CrystalY.
I don't know that my story is that much different then anyone else. I don't have some great story or reason to blame on me being fat. In fact I wasn't fat until about third grade. Even though I had that time before I gained the weight, it's hard for me to remember a time in my life when people weren't making fun of me for being fat. You would think all the teasing and torture that I went through would have been enough for me to want to make changes but I guess it didn't because here I am now. My time in school was typical I guess up until my freshmen year in high school. I started having really bad back pain. It took he doctors forever to believe me that there was something wrong. They figured out I had juvenile degenerative disk and bone disease. I had my first back surgery the summer after my freshmen year. I think all that did though was give me another reason to be more lazy then I already was. I graduated in 1996 with few friends and no self esteem. About 2 years out of high school I went in for my second back surgery. I got a major post op infection that would end up with me bed bound and very sick. All that went on for about a year. I lost a lot of weight from the sickness but that didn't last for long. I met my husband in 1999 and we became pregnant in 2000. I miscarried. After that I started gaining weight like crazy. We were never able to conceive again after that without help. I became pregnant 3 more times over the next few years with the help of a fertility specialist. I have severe pcos. I miscarried all three times I was pregnant. Of course the doctor says this may have a lot to do with my weight. So after countless years of mental and physical pain that my obesity has caused me I finally decided to go for help. I had an open RNY on September 12, 2000. I have thankfully had a wonderful and dedicated husband to help me through this all. We are very strong in our faith and we believe the Lord can get us through all of this. So far, on most days anyway, I'm very happy I had the surgery. I of course have my times when I don't feel well and wonder if I'll ever be normal again but then I ask myself, was I really normal at 338 lbs??????!!!!! Normal is conditional I think and so I'm ready to make a new normal.