chocstrwberry
October 2004-
I have trouble finding a job because people believe I am lazy just because I am over weight. I have asthma, an under active thyroid, bad knees, and a bad back. I can not even play with my 7 year old son, and I am only 27 years old. I have also developed a hiatus hernia in my stomach, which makes life awlful painful to eat anything, and makes me look pregnant.I am unable to find nice clothing, and when you ask for items in a larger size sales clerks walk away. I have bad self esteem because I believe everyone is looking at my weight, and do not have any friends out side of work or school. I can not even remember what it is like to just have fun, because of my weight.
August 17,2005
I have only 2 days until surgery. I am starting to get nervous. It's not a bad nervous. The only way to describe it is like when it is the day before your wedding. Your excited but you know the rest of your life will be different.
Since I have not updated my profile since I became a member I will do it now.
June 2 2005 I had my consult with the surgeons at the Wish Center, in Springboro Oh. They are really nice there. My insurance does not cover the surgery. I have bad credit and Id theft so a loan is out. My family helped me come up with all the money I needed to have the surgery. They are really great.
The put me on a presurgery diet to get use to eating 6 small meals a day and switch to the foods I will need to eat every day. Along with my vitamins.
July 2005 I have been scheduled for my surgery!!!
It is August 19th. On Friday I must start a liquid protein diet 2 weeks before surgery. It is going to be hard!!!!
August 5 2005- I have started my liquid protein diet. The protein Shake I bought from the Wish Center is gross!!! The choc. tastes like paper mache. The vanilla tastes like yellow cake batter.
August 8 2005- I am about to go crazy. I need to chew something!!!! I will email my dietian to find out if I can have gum.
**She said I could have sugar free popsicle!!!! She might have well said I could eat a big steak!!!!!
August 11 2005- I had my preop appointment today. I have lost 20 pounds since June 2. They all were so happy for me. You would think no one had lost before surgery before. They always make me feel as if I'm their only patient.
August 17- 2005- Okay now I am up to date. I have been on this stupid liquid diet for 2 weeks. I am starting to even crave ketsup, I am soo nervous. I will have to give myself heprin shots for 2 weeks. I am soooo scared of needles.
My computer at home is not working so I will not be able to update anyone until I return to work on September 6th.
Thank you everyone for the wonderful support I have been receiving. This is why I keep coming back.
Oct. 1 2005
Hello everyone, I'm sorry I am just now checking in.
My surgery went well. The 1st 2 days home was not good though all I did is throw up!! After I stopped taking my pain medicane and drinking my protein drinks it stopped.
It has just now taken me eating pureed food to start getting enough protein to start losing weight. The 1st 2 weeks I lost 22 pounds!!! Since I have been able to keep more protein down I have lost another 11. For A total since Aug. 19 of 33 pounds. I did loose 17 before surgery on the pratice diet, so I am down 50 pounds. I am counting it all!!! I feel so much better. My clothes do not fit any more, before I lost people would not speak to me at my son's soccer practice. Now they do!! I started out at 286, I am now 236! It feels soo good!! I am not loosing as fast as I have seen others, not being able to get but like 20 grams of protein for awhile with the sickness. But now it is starting to fall off quickly again since I am able to eat again.
Dec. 10-2005
Hello everything is alot better now. I am able to eat again. and I am down to 214!!!! I have not weighed 214 since I graduated high school in 1995!!! I cried, at work, when I weighed myself. I have been loosing my hair again. My surgeon says its the tranistion from the surgery. My body thinks something is wrong and is sending everything other places than my hair growth, and it will stop. My nutrionis says to try and eat more protein to help with it. I am only up to like 50-55. she has informed me to put cheese on everything, and add protein powder to everything. It seems to be working. I have started loosing again. Eggs still bother my stomach. But deviled eggs do not. With the holiday coming up quickly, for once I can not wait!!!
April 24, 2006
I have not updated in awhile, I have been very busy. As of April 17 I was now down to 193!!! 193 how great that sounds. In February I found out I was pregnant. I know it's early, supposed to wait 2 years by my dr. I was told I could not have any suprize!!!! My son is 8 1/2, It's like we're starting all over with everything. Everyone is so excited. Baby specialist says everything will be ok. They do not want me on a diet. Just like 7-9 small meals a day. Plus, my reg vitiamins plus 500 extra calcuim. So now I take, multi with iron, b-complex, 1500 calcuim.
