regular doctor and they helped me to push things through to get it done.  Don't know what I would have done without them.  You learn by experience so my husband is going to get all of his tests done at Inova Fair Oaks Hospital so we don't have the same problem with him.
     Well, it is getting late and work comes mighty early in the morning.  Good luck to everyone who is going through this, sometimes people make it really hard on you to get things done. 

Boo

They have told me that I have to have a sleep study done.  I hate having to go to the hospital and sleep with a mask on.  It will be really hard for me.  They said it is to test me for sleep apnea.  I am not looking forward to it.  For the next two Wednesdays I have to have tests at the hospital.  I wish I were already over with all of these tests, they are such a pain.  When they ask you why you are having them and you say gastric bypass surgery they look at you like you have two heads.  They don't really understand how it feels to have this much weight to carry around, how it affects your health and how you feel about yourself.  I went through my closet today and removed a lot of my clothes to give away.  It is funny, but when you are fat you buy what fits, not what you really like.  I kept a lot of my skinnier than I am now clothes that I liked.  I told my boss that I was going to be out of work for two weeks because of surgery.  He said that he hoped it wasn't anything serious.  I told him I was sorry that I wouldn't be at the store for the Christmas rush, but he said I had to do what I had to do.  I have to do this, I want to do this, I need to do this.  Everyone keeps asking me if I am scared and I tell them no, I have to admit I am excited about it.  I want to do everything the right way.  I need to love me again, I don't right now.  My health is bad because of my weight, I worry about that a lot.  Well, time to stop worrying and time to start doing something about it.  Till next time...

Today I went to see Dr. Anez to talk about my surgery.  I liked him as soon as he said hello.  He impresses me as a very thoughtful, intelligent man.  He has told me that I have to take a lot of tests before the surgery.  When I asked him why he said that his office was very successful for his patient's because he left nothing to chance and alway made sure that his patients were physically ready for surgery.  I have to admit that made me feel a lot better.  I didn't feel like I was on a assembly line like you do in some doctors offices.  My big day is on December 19, 2007!  I hate to admit it but I am very excited about it.  I guess a little scared too, but I guess that is to be expected.  I have read everything that I can get my hands on about bariatric surgery, combed the internet, listened to people who have had it done.  I think I know what I am in for, but then again you can never be sure.  Everyone who I have talked to that has had it have told me that they are very happy that they took this step to get their weight under control.  Not one of them regrets their decision.  I hope that I end up in that number.  I don't want to be stick thin, I just want to be able to have better health, be able to walk without gasping for breath, buy clothes like everyone else does.  I am so tired of shopping in the plus size stores.  I miss wearing jeans and t-shirts, riding the rides at the amusement parks.  Common everyday things that most people take for granted.  I just want to look normal, feel normal, not be so darn fat.  Well, I have to go to bed now.  I will probably write here everyday after the surgery.  Wish me luck.