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 So I regained about 50 pounds  post op and stopped attending support groups and left the OH community.  But I'm back!!!!  June 1st I reclaimed my desire to be fit and healthy.  I have since lost close to 60 pounds, leaving me lighter than my lightest post-op weight.  I'm right around 200 pounds now, a far cry from thin, but so much healthier and happier.  

I'm a size 12 now, with a goal of a size 10.  I've been slowed down a bit by a knee injury.  (Headed out to the ortho appt. shortly, to see what the heck is going on with it!)  Weight loss has not stopped, but it's coming off more slowly now that I'm a bit of a gimp.  I'm not thrilled with this, but okay with it.  Better slowly than not at all!

I'm looking forward to jumping back into the community that helped me take off the weight the first time around.  I hope I may be able to help others, since I definitely benefited from it several years back! 

So clearly I'm not a good blogger!

Anyway, it's been 2 years since my surgery.  I've been the same weight since my last post.  I stay right around 215...up a couple or down a couple, but generally I'm 215.  I'd like to weigh less but I guess I don't want it bad enough, since I don't really exercise with any regularity.  

I find it frustrating to do the BMI calculator on this site and find that I'm still obese and could qualify for the surgery...two years later and after losing over 100 pounds.  That really bums me out!

But...on the up side...I do feel and look much better.  I have more energy and am MUCH more active in all areas of my life now.  I don't require a nap daily and I can shop without physical exhaustion.  (Not to mention shopping in REGULAR section of stores!)  

So...2 years later...would I do it again?  Absolutely.  I will never be a size 5.  I may never be under 200 pounds.  I will always have loose, floppy skin.  But I'm much happier, healthier and active than I was 2 years ago.  It was certainly a positive choice I made in my life. 

Oops...I haven't posted in a long while...I have a bad habit of not wanting to admit a back slide, which I suffered.  I stopped exercising and began grazing...and gained weight back.  I got up to 225 again before getting a grip and getting back to only three meals a day and exercising again.  I'm back down to 215 again.  I've got about 5 more pounds to get back down to my all time low post-op weight and then go from there.  My first goal is to get below 200 and then my next goal is to get to 150...I can do it.  It will just take a lot of determination, which I currently have...just must keep it!

I think I may have lost all my old posts from pre-op, in converting to this format...I hope not.  I hope they can be found and saved, somehow.

Anyway, I've discovered SparkPeople.com and I blog on there daily.  I'm dcfkaf there, too. 

Anyway, I'm healthy, eating better and we've made plans to hike with some people Darryl works with.  In the Adirondacks.  How great does that sound?

Well, I weighed in at 214 this morning, after 3 days of working out at the Y.  Thursday is my 1 year appointment and I had wanted to be at 100 pounds lost since surgery.  Not going to happen...I'd have to drop 11 pounds in 7 days!  Now if this was the first month or two after surgery, no problem.  But I've not lost any real weight since the end of the summer.  Of course, until Tuesday, I'd not stepped foot in the gym since the end of the summer, either.  I'm trying hard not to get frustrated, but I must admit, I am frustrated.  I have had good results but I wanted great results.  I realize that the difference between the two is my own fault and that only adds fuel to my fire!

I suffer terribly from PMS.  I had a PMS-inspired hair rage and cut off all my hair a few days ago.  Of course this was less than a week after I paid for a perfectly fine haircut.  So now I'm wearing hats and scarves for the next 6 months or so.  What was I thinking?!  I know they're going to say something about that at work.  (I've been on vacation since I did it...I'm NOT looking forward to that!)

Well, that's all the news to share.  More as there's more to tell. 

I'm not really losing anymore...I range from 210 to 217, It seems...usually around 212.  I'm not exercising and I'm not really sticking to the 3 meals a day, either.  So I'm sure I could lose some more just by doing or or both of those things.  Next week we will have a new gym membership and I'm going to see about renting a locker there, so I don't have to worry about carrying one more thing to and from work.  And then I won't even go home after work.  That seems to be my downfall...coming home and sitting down.  Then I don't want to do anything!

