consey123
well my journey has begun i am currently doing my research on the lap-band surgery. i am getting ready to do my sleep study test in january 2007 to see if i have sleep apnea. i have already visited one of the two surgeons that i am interested in doing my surgery. i will not know what is going on yet until i hear from the second physician. but the ball is most definitely rolling.
11/23/2008
It is almost surgery time and i am so excited. This has been a long time coming. I truly had to make my mind up whether, family,friends or anyone was there to support me. I had one constant friend during this process and that has been my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. He has directed my path. I am so grateful to him. For years i have cried out to him for a way out. He saw my brokeness and how i was abusing myself with food. The word of God says "Faith without works is dead". i would talk about doing something but not actually moving out in it. But i did it, i stepped out and started doing my research. Then i shared it with a couple people and they told me you do not need to do that. You can loose the weight all by yourself. I have tried so many times, through weight watchers, south beach, y's way to weight management, L A weight loss. i have tried them all. but i would loose and put back on. In 2006 i was thinking about the Lap band back then. But i made a deal with myself to give myself 2 years to eat right and exercise before i would allow myself to have the Lap band. Well as i entered 2008. i was still excercising, still trying to learn how to eat right. I was not thinking about the Lap Band, then i started seeing the commercial all over the place with the Lion and the cat. Which was the Lap band commercial. i would laugh when i saw the commercial and put it off(talk about the hand writing on the wall hahahahahahaha) But then i started asking God was this his plan for me.
Well in April of 2008, i was at Strong Memorial Hospital with my mom and she was getting a defribrillator put in and i was in the waiting room with my sisters. Well the waiting room tv was on CNN. They were doing this story on this woman because of her heart issues she could not have the gastric bypass but she had the lap band done and she lost 134 pounds. When i saw that i knew what i needed to do, so i called Highland Hospital in Rochester to start the process. I tell you now it has truly been a journey and on my part it was a sacrifice because all of my appointments were about an hour and a half away. But i was willing to do it because i knew it was part of the plan.
When i first started the Food Journal i got kind of discouraged because i did not realize all of the bad stuff i was eating and the nutritionist truly Lit into me. But the question i had to ask myself is how bad do you really want it. I also let my kids be part of it with me. I took them with me for the trip and they really liked it. I realize the choice that i made does not just effect me but it effects my children as well. I want to be around to see my children get grown and go to college and get married and have there own families. I want to be around to experience my grandbabies. But there is one thing i know with full confidence that this is part of God's plan for my life. One last note i want to share with you, even if you have not listened to anything that i said earlier."DO NOT SHARE YOUR DREAMS WITH EVERYBODY" people will try to discourage you.
