CindyK40

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My bariatric nurse called yesterday and my surgery is booked for January 23, 2013 at St. Joseph's in Hamilton.  I can't believe it and it doesn't feel real yet.  I have to start my liquid diet on January 7 and am grateful that I don't have to do it thru the holidays.  I am terrified of complications and of dying from this surgery .... and I also terrified that I will fail at this weight loss journey 

I'm back at the gym and trying to stay positive and am hopeful that working out will not hurt as much when I weigh less!  I still can't bring myself to blog my weight .... I am embarassed by it!! 

I recently came back from a trip to NY City and had a fabulous time!  With all the walking, eating and drinking .... I only gained a half a pound (whew!) - but I definitely want to go back to that amazing city when I'm healthier and skinnier .... clothes shopping will probably be much more fun!!!

Mostly I am looking forward to being a more active person for myself and kids - I used to be athletic but my kids have never known that person ... I am ashamed that I don't even look like I was once an athlete!!  Weird tho .... I don't realize how big I LOOK until I see PICTURES of myself ..... I hope that's not a sign of some distorted body image??  That being said, it reminds me to continue taking pictures .... they will be a visual reminder of where I've been and where I'm going .... and where I NEVER want to be again.  I don't want activities to hurt or injure me ... I don't need to run a marathon .... I just want to be healthy and comfortable and fit in nice clothes and look nice and .... the list goes on and on!!

Thanks to all my family and friends for their support and for loving me no matter what size I am!  I am looking forward to walking around in my bathing suit this summer (like I do every summer lol!) .... but just a little bit smaller ....  :)

 

September 24th, 2012

On Thursday, September 20th, 2012,  I finally got the call to attend the teleconference with the surgeon (consent) and the pre-surgical class.  I was so happy to get the news that I cried on and off all afternoon!!  lol!  I go to NY for my best friends 40th birthday at the end of November ... and sounds like my surgery date will be mid December .... so I just may be on the pre-op liquid diet while in NY. Oh well....

I can not wait for this next chapter in my life ... I just want to be a better version of me ... thinner, healthier and more active.  I want to be a better example to my children, so that they lead healthy active lifestyles. 

I have spoken with so many women who have had this surgery and they are all soooo excited for me.  Also, my closest friends and my mom and my kids are so happy for me too.  I appreciate all the support and love ... I am truly thankful for the amazing people in my life.

Staying positive and present....

Well - still waiting for a date.  I will hopefully have the surgery by the end of May so I have the summer to recover and exercise outside.  I am having a lot of knee pain and it's made it difficult to exercise .... so now I have gained some weight and I am not toned.  I really wanted to be in my best shape for surgery ....    I am so tired of being in pain and having no energy. 

I am nervous for the surgery - my biggest fear is DYING and my other fear is being a failure (not losing all the weight or regaining the weight).   I am hopeful that I will be a success story and be one of those people saying "It's the best thing that I have ever done for myself!!" 

Until next time ....

Been fighting my weight since I was 12 years old and will be 40 in a couple of weeks!  My weight has been stable for the last four years and CAN'T get any off!!  I'm just starting the process and am looking for any words of wisdom regarding the gastric bypass surgery - good or bad.  Anyone regret having the surgery? 

For the most part I'm healthy and work out.  I love red wine and am concerned that after surgery I will not be able to enjoy it - especially with my friends.  I so want to be a healthier me and don't want to get any bigger.  As it is I could play on a defensive line of an NFL team!!