CourtneyGlynne

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Well, I had a bad night last night.  I know I'm just getting started, but I was reading last night in the insurance forum on BCBS of AL...and I got really discouraged.  EXTREMELY DISCOURAGED.  Some of the people they wouldn't approve...I know they won't approve me.  But, I'm confident that in some way, whether it be persistence or whether it be by need, I'll get approval.  It might take longer than I want, but I'll get there.  And who doesn't want to get the surgery over ASAP?  I'm not the only one, I'm sure.  I'm ready to start my life...I'm reading to start living...not start fighting with a damn insurance company.  It was just a bad night.  I laid in bed crying my eyes out because I'm just ready.  I'm tired of the way I feel and look hovering over my everyday life like a cloud of doom.  I'm just tired.

Wow.  It was hard to actually admit that I'm at this point.  I guess it's hard to recognize and admit any flaw, isn't it?  Well, I'm here.  My mother had gastric bypass three years ago, just about.  I've seen her process and what she has gone through and I understand all that comes along with it, except of course, actually going through it.  I'm ready for this.  I'm ready to get started.  I'm ready to find my way.  I'm ready to change and grow and become a completely new person.  Health Wise, mentally, and emotionally.  I guess that covers just about every sense of over-all health.  My mom is going to help me get this process started.  I've talked with her about considering the surgery but I haven't yet let her know that it's something that I really want to do.  I don't even know where to stay, but thankfully she does.  I'd like this to be something that I did on my own, but I know that for this, I'll need someone more than ever.  But, that is all...