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Back to reeaalliittyyy!
Feb 08, 2009
I am feeling pretty good. I have had a couple of 'bouts with dizziness... But, I really can not complain. I commented maybe a week ago, How I was not ready to hear compliments... I guess I have to get use to it. People left and right are complimenting me.. And, I feel great about it..But, I am still not at that believable stage yet. I know, Its me... When you weigh over 200/300 pounds most of your adult life, and were a puggy little kid... Your self esteem kinda lacks! I am having a hard time BELIEVING people when they say "Oh! WOW, You look GREAT!" Funny story, I was at Walgreens the other night, picking up a prescription for my husband, He fell on the ice snow blowing and broke 3 ribs!! But, thats not the funny part... So, I was looking quickly through the Valentines card section. I saw a Parent I know, I had his son. So he walks up to me and says.. "Hey, I didn't recognize you! How are you?" Now, I probably saw him 2-3 months ago the latest. And, I said, "I am good"... So you know we were shooting the shit back and forth and he keeps saying "Wow, You really look good, Like, You have lost a ton of weight, Enough that I NEEDED to comment!" And, I was like "Oh yeah, Thanks I feel good"... So then he says, "Well, Before I forget why I am here, I should probably get going." So we said our good byes and went our seperate ways. Now, to the somewhat funny part. I leave Walgreen and I am in my car. I text my friend/coworker.... Did %^& %$@@ know that I had GASTRIC BYPASS. And, She replies... No, Not that I am aware of why?... So I proceeded to tell her the whole story and she says, " Well its because... You look FABULOUS!!"... But, Do you see where coming from an overweight person most of their life.. Its not believable... I know I have to work on it! I am trying!!!
So, Yeah... after telling that story I am smiling again, until I think of work.... Uugghh! On another positive note... My mothers friend came over today and again... "You look WOONNDEERRFFULLLL" So, Now I just smile and say "THANKS" and we were talking and she was saying how I must have gone down so many clothes sizes. I told her, "No, Just one so far... I went from a 24...to a 22." Which I am PHYSCHED! And, She was like, " A 24 thats what I am now..." I kid you not.. I went to my friggin closet and took ALLLLL my 24 pants... and all my shirts And, Filled a trash bag for her!!! Good- Bye 24!!! LOL
Well, Its off to more laundry, valentines crafts and getting ready for the week. Shane is about ready to get up from his nap.
Take Care Everyone!
The last 2 weeks of my journey
Feb 04, 2009
I will say although some of it has been tough.. Its all been worth it! And, I would not change my decision in the least!
I had my first WOW moment today...Yesterday I wore a pair of jeans to the Drs. They were a size 24. I stopped by work afterwards to say Hi to everyone and someone made a comment... "Charlotte, I think its time to retire those jeans!" Hell, I am ready to burn them! LOL So today, I went through the closet and new I had a couple pairs of 22s.. Well... To my disbelief... THEY FIT!!! The compliments have started.. Which I appreciate, But for myself... Today.. Was the 1st day, I can say I have felt GREAT!!!!! If you would like to read more... Here have been some post that I have made over the last 2 weeks. http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/amos/3843813/I-am-home/ http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/amos/3844419/How-much-is-too-much/ http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/01-2009/3846701/Discouraged/ http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/amos/3853068/Cant-help-but-feel-Discouraged/ http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/amos/3853660/I-am-over-it/
I am home.... YAY!!!
Jan 23, 2009
Thanks for everyones thoughts and prayers!!!!!
Kisses and Hugs,
Charlotte
Here goes nothing...
Jan 04, 2009
So tomorrow I start my liquid diet. Do I admit I am nervous.?.?.?.... OK, I said it out loud... "I AM NERVOUS"! Aarrggghhh... Am I going to be able to handle this.?.?.? I guess if I have worked this hard.. Why give up now, Right? I am going to make a vow now, this is going to be my stress reliever.. blogging about my experiences. I have made "friends" with people on this site and at support groups and they have been a phenomenal support system. I thank you all... If I can be of support to anyone... please please do not hesitate to contact me.
I can not believe my time is coming... 2 weeks away!!! MY GOSH!!!
The past couple of days, I have had this ridiculous amount of energy
... getting ready for surgery. I have managed to..1. paint my bathroom.
2. re arrange my living room
3. reorganize my kitchen (food) cabinets
4. reorganize my cabinets with all my dishes in them
5. Get rid of any lingering laundry in the basement
6. Go out and buy 3 pairs of new pajamas and slippers
7. Go out and buy a timer, thanks to someones suggestion and 3 oz disposable cups.
8. Went out and bought Birthday, baby and anniversary cards for all those people who will celebrate while I am recovering.
