Krista O.
Surgery is Scheduled!
Oct 12, 2009
Well here I go!!! I have my surgery date and on my way! I am nervous and exited all at once.
Also have so many question going through my brain. Like am I sure I want to do this?
I have done so well in prep for the surgery friends and family have asked if I really need to go throught with this.
I know I do but still it is a question in my mind. I am sure I am not the first person to have these questions come up.
But I feel unsure and nervous. Things for me have moved super quickly and with only 2 weeks to go before my surgery it seems like a fast track and not sure if that is good or bad.
I will take it one day at a time but I am still going to keep possitive this is for me and my health.
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Also have so many question going through my brain. Like am I sure I want to do this?
I have done so well in prep for the surgery friends and family have asked if I really need to go throught with this.
I know I do but still it is a question in my mind. I am sure I am not the first person to have these questions come up.
But I feel unsure and nervous. Things for me have moved super quickly and with only 2 weeks to go before my surgery it seems like a fast track and not sure if that is good or bad.
I will take it one day at a time but I am still going to keep possitive this is for me and my health.
My First Day And A Little About Me!!
Jul 06, 2009
Well here I am First Day of my new "life change" Plan. So far so good. But then again I haven't been around any temptations or even around friends. *LOL*
My story is a rather short one and I am pretty sure it might ring some familiar notes to others out there that are in the same situation that I am in now.
As a child I grew up in want of nothing and came from a home that had both parents working to put “bread” on the table so to speak. But I was also very lucky that growing up I had my Aunt living with us. So I had three parents in essence. This was a great support system. But also very trying as I couldn't get away with much with three pairs of eyes on me.
Most of my best childhood memories are those of FOOD! Birthdays, Holidays, Parties, even just our every night sitting around the table dinners. With the one rule you eat what you put on your plate, food doesn't go to waste. I am sure we have all heard the line “There are kids in Africa that don't have any food”. Our household was one of those. You eat whatever you put on your plate so it doesn't go to waste. In my case my eyes always bigger then my stomach and having the need to finish everything I took as to not let it go to waste.
From years of doing this I steadily gained the weight and more so after I was 13. When I turned into a hermit of sorts. Later being told by the doctor I was depressed and that I had PCOS. So the ball started to roll down hill from there building up to what I am today.
Over the last 15 years I have tried over 10 different Diets and repeated some of the better ones over. Two or even three times in hopes that the third time was the charm. Every time losing 10% of my body weight then hitting a plateau and then not losing anymore no matter how much I worked at it. Then stopping the diet only to regain what I had lost and gradually gain 10 to 20 more pounds. This was a viscous cycle and with it came more depression, lack of confidence, inability to do minor activities without difficulty and recently medical problems.
A Few months ago I started this journey after the shock that my scale flashed the message “error”. My scale is one from weight watchers that goes to 400lbs. This was a sad day and sat in my chair and pretty much stayed there all day till my husband came home and found me and calmed me down. Telling me he loved me no matter what and that if I wanted I could do something about it. So that night at dinner he gave me the challenge to put two bites aside and not finish what was on my plate. This was difficult. All I could think of was “its only two bites finish it. I am not even full yet.”
I am proud to say I didn't finish it and then when I could do that easily and not have issue he challenged me to take less food. From there it was less food and leaving two bites. It continued till my weight was down to where I am now.
I knew I was going to approach my plateau soon as was custom with me so I decided to go to the doctor. Where I was weighed in at 361.1 pounds. I was happy and excited. So as I hadn't been to a doctor in a few years she sent me for some test and we discussed some options that I had for continuing with my weight loss plan. She was happy to see I was able to do what I had on my own.
A week pasted and then went in to get results and do my physical and I had gained 8.8 pounds. I was disappointed and that is when she noticed my test result showed elevated sugar level and cholesterol. So there were more test to confirm those results. This is where I found out that I am pre-stages of Diabetes, Glaucoma, Pseudotumor Cerebri and have High Cholesterol. Hearing these things at 28 is not something I ever thought I would hear. I should be at that point in my life where I am planning a family with my husband not hearing that my life expectancy is half that of a healthy person. It scares me and really gave me a slap in the face to wake up to my own situation. No one else can change me. Only I can do that.
