Hi Deanna---I saw your message on the message board about having to fill out all of your previous weight loss attempts on your paperwork. I had the same feelings---it made me feel "weak" that I couldn't do it on my own, "ashamed" like all fat people have been made to feel by society! But, I got past that by reading a lot of the research that recognizes obesity as an illness. And---to look on the POSITIVE SIDE---if you hadn't made several earnest attempts, you would not meet the requirements for this surgery! You will experience many emotions during this journey: shame, anger, fear, sadness, but finally JOY when you see the results you can achieve. God bless you and know that we're here to support you, whatever you need!