Diana91
I faxed my PCP....
Mar 16, 2010
Screw what my family says!
I'm on my own now.
They obviously dont care about me enough.... To just change their mind about my decision & just not supporting me at all....Well fuck it. It's MY life. I want to be healthy ):
Updates;
Been going walking with my friend
Mom changed her mind. For the hundredth time
New hair do
I have a cruuuuush
...ugh I just wish I wasnt soo fat.That's all for now..
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Hey lovees!
Feb 04, 2010
Well....I did finally get my mom's support (:
& she decided to make a doctors appointment for me.
Which is tomorrow.
Well as you may have read in an old post, my brother (his name's Mike btw) is training to be a fitness trainer.
So Friday(1/29), he decided he wanted to help me exercise, & I let him haha.
What's kind of funny is that when I exercise on my own, I feel like giving up, & would a lot haha.
But this time, I forced myself not to. I guess when having someone around when you exercise, you dont want to look like a failure, i guess? So you dont give up.
& I didnt mind doing the extra exercises he asked me if I could do. Like 10 more situps, etc.
It really was a good work out. The next day my body was sore lmao.
Ok...Monday me & my oldest brother (& his name's David) walked 1.9miles (felt like moree) to Hi-Corbett Feild, to fill out a job application to work for the Tucson Torros haha..
Like halfway there, I already started getting blisters on the back of my ankles & pinky toes lol. I was wearing my Chuck Taylors lmao.
But ooomg it felt sooo bad!! Once we got ther I felt like I couldnt walk aha..
Anyways I filled out the job app. My brothers boss looked it over (shes really nice, & so short ^_^) & she starred my application & told me that was a good thing & said that David knows how picky she is when hiring people lol.
So I pretty much got the job, but need to wait for a call now.
I'm soo excited [: ...not really. SHHH.
I think that's all lol.
Ooh, if anyone is on Myspace or even Facebook, add me :]
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:D
Jan 26, 2010
So, I have made a decision between Lap-band & VSG..
After a lot of research & talking to some lovely members of OH, I've decide to get a VSG :)
Now I just need to make that Dr's appointment with my PCP & ask about the possibility of getting WLS.
If my Dr. agrees, I hope I get approved by my insurance. & thank you "MidwesternGirl" for the information about my insurance.
Ok so does anyone have any advice about how to bring up the subject of WLS to my PCP?
If he just suggests to do a diet, does that mean there is like absolutely noo way i can get WLS? Well besides to just go to Mexico...
I also wanted to ask, if you go to Mexico for WLS, is it suggested to be updated about your health before you go through with the surgery? Like, I havent seen a Dr. since I was in middle school. So I have noo idea if I have Diabetes. But I joke around with my mom that I do, because really; I think I do.
So any other advice you can give me, will be greatly appreciated!
Have an awesome day everyone(:
Second post..
Jan 21, 2010
It's Friday (yay..not really because I have no plans for the weekend. In fact, I never do lol.)
Well..I'm really bored. Havent gone to sleep & it's 4am!
I keep thinking about this whole "I want WLS, but mom doesnt want me to" thing.
Since I am 18, cant I make my own Dr. appointments now?
Not saying my mom doesnt let me. If I told her I want to go she'd be like "more power to ya" lol.
I'm really just wondering.
Because I hope to call for a Dr's appointment next week.
I would really like to talk to a Dr. about the possibility of getting WLS.
Hopefully he/she will agree it is a good idea.
Since I hear that some people have to do up to 6 months of dieting, before they can get approved by their insurance.
I dont want to waste more time, so I can get WLS asap.. This year! (;
& well, I have no idea if AHCCCS does this. I hope they dont.
Well my mom got my brother involved in all this.
He really doesnt know I want WLS, just that I want to lose weight.
He's in school to be a professional fitness trainer.
I would let him help me, but he already said what I want to eat while dieting, isnt good & blah blah blah.
Ya, well he didnt let me finish....ugh!
I just think he acts like he's too good for everyone, you know??
He told me most things that I wont be able to eat, I already know.
He just thinks all the times I'm online, I'm probably on myspace or whatever.
I'm not as dumb as I look.
I do my research, thank you..
So to be honest, I had just decided to do what my mom told me (nutrisytem & eliptical).
But my mom & brother made me a bit angry.
So I just thought "to hell with you". & I'm back to my idea.
It's my life. But I do have great respect for my mom; she's the one who gave birth to me, of course.
I just dont want to listen to my brother. It doesnt matter if he's going to be a fitness trainer.
I'm doing what's gonna make me happiest. I dont care if he finds out & says I'm "taking the easy way out".
