cpatters
2007's resolutions
Dec 27, 2006
Every year sense I was about 10 years old, I have made new years resolutions to loose weight and get healthy. Nearly every year have failed at it. The New Year starts with much drama, buying out every new fad of a diet plan and spending tons of money on them and the food that goes along with them then about 2 months into it it fades away leaving me hungry, and feeling like a big failure. This year is different. My New Years is going to start out with a New me! My resolution is going to be to stay healthy not get healthy. I want to focus on my faith in God, my family, and my friends.
What a year 2006 has been. I have lost close to 85lbs and have gone from a size 22-24 to a size 10-12. I feel so much better, like a new person. I still have issues with self image. I guess I will need to work on that in 2007. I have always had self image issues and WLS will not fix the brain, that part is up to me.
With my 1 year surgiverary comming up soon, I wonder what 2007 will hold for me. What ever will come, I will greet it with much more enthusiasum and energy than ever before.
What a year 2006 has been. I have lost close to 85lbs and have gone from a size 22-24 to a size 10-12. I feel so much better, like a new person. I still have issues with self image. I guess I will need to work on that in 2007. I have always had self image issues and WLS will not fix the brain, that part is up to me.
With my 1 year surgiverary comming up soon, I wonder what 2007 will hold for me. What ever will come, I will greet it with much more enthusiasum and energy than ever before.
The Christmas stress!
Dec 11, 2006
Every year, and I mean EVERY year, I do the same thing. I wait until the last minute to do my Christmas shopping. I vow every year NOT to wait. But it seems every year it is the same story... I dont have the money, or the time. And so I wait until I do which is usually a couple of weeks (or days!) before December 24. Now, as an compulsive overeater, one of the many reasons I eat is because of stress. SO, the question is, what do I do with my stress NOW in the middle of the Christmas Rush? I find myself grazing. I try to graze on healthy options like nuts, fruit, protein bars and cheese, but with all the temptations lurking everywhere, I seem to be making some NOT SO HEALTHY choices.
One thing that I have noticed as a benifit of this new lifestyle is that my skin is so much clearer. Prior to surgery, I had constant breakout on my face. I looked like a 40 year old teenager. Now that my sugar and grease intake is at a minimun, I have very few breakouts. I really did not even think about it until..... I started eating sugary and greasy foods again. You see, in the past 2 weeks I have been nibbling (due to the holiday stress) on yummy homemade candy, cakes and other Christmas goodies . I have also been eating potato chips, french fries and other stress busters. The most amazing thing has happened...
My face looks like a BEFORE picture in an add for "ZIT-AWAY"!!!
So, I have decided that I need to find another stress buster. I really liked having clear skin. NO more Yummies for me. How will I cope??????? Is it too late to get an order into SANTA?
One thing that I have noticed as a benifit of this new lifestyle is that my skin is so much clearer. Prior to surgery, I had constant breakout on my face. I looked like a 40 year old teenager. Now that my sugar and grease intake is at a minimun, I have very few breakouts. I really did not even think about it until..... I started eating sugary and greasy foods again. You see, in the past 2 weeks I have been nibbling (due to the holiday stress) on yummy homemade candy, cakes and other Christmas goodies . I have also been eating potato chips, french fries and other stress busters. The most amazing thing has happened...
My face looks like a BEFORE picture in an add for "ZIT-AWAY"!!!
So, I have decided that I need to find another stress buster. I really liked having clear skin. NO more Yummies for me. How will I cope??????? Is it too late to get an order into SANTA?
Nov 25 2006
Nov 28, 2006
It has been 10 months sense I had my WLS. I can not begin to tell you how good it feels to have lost 78 pounds and feel like a new person. I still have problems seeing it with my eyes, but, my clothes do not lie. I can fit into a size 12. When I look at the pictures from the night before my surgery, I can still feel the pain, the sadness and the shame. I still have about 20 more pounds to loose until I reach my goal. I just wish that the last 20 could come off as quickly and easily as the first 20 did...
Nov 5 2006
Nov 28, 2006
This is the time of year that I find myself eating much more than necessary. Halloween candy from my kids laying around the house, Thanksgiving recipes going over in my mind. I am thinking of food, eating food and making myself miserable. I am eating things that are crazy. Candy, cake, and potatoes chips!!!! I have come too far to start this crap. I am totally fed up with myself. I find myself feeling a bit down, depressed. I should be feeling great. I am now at 167 pounds. I am down from a size 26 to a size 12! I just can’t see it. I still see myself as a 245 pounder. I can’t stand to look in the mirror, and I can’t let anyone take pictures of me. I hate seeing myself. I need to stop this craziness, and kick myself in the butt. No more junk food!!!!! I need to get a better attitude!!!!!! And take life by the horns and have fun with the new me!!!!!!!!
