conconwill
Losing It !!
Feb 07, 2008
Yep, I'm losing it -- and quickly!! When I had my surgery on 12/3/07, I weighed 260. As of yesterday, I weigh 200. With a goal of 140, I reached the halfway mark on the scale. This is happening way faster than I expected, thanks in part to my inability to find any food appetizing after the first few bites.
For the past two months I have been tired, nauseous, irritable, frustrated, impatient -- I've really struggled to find the positive. Many days I have felt like I was "losing it".
Yesterday, though, something really cool happened. After I stepped on that scale and realized where I was at, I began to feel those pre-op feelings of excitement return I saw a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel. For the first time since the surgery, I told myself, "I can do this!" and meant it.
I decided to do something for me. I headed out shopping. I picked out a few things to try on. When I put on those new clothes and looked in the mirror I was shocked. I'd been wearing my clothes from 60 pounds ago, so still felt like the old me. That reflection in the mirror showed the beginning of the new me, and I liked it.
If anyone reads this who's still hiding in oversized clothes, I urge you to do what I did. It doesn't have to cost a lot -- I shopped the Kohl's clearance racks. I can tell you this, I'll never forget how great I felt in that dressing room -- I think it is the first time I've ever been excited about looking in the mirror before.
