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Up until now, when asked if I have ever regretted having the surgery, I have always answered No & that I would do it all over if I had to. Well my friends, that is no longer my feelings towards the surgery. I don't want to discourage anyone from making a decision that is right for them but if I had to go through it again... I wouldn't! I am 3 years & 4 months post op.. I have to pack a insulin injection with me at all times because my sugar levels are dangerously low. Not just a passing out low, but coma/death low! I was told I was lucky I wasn't dead from it already. Those are always nice words to hear. So in order to keep my levels up, I HAVE to eat.. in doing so, I have regained about 35-40 pounds. I have to take B-12 shots (which is common with the surgery) also Vit d & biotin.My hair has fallen out & in all honest, I am just miserable. I had more energy when I was at 300 pounds than I do now. I use to have high blood pressure & now I am on medication to make sure my levels don't go to low while I sleep. My muscle mass in my legs is gone! I have knots & no muscle and it hurts to walk. With all this going on, its just so depressing! The Endocrinologist said I need a revision of the surgery, I just dont know if thats a possibilty or not. I honestly don't know what to do at this point. I guess pray is all I can do.I wish the rest of you the best of luck though.

is my 36th birthday & I am spending it home sick as h***.. I started out babysitting but had to sned my niece to her other Aunt. lovely way to spend the day eh?

Since I have bothered to even get on OH. Things havent really been going as good as I would like. My weight loss is at a standstill although my doctor told me last week that I am no longer considered obese. I am having problems with my sugar.Its staying too low. It got to 50 this morning and I wasn't feeling too great at all! Also back in June, being the clutz that I am, I broke my tailbone and I can't seem to get it healed. I keep re-injuring it. On a plus note( to some anyways) tmw is my 36th birthday.My kids started back to school today and I am so lost without them home... but I am babysitting today. A precious lil 2 month old who is napping at the moment but with that being said, I am gonna get off here and check on her. later ppl!

Ok so I have gone from 296 lbs down to 170ish.. and lately I have been hearing more & more negative comments...my "friends" are telling me that Im starting to look bad, Im losing too much weight in my face.. things like that. I personally don't think I am... but when people are constantly saying things as such its starts to make one feel bad. I still haven't got to the weight I want or that I am happy with so I just wish people would let me do this for myself and be happy with doing so. Does anyone else have a problem with people saying or doing things to bring them down like this?

OMG.. I had a bigbreak through on saturday! I went shopping and with me its something that I always dread.. so there I was looking at the sizes Im use to buying and none of them fit!!! I get a size 10 and try them on... They fight but guess what! they were loose!! I could have got the 8's  but they didnt have them in the style I wanted. The last jeane I went & got myself before the surgery was as size 28!!! I may still be in the double digits but at least this time Im happy with the ones Im in. Just wanted to update everyone on my accompolishment!!! Im so excited!

So Im at a point where I feel like I have let myself down.People tell me that is a normal feeling but Im not so sure of that. I have struggled so hard and it seems my weight loss has been so slow.I know I can't expect miracles over night.I get on here and I see people who lose a 100 lbs in just a matter of weeks or months. I am now nearing my 17 month post op and feel like I should have lost more than I have.  I get told I have lost more inches than pounds. I know where I am now is better than where I was a cpl years ago.I just feel I should have done better than I have. I also have a question for anyone who is willing to try to give me some sort of answer... How do I go about getting the preps done for a tummy tuck? I know I personally want to lose more weight than where I am currently at but my doctor doesnt want me to lose much more if any. Just msg me and let me know if you have any ideas or advice. Thanx

I have been having a lot of abdominal pain to the point I was admitted in the hospital for a lil over two days.My family doctor was basically clueless as to why I am staying in pain and suggested that I see  a surgeon but didnt give any details as to why...  I know very odd.So I declined and told him I would go see my baratic physician the following wednesday...I went.. He checked me out... Now I have to have a EDG to see if I have a blockage or even a ulcer in my pouch. The surgery itself isnt whats bothering me. I have had this done before.My worry is whats going on within my inside, the things I cant see. My daughter is going through these test to be checked for Chrons disease along with colitsis (sp?) . I was also told I needed to have a colonostomy (prolly spelled that wrong too) but they didnt schedule me for that. I just ask for your thoughts & prayers that everything goes well on Thursday... That the results are nothing major and can be helped with some simple meds.I know I dont get on here as often as I should.. My weight loss has actually picked up some.. for the longest time I didnt lose any.. now I have gone from 296 lbs down to 174 and I HOPE to lose maybe  40-50 more pounds but if I dont then I will still be happy with what I have lost.  Okay I think thats all for now, Will post more when I know more about whats going on. Luvz & hugz to you all.
 
-Clara

I got a call yesterday from my gyno about the test that I had done last week. It was good news but then there was some bad news.. The good is that as of right now Im not gonna have to have the hysterectomy. He will be starting me on BC pills to try and fix that issue but the bad news was that the extreme pain Im having is from having kidney stones and now Im waiting for the call back with the appt to go see a urologist in Ashland.I ended up at the ER last night from the pain. They gave me two different shots that didnt really help at all... Tramadol & Demerol...So now Im sitting here still in pain & just waiting on the call to see what I need to do next.

Today I wasn't feeling too great & was in a lot of pain.. My husband  kept talking till I gave in and went to the doctor (my family doc).. Since I have very abnormal menstral periods I just thought this was one more to add to the calander... 18 since Nov.. not a happy camper! But the pain I was having is apparently some cyst trying to rupture. i went thrrough this before and now hes suggesting that I have a complete Hysterectomy . Im really at the point  to where If i dont need it to breath, TAKE IT OUT!!!! I go either tmw or fri for a pelvic ultrasound & CT, then follow up with my gyno/surgeon on Monday. Bless my poor hubbys heart today was his birthday and he spent it with me at the dr.I love him more than he could possibly know.He has been my strength when I thought I had none left. My weight today was 188 lbs... when I first started this whole procedure i was at 296lbs. Even tho it has been slow and im 13 months post op, thats still a lot of weight gone and I honestly dont miss it. My baratic dr that Im seeing now wants me at 180 lbs, I would be happier with somewhere around 150 but I think Im just gonna take it one day at a time and see how it works out then go from there. Any advice or comments on any of the topics I have mentioned here would be greatly appreciated... no matter how random. Good night all & God bless.

Well today is my one year post op anniversary... the weight loss has been slow. But in the same sense the past year has been very rocky and I hadn't been able to exercise the way I should have due to other health issues. The good thing is I AM in ONEder land now. It has been such a long time since I have seen any numbers that didn't go over 2oo lbs. So that's a plus side to it all.
 So lets see what was I like one year ago... I hated myself and the person I had become. I was miserable, Couldn't get out and enjoy life with my kids. Lets not even mention even attempting to put on a bathing suit to go swimming. I was so self conscious of who I was & to be honest ...embarrassed as well. I couldn't believe I had let myself get to the weight I was at. Due to health issues I HAD to get rid of the weight.. I  didn't have any other choice so I did the research and decided to go through with the RNY ... I think it has been one of the best decisions I have ever made. It gave me a new beginning on a old life and I am very thankful for that. These days I can run around & play with my kids, ride a bike, hey this chic can even do handstands and cartwheels again! YAY ME!!!!!!!!!! So instead of saying I'm one year older, I am now one year NEWER! I love life now and everything it has to offer. Much love to you all!

Clara