EBrady09
Hello!
My name is Erica and I'm 21 yrs old. All my live I have always had an issue with my weight, welcome to life, yes I know! Growing up I was always big on softball and basketball, I loved to play, but as I grew older I didn't play as much due to high school, homework, my knee being bad, friends, and eventually working. I've always been a heavier girl and hide my weight very well, but I was never ashamed of it until now 
. I am currently at the highest I have every weighed and am not proud of it. I also recently got engaged 
and refuse to do any planning or even dress shopping til I drop some serious pounds. I've done all the diets, the trainer, and read all the books. It helps for the time being but I need something that I can stick to. I always fall back