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My heart hurts and soul aches. I'm tired... so tired of the pain. Some things people can't push through. If life hurdles make us stronger, I am too strong.

If I close my eyes will I embrace the strength to open them?

Well....I woke up feeling awesome!!! So I hopped out of bed, on the floor and in the push up position. Went downstairs grabbed my weights out of the rack and worked on my arms for 20 minutes....


More to come later as I am off to work!

I can't shake the stress in my circle right now... My sister's cancer has almost completely consumed her and she only has a few months left. I am a tremendous stress eater and the Lap Band makes this imposable so I get food rage! I can't turn to food to hide from my current feelings. Some days I want to just pull the covers over my head and lock the door. Too bad my husband won't allow for this to happen...! I know this is no way to handle it but it just happens. The holidays were the worst. I wasn't in any mood to try an "celebrate". In the back of my head sat this little being whispering to me this may be her last Christmas. GRRRRRR. Cancer sucks! Obesity sucks!!!