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My Story Might Be a Little Different??
It probably starts the same as most - I have struggled with weight my whole life! In fact, I was so fat (and short, I might add) when I was born that the doctors burst out laughing! Put on my first strict diets from the time I was a baby, and luckily for me my parents helped me keep it under control - I was never extremely heavy, but I was never thin (and according to those weight/height charts at the doctors office, I was definitely overweight). But even when I was young, I had to be extremely careful with the amount of calories I was eating, and I should add that I was alway extremely active in sports - I build muscle but didn't lose weight. So here is proof against all those who say, "if you just eat less and get more active..." how wrong they are... how wrong they are.
I rarely get to the computer (my littlest one doesn't sleep very well... so even my nights are crazy - so here it is almost 2 in the morning and I finally got a quick chance to read/write - first patients this was ever performed on - and it was successful for her. My weight issue is kind of different, I already have to eat an 850 calorie diet - always have had to, even with intense excercise - (unfortunately). This helped me maintain a "decent" weight - I am 5' 1" and my "decent weight" was about 130-135 pounds (still not thin by the doctors office charts)- but after almost 6 years of trying to have children and starting all the infertility stuff, one of the specialist I have to see due to this extremely strict way of eating told me if I just ate about 1000-1100 calories a day and allowed my body to gain at least 60-80 pounds that I would get pregnant. (my body would no longer think I was starving it).... ugh - my 2 year old just woke up - I'll have to finish this later. Hopefully tomorrow!
The Rest of My Story
Anyway - my endocrinologist was spot on - the moment I gained, I got pregnant. He said that from eating only 800-850 calories a day my body thought I was starving myself... so to make a long long long story short, I have now had three children and we are done, so it was time to reduce my eating back down to the 800 to 850 (sadly, I was only eating about 1100 calories before, but staying around 213 pounds and not losing so...I have been eating restricted back to about 850 calories again since 10/07 plus running 6-7 days a week on my treadmill... at first I lost weight( went from 213 pounds to 194 pounds) - (I am only 5' 1"), but now as of 02/2008 have only lost about a pound. So discouraging. But I continue to trek on, running and starving, but I ask myself - can I eat this way my whole life? I did for all of my life before I had kids, and it was never easy, but now it seems even harder the second time around and my body is fighting it all the more. The doctors have said they think the roux-en-y would at least help me not feel like I am starving every day - and would help me keep this up for life- and possibly change my body to help with the loosing the weight. Initially I never even considered bariatric surgery because I didn't think it could help me since my eating is already so restricted and I do worry that I would go through all this and it still wouldn't make a difference... but the more I talk to people, the more it seems like it might help. Even if it helps me not feel like I am constantly starving, that would be nice.
My biggest struggle with the idea of weight loss surgery is because of my three small children and hearing about all the risks. Also all the unknowns and "what-ifs"... but as I spend more time on this sight and read other peoples stories, I am inspired to look into it more. Some days I wake up and think, "I am going to do the sugery", other days I wake up and think, "No way."
So that is a least a brief summary of my situation. Hopefully it makes sense :)