It was really funny when I found out, I was really sick and dizzy. I really thought I had become anemic. surprize!
***May 18, 2006***
I am now 21 weeks pregnant. My weight is 194. I had gained 1/2 pound, then lost 4, now I'm back to equal out as having lost 1 1/2. I'm not supposed to be loosing, it's really hard. This is the first time in my life someone is telling me not to lose weight. Every thing is going well. My "all day" sickness has went away. My hair has even starting growing again. At Christmas, I looked as if I has lukenmia. They told me yesterday at my ultrasound I am having a girl, which is really exciting. My mothers children currently have all boys including myself. Also, the baby weighs 14 oz, which they said is right on track. Everything seems to going fine. Later!
***August 3, 2006***
I am now at 32 weeks pregnant. It has been awhile since I updated, been very busy at work. My weight is now at 197.5, my OB doctor wanted me to have gained 10 pounds by now but it didn't happen. Baby is really healthy, very, very active. If I had not have had 3 ultrasounds I would swear I was having twins. Overall everything is going well. In the past 2 weeks I have just started to show. No one could believe that I was almost 8 months pregnant. I am still not allowed to do much physically, just taking it easy, trying to eat my 7-9 times a day. I feel like all I do is take vitamins and eat. The girls at work even make fun that every time they look over I'm eating something. I am starting to get very excited. I really thought I would never get another one, a specialist had said I was infertile years ago. This surgery was the best thing I ever did!!!!!
****September 21, 2006****
Well, it has been awhile since I have updated. Work has been very busy. I am now 39 weeks pregnant. Everything is going good. I had a another ultrasound on the 1st, to make sure everything was still good. The nurse said everything is good and the baby already weighed about 6lbs 6oz!! That was at about 36 weeks. I was afraid that she would be small. I had a doctors appointment yesterday, she said I am ready to go anyday. I am so excited!! I never thought I would be able to have another one of my own again, and now any day I will be holding my beutiful baby girl!! This pregnancy has went by so quickly. I now weigh 199, I only gained 7 pounds. I can tell if I had not been pregnant I would have lost alot more weight this past year. I have so much "saggy" sking being 9 months pregnant. I'm scared to see what it will look like once she is not there to stretch some of it out. August 19th was my 1 year surgery aniversery. It doesnt seem like a year should have passed so quickly as well. Lord knows I'm still paying on it like it was last month. But I do not regret it, without the surgery I would not be getting a little bundle of joy.
****November 20th, 2006****
I had my baby on September 28, 2006. It was a girl!!!! She was 7 lbs 12.5 oz!!!!! Very healthy. I tried to breastfeed, didn't work out too well. Because of the surgery, I don't produce enough milk. I tried up until just 2 days ago, she now screams when I try because she can not even get the few oz she got before. I am completely dry now. Before I still even had to give her formula as well. But at least I could for about 7 weeks.
I am now done to 174 pounds!!! I have lost 112 pounds since my start!!! I am now in the 100 club. It was 1 year August 19. I feel so much better, and a lot healthier. My hair is not falling out, and I now have bones I didn't know were there before. My BMI in the beginning was 50.6, it's now 30.2!!!! Still overweight, but not super obese. I don't even have to use my cpap machine any more. I have went from a size 28 tops to a 16/18, and pants from a 24 to a 14. I feel like I can have a life now. I am not ashamed to been seen at my son's school, I even volunteer sometimes now. Most people do not reconize me anymore. It makes me feel great. Guys have even been winking at me and flirting when my mom and I go out to dinner, and me even with a newborn baby!!-LOL!!
*****May 4, 2007*****
I has been awhile since I have checked in. I am doing great. My baby girl is now 7 months old and has had no problems. She is learning to crawl and just got her 1st tooth. Me having her so soon after the surgery did not affect anything about her. I was not able to breastfeed long though, only about 1 month. Then I still had to supplement. I have not lost anymore weight, but I am down to a size 12. Hard to believe 2 years ago I was wearing a size 28 shirt, and 26 pants. I feel so good I don't regret having the surgery at all. Of coarse I am still paying for it, but it was worth it just to have my baby girl.