I had a student (with autism) call me fat for about 45 minutes on Friday...it felt terrible.  I've had kids call me fat before (working in a special ed classroom for emotionally disturbed kids makes that happen more than one would think) but it never bothered me when I was over 300 pounds....like it was an obvious slam.  But since I've lost weight, I like to fool myself into thinking I'm not fat anymore.  But I guess at a size 14, I am still fat.  Hell, I'm still obese by the BMI chart.  I just wanted to fool myself into thinking I wasn't.  But that student jolted me back to reality.  It hurt.

I donated blood three weeks ago...doing the "double red" kind.  Found out the following Monday that not only should RNY patients NOT give blood anymore, we shoud ESPECIALLY not do it the double red way.  So I've been battling iron deficiency since then.  Damn...live and learn!

I guess that's about it...not much to document as of now.  Hope that changes once the membership starts up!

I weighed in this morning at 212 pounds.  (All time high was 337, Bassett all time high weigh in was 326.  Weigh in on surgery day was 303.  So that means I've lost anywhere from 91 to 125 pounds, depending on when you start counting from!)

I got my notice in the mail today...my first anniversary appointment is February 15th.  If I am able to lose 10 pounds in the next 6 weeks, I'll have made my original goal (100 pounds post op, in the first year).  I was stagnant for about 3 months and have just recently begun to lose again.  I'm a bit relieved, as I was afraid I was done losing.  I know I'm not setting any records, as far as losing quickly, but I'm much healthier than I was a year ago!  That's for sure.  

I have to keep reminding myself of that, since I tend to get a bit down that the others I know lost more and lost it quicker and are much thinner than I am.  But I started out heavier than they were and if I'm to be completely honest, I haven't worked out regularly or very much, even when I do!  And I don't always eat just three times a day.  Sometimes I graze all day, soemthing I didn't used to do!  What's up with that?!

My hair doesn't fall out anymore.  And I'm not sure, but I think it may be a little thicker than it was.  It's shorter and layered, so it's tough to tell.  I've been playing with the idea of growin it out again.  Some people tell me to grow it out and others suggest I leave it short, so I don't know what to do.

Well, that's it for now.  More as there's more to update.

12/21/06

I'm not sure I like this new format...in fact, I'm rather sure I don't.  But I don't care much for change, so I'm sure once I'm used to it, I won't mind it at all.

I'm currently at about 211 pounds, as of this morning, down from my all-time high of 337 and my first recorded weight of 326 at the Bassett Bariatric program in Cooperstown, NY (10/05).   The day of surgery, I believe I weighed in at 303, or around there.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't just a little disappointed in the results.  I know it's better than I have ever done "on my own" and I've maintained longer than I've ever been able to before.  But my sister and my two close friends who also had this procedure lost more and were able to continue losing for a  longer period of time than I had.  The Bassett program says most people have 12-18 months.  I had about 7 months.  And for those first 7 months, I lost very well.  Then I suddenly stopped and have stayed put, basically, for the last three months.  I'm hoping it's just one hell of a long plateau.

I've been sick with the flu...first sickness since surgery and it scared me.  I've had no stomach issues since the surgery, so it was a bit alarming to have such stomach distress.  I immediately thought it was something related to the by-pass...until my husband and son both came down with the exact same symptoms!  Mine lasted longer than theirs, but I think I was just afllicted more severely.  

I'm doing yoga and since my gym membership expired, I've slacked off dramatically on the exercising...could this be related to the lack of weight loss?!  Of course!  I'm trying to motivate my husband to start walking with me evenings.  The dogs love it.  Him, not so much!

My hair fell out in clumps for several months.  It's finally slowed down significantly.  I may try to grow it back out now...or not.  I'm not sure.  It's still not very thick yet.

I guess that's it for the first blog on the new format.  

In Peace, Light and Love,
Kim