9. And even went out and bought my sons Valentines and Valentines candy for school!!!
As if that is not enough, there are other things too.
Ok, Well... Here goes nothing!!
APPROVED.... Can NOT believe it!!!!!
Dec 16, 2008
Now, for the people that do not know me or my story. My name is Charlotte and I am currently looking into having WLS with Dr Ameri out of Winchester Hospital. This man is a SAINT.... In every sense of the word!
I have been going through all the protocol and requirements that I need to do in order for my insurance company to cover this surgery... Last week on Tuesday I got a letter in the mail stating that I was DENIED. I was so upset. The news came on the night of Dr. Ameris monthly support group, which I need to attend. I had so many emotions going through my head and the last thing I wanted to do was go and sit and listen to everyones positive stories. I went anyway and talked with some of the office staff and asked what my options were now.... They informed me that I needed to appeal. I was totally discouraged. I came on the site.... and wrote a message on how I was so sad and angry and discouraged. I wrote how I felt like giving up, not that that was something I really wanted to do, it was just out of frustration.
I got alot of well wishes and alot of people telling me never to give up. And I thank all of those people.
The reason for my post today is... I got a phone call for Dr. Ameris office. This is how it happened.....
Hi Charlotte, This is Louise for Dr. Ameris office.... Merry Christmas.
I said, Hi Lousie How are you? Merry Christmas to you too.
LOOOOOOOONNNGGGG PAAAAUUUUSSEEE
So the reason for my call is.............. Dr. Ameri got you appoved.
My reaction.... WHAT!!!!, ARE YOU KIDDING ME!
Well, Thats why I said Merry Christmas. Do you need to take a min and call me back.
My response was YES!
I can not believe this. I can not contain the excitement. The scary part... the surgery is JANUARY 19TH! Oh my goodness.
Like I said before, I want to thank everyone for their kind words of encouragement. You all are what have helped me get through this past week.
Happy Holidays... Charlotte : )
HAPPY HALLOWEEN PART 2
Oct 31, 2008
So now I am off to get Shane aka Jack Sparrow ready for Trick or Treating!!
Have a good night everyone!!!
Happy Halloween...
Oct 30, 2008
Good Morning Everyone,
So I just got in from my sleep study, Boy am I tired! Everything went well. I was trying to figure out yesterday what it was going to be like and it was a piece of cake (No Pun Intended).
I got to the Sleep Lab around 8ish. I was taken into a room where they needed to take my picture.. CHEESE!! Then I was taken into this bedroom/suite. Everyone told me it looked like a hotel room. I will admit It did look like somewhat of a hotel room but there were definitely hospital room qualities... I had a private bathroom... bigger than my one at home... queen size bed.. plasma tv on the wall etc. Although it had all these nice t hings to make you feel comfortable it had IV poles, machines next your your bed and head.
9:00 Shortly after filling out my paper work, Nicole the technologist came in and briefly explained what was going to happen. She was going to apply monitors to my body. These then would report back to the doctor on any sleep dis-functions, eye movements, teeth grinding, restless leg syndrome, dreams, how many times I woke and how long I slept. Funny that I never realized how all these things had to do with our weight!
9:45 I got comfortable and Nicole came in and started to hook me up. I commented to her after that I looked like I had a bomb around my body and any wrong move I would blow up! She was a real trooper she was very nice... Thanks Nicole.
10:30 A little after I was hooked up, I got into bed. She explained that I did not need to go to sleep but wanted to make sure everything was working properly. She talked to me through a wall mounted speaker phone and watched me through a camera on the ceiling. She then asked me to wiggle my toes, move my eyes, close my eyes, stare at the wall, take a couple of deep breaths in and out and also to hold my breath as well. I was then allowed to get comfortable. The Eleventh Hour.. new show on CBS was almost over and I informed Nicole that I was feeling a little sleepy, I was going to watch the first maybe 5 mins of the 11 o'clock news and then go to sleep. And, that's exactly what I did.
My sleep was OK throughout the night, I found myself wanting to sleep on my stomach like usual but it was hard when I had these things hanging out of my body. I slightly remember waking up around 5ish only to fall back to sleep until 6 when Nicole came in to wake me.
Nicole said things went well, I should be getting my report within a couple of weeks.
All that worrying over nothing! Everything was fine. Now I will be off to get ready for work and my Cardiac appointment this afternoon. Busy.. busy... busy.
Happy Halloween Everyone.
Have a GREAT day!
Sleep Study..
Oct 30, 2008
This is so weird, I have heard all different things about whats going to happen. The most creeped out thing is someone watching me sleep. Do you honestly think I will be able to have a "good" night sleep first connected to all types of machines never mind second with someone "observing" me?
Have a good night everyone. I will let you all know how it goes!!!
Wish me luck!