I know that I have a very long journey in front of me and I have a lot of habits that need to be changed. I know that from past attempts at trying to loss the weight that I need to watch what I eat and balance it off with exercise, motivation and will power. But never have I before set off on a “diet” where it is essential that I get healthier not for a physical reflection in the mirror but for my health and quality of life.
So here I am 28 and 370 pounds and going to really put my feet to the grid stone and work at improving my health. SO that I can get back to enjoying the small things in life and not worrying when I can sit down and get off my feet and catch my breath.
I hope to write more of my success in the blogs to come. I would also appreciate any support or tips any of you have.
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My story is a rather short one and I am pretty sure it might ring some familiar notes to others out there that are in the same situation that I am in now.
As a child I grew up in want of nothing and came from a home that had both parents working to put “bread” on the table so to speak. But I was also very lucky that growing up I had my Aunt living with us. So I had three parents in essence. This was a great support system. But also very trying as I couldn't get away with much with three pairs of eyes on me.
Most of my best childhood memories are those of FOOD! Birthdays, Holidays, Parties, even just our every night sitting around the table dinners. With the one rule you eat what you put on your plate, food doesn't go to waste. I am sure we have all heard the line “There are kids in Africa that don't have any food”. Our household was one of those. You eat whatever you put on your plate so it doesn't go to waste. In my case my eyes always bigger then my stomach and having the need to finish everything I took as to not let it go to waste.
From years of doing this I steadily gained the weight and more so after I was 13. When I turned into a hermit of sorts. Later being told by the doctor I was depressed and that I had PCOS. So the ball started to roll down hill from there building up to what I am today.
Over the last 15 years I have tried over 10 different Diets and repeated some of the better ones over. Two or even three times in hopes that the third time was the charm. Every time losing 10% of my body weight then hitting a plateau and then not losing anymore no matter how much I worked at it. Then stopping the diet only to regain what I had lost and gradually gain 10 to 20 more pounds. This was a viscous cycle and with it came more depression, lack of confidence, inability to do minor activities without difficulty and recently medical problems.
A Few months ago I started this journey after the shock that my scale flashed the message “error”. My scale is one from weight watchers that goes to 400lbs. This was a sad day and sat in my chair and pretty much stayed there all day till my husband came home and found me and calmed me down. Telling me he loved me no matter what and that if I wanted I could do something about it. So that night at dinner he gave me the challenge to put two bites aside and not finish what was on my plate. This was difficult. All I could think of was “its only two bites finish it. I am not even full yet.”
I am proud to say I didn't finish it and then when I could do that easily and not have issue he challenged me to take less food. From there it was less food and leaving two bites. It continued till my weight was down to where I am now.
I knew I was going to approach my plateau soon as was custom with me so I decided to go to the doctor. Where I was weighed in at 361.1 pounds. I was happy and excited. So as I hadn't been to a doctor in a few years she sent me for some test and we discussed some options that I had for continuing with my weight loss plan. She was happy to see I was able to do what I had on my own.
A week pasted and then went in to get results and do my physical and I had gained 8.8 pounds. I was disappointed and that is when she noticed my test result showed elevated sugar level and cholesterol. So there were more test to confirm those results. This is where I found out that I am pre-stages of Diabetes, Glaucoma, Pseudotumor Cerebri and have High Cholesterol. Hearing these things at 28 is not something I ever thought I would hear. I should be at that point in my life where I am planning a family with my husband not hearing that my life expectancy is half that of a healthy person. It scares me and really gave me a slap in the face to wake up to my own situation. No one else can change me. Only I can do that.
I know that I have a very long journey in front of me and I have a lot of habits that need to be changed. I know that from past attempts at trying to loss the weight that I need to watch what I eat and balance it off with exercise, motivation and will power. But never have I before set off on a “diet” where it is essential that I get healthier not for a physical reflection in the mirror but for my health and quality of life.
So here I am 28 and 370 pounds and going to really put my feet to the grid stone and work at improving my health. SO that I can get back to enjoying the small things in life and not worrying when I can sit down and get off my feet and catch my breath.
I hope to write more of my success in the blogs to come. I would also appreciate any support or tips any of you have.
About Me
CA
Location
42.7
BMI
Surgery
10/26/2009
Surgery Date
Jul 06, 2009
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