deeannapm26
Well, here goes.......My name is Deeanna and I am 37 years old. Like alot of people here I have been overweight most of my life. I lived my entire elementary school days in constant fear of the "weigh day". Anytime a person would come to the classroom I was scared to death that it was the person to weigh and measure the students. Why on earth did they have to do it in front of the entire class room and why did they always have to repeat (out loud) at least two times to the person writing down the information?eeeeeeeeeekkkk! I specifically remember a time in second grade (I went to school at the time in Lebanon, VA) and my teacher, Mrs. Macomas....told the nurse that my mother was huge. I never forgot the sting of those words. I felt like they were personally attacking my mom. To me she was the most beautiful woman in the world and it never dawned on me that she was "huge" and to me she was perfect...........hhhhhhhhh. I have never told anyone that. I hope that Mrs. Macomas , who by the way was a rather large woman herself, reads this and feels shame!!! Anyway back to my childhood. Besides the several scared to death moments a week, my childhood was normal, I guess. Alcoholic father who was never home and an obese mother who did her best to be a good mom. blah blah blah. Lots of years, two divorces, and two children later I weigh 330lbs!!!!!!!!!
So , I have been looking at before and after photos for years now. I look with awe and longing for the time that I would have a chance to do the same...
Well, my primary physician has referred me to a surgeon and I have my first appointment on Feb. 28,2007. I am soooooo scared that something will go wrong..........but everytime I think something negative I block it out with a positive......It is like mental war! I know the first appt. will be just to see if I am qualified for the surgery. I really think I am. I have several problems. I am using a cpap for the past 5 months and I have lots of the usual stuff that goes alon with being MO. I am just so nervous about the insurance thing. I have Blue Care Medicaid. I have done all the weight loss regimes......you name it, I've tried it. I own every diet book ever published ( I have two copies of some) I buy those weekly magazines faithfully with the weight loss schemes on the cover for poor hopeless souls like me thinking, " Maybe this is the one"
I don't know what else to say but I am ready sooooooooooo ready.