Once I get WLS, I'll let him train me. Ahaha..
Well I shall continue to look for a surgeon!
Goodnight & Goodmorning lol (:
First Post..
Jan 20, 2010
I have AHCCCS (AZ health care). & I hope to find a place that will accept AHCCCS.
So I read about UPH has a Dr. that does the lap-band surgery. But got an email today, saying they dont accept AHCCCS.
The cost for "self-pay" is $15,000. If I had the money, I'd pay it in a heartbeat.
So if anyone in AZ knows a place that will accept AHCCCS, PM me(:
Ok, so...I've been wanting this surgery since I was about 16.
I remeber watching tv in the living room, & I saw a commercial for the Lap-Band Center of Tucson.
So I just blurted out to my mom (who was in the kitchen preparing dinner), "I want to get a Lap-Band".
& told me, "I feel bad that I cant buy you guys what you want". She wasnt saying this in a sad.../nice way. But in a kind of mad way, I guess..?
So I really never spoke about it....
Until today.....
Soo...I was sitting at the edge of my moms bed, she was sitting on her computer chair, putting on her makeup, getting ready for work.
I told her "So you know how people that get the Lap-Band they have to do a liquid diet before surgery & like after, then go on to eat "mushy" food, then after they can eat solids? I....." she cut me off & said. "Do you think you can do that? I dont think you could" ?(oh thanks mom...) I told her I can, because I will make myself. & she goes on & says "Do you ever eat, get full & wait a little bit & start eating again?" I didnt say anything, because sometimes I'd feel hungry again after 30mins to an hour. But lately that's not really happening, or I'm just ignoring/not paying attention to it. So my mom continues to say, "When I eat & get full, I still force myself to eat more". I'm going to make one thing clear, I'm not like her. When I'm full. I'm full.
I just stayed quiet....She told me I'm young & all I need to do is get out of the house & exercise.
I hate my body, I feel embarrassed to go out. I always wear a zip-up hoodie over every top I wear. I never show my arms. As much as I would lovee to go out walking around Reid/Randolph park, like other people. I just dont feel comfortable doing this. Especially since I'd be by myself. If I get WLS, it'll be a different story. I want to go find a place to run/jog/walk. Without people around. We have an eliptical trainer that is supposed to be electrical. My mom bought it for like $45 (broken), but we still use it. During Nov-Dec I had days I forced myself to exercise on the eliptical for 15mins. I havent been on it at all this year. & that really needs to change. But if I get WLS, I'm hoping to get a gym membership.
So back to the "conversation" I had with my mom.....
I'm still being all quiet...
She mentions how Sharon Osbourne got the lap-band surgery & still gained weight. & I said "Well they probably took it out or shes wasnt eating right". My mom didnt really say anything.
She then says that I have to go to the Dr. & see what they say about the possibility of getting WLS.
(& if you know me, then you know how much I hate going to the Dr's. I think the last time I went to the Dr's. was when I was in school...maybe 6th grade? I hated going when the Dr told me I was obese, in 4th or 5th grade. When we got home, I cried into my mamas arms :/
BUT I will go to the Dr's & hopefully they will say I can/should get WLS.)
So at this point I'm about to cry.
Every word that came out of her mouth, built up more tears.
She also said if AHCCCS will pay for it, then I can this WLS.
Since tears were running down my face. I couldnt talk or I'd just cry.
So I just sat there, quiet.. Looking down.
I wanted to tell her that places do accept AHCCCS (although I'm not exactly sure which places do).
My mom had also said in this conversation that she doesnt want someone cutting into me.
& asked "What if you dont wake up from the anesthesia??" & I had said that they have a Dr (anesthesiologist) that would monitor me while I'm under. Right?? Lol...
But she pretty much said that it doesnt always go right.
B L A H . . . .
Oh ya, also.....
She wants to buy me Nutrisystem. Because walmart sells it. I just checked; it's the 14 day starter pack, for $148. I dont know if she knows that, because she was talking about it like it was a month+ supply. & told me to hop on the eliptical.
So that's what she wants me to do, instead of getting WLS.
I guess it would be fine.
But what IF it doesnt work?
I've tried doing diets, "hopping on" the eliptical. & well..I'm still "morbidly" obese.
But I do need to buy a scale. If I had lost weight, it was maybe 2.lbs Lol.
I feel like shit...
I pretty much have ZERO support.
I would've thought my mom would support me.
If she decided to have WLS, she'd have my full support.
I wouldnt try to be all negative about it either....
If I made my mom sound kind of like a bitch, she's really not.
She's really nice, caring & loving.
I love her soo much (:
But I'm like heartbroken because I dont have her support.
Just negativity....
