dharalex
I, like most of you, have been battling obesity for years. I was always the biggest girl, but not really considered fat until I stopped all the highschool activities and went to college. I didn't gain the freshman 15, I gained the freshman 40... then it continued to escalate. I had two babies, and was able to get back to my prepregnancy weight each time. But for some reason whether it be stress, depression, or the combination of the two, I developed a horrible addiction to food. I have done all the diets out there, just name it. I have taken pills prescribed by a doctor and those I found on the internet. I have lost and regained so much I can't count! Each time, I feel worse and more depressed and ashamed. I am a health care professional, and I am supposed to set a good example for my patients. How can I do that if I am 100 pounds overweight myself? I cringe when I hear doctors talk negatively about a patient's weight, and I know I weigh even more. My joints ache, especially in the morning. I can't stand too long before my back begins to hurt. My ankles swell all the time. I can't move like I used to, and I am sick of it! At 36, I feel 56! Although people around me think I don't need surgery to improve my health, I have decided to make a positive and permanent change in my life. I have battled with the decision to do this for over a year, and now it's time! I know it isn't a cakewalk. I still need to make major, permanent life changes as it pertains to eating. But I am determined to do this....I have to!