Sept 21
Nov 28, 2006
I know that I am being silly, but I feel like I am in a rut. I am gaining and loosing the same 3-4 pounds. I need to get off of my lazy but and exercise more. I have started to exercise a little, I just need to do it more often. I also need to up my protein. I have been not getting in enough. I have almost quit drinking my protein drinks. I do eat 1 protein bar a day, but that is not enough. I do not eat enough protein in my food. I barely eat meat at all. I live off of peanuts, sunflower seeds and hot tea. You would think that with a diet like that I would continue to loose. I must be eating a wee bit more of the naughty bites than I think. For instance, I will eat a few crackers here and there, I will eat a bite or two of pizza or other yummy treats. I plain and simply need to #1- up my water intake
#2- up my protein intake
#3- up my exercise program
#4- cut out the naughty snacks.
I can and will do this... starting RIGHT NOW!!
Sept 16 2006
Nov 28, 2006
I wish I could learn to slow down when I eat, and to chew up my food a little better. Last night I ate some crackers. I only ate about 4 of them, but I must have eaten them really fast or did not chew them up well enough because, I was in such terrible pain with the foamies and sweats. I laid on the bathroom floor near the toilet waiting for the foamies and pain to stop. I tried to drink some water to move the crackers down a little and it hurt worse. I chew up some papaya enzyme tablets and that seemed to help. When will I learn???? I have to figure out a way to MAKE myself remember that I am not the same on the inside as I used to be. I had this surgery almost 8 months ago and I am forgetting already. Does this mean that I am going to be fat and unhealthy again someday? Does this mean that I am going to be a failure? Some people regain most or all of their weight back over time. Will I? NO!!! I am going to win. I am going to beat this. I CAN do this.
Sept 11 2006
Nov 28, 2006
I went shopping to day to look for some fall clothes. I am still wearing a size 16 jeans. I decided to try on a size 14 just to see how far I would have to loose to fit into them. Guess what??? They fit perfectly! I couldn’t believe it. As I stood looking into the mirror, I kept thinking that I was looking at someone else. It didn’t even look like me. It was so surreal. I have lost a total of 72 pounds so far. I feel so much better. I just need to learn to eat the right things. I ate a cup of cream of tomato soup for lunch the other day and had the most horrible shakes and heart palpitations. My body had the sweats, my heart was racing, my hands were shaking and I felt like I was going to pass out and throw up too. I need to learn to read labels before I eat something. There is hidden sugar in a lot of foods. The tomato soup had 26 grams of sugar in one serving. I had about 2/3's of the serving which is about 20 grams of sugar!!!!!! No wonder I felt so badly.
July 25 2006
Nov 28, 2006
It has been 6 months now. I feel so much better. My bones and joints are not screaming at me any longer. I can fit into regular size clothes. My 16's are now getting loose. I would love to be into a size 14 by the end of this summer. I know that sooner or later, I will be into a smaller size. What I need to do now is to EXERCISE!!! I know that after about 6 months, I will start to level off on my weight loss. I have now lost a total of 62 pounds. I am so amazed at that number. That is 10 pounds a month!!!!! Unbelievable!!!! I now have people asking me if I would do it again, YES! Are you kidding, of course I would do it again. I thank God everyday for giving me a second chance at a normal life.
June 7 2006
Nov 28, 2006
I have lost 50 pounds so far. I feel like my body is playing tricks on me. Some days I can put on one of my old size 20's and it will fit fine. Then when I go shopping for new clothes, I am buying a size 16?? Anyway, I am so excited about wearing a 16. People are telling me all the time how good I am looking. But still, I have trouble seeing it myself.
I am having trouble with anemia. I feel tired and dizzy. I black out a lot and a few times I nearly passed out. I have a physical job that requires me to climb ladders, stairs and work around high speed equipment so I need to be extra careful. I have to go to my pcp and get my blood drawn every 2 weeks to see if I can get my blood count up on its own.
May 1, 2006
Nov 28, 2006
So far I have lost 40 pounds. I only have 4 more pounds to go before I am under 200 pounds! I have not been under 200 lbs in a very long time. Let’s see.... I believe it was some where around November 1994. That is nearly 12 years ago. I was married on May 14 1994 and got pregnant in October of that same year and gained about 70 pounds with my 1st baby. Then, 3 years later I gained more weight with my 2nd child and have been not able to take it off until now. I can’t believe how much more energy I have just with 40 pounds gone. Today I cleaned up my boys’ room, stripped beds, rearranged furniture and did shopping. I have a head ache now, but I feel good otherwise.
I am eating mostly protein. I am not getting in my veggies or my water like I should, but I am trying to do better.
About Me
Rockingham County, VA
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26.3
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Surgery
01/23/2006
Surgery Date
Jul 07, 2005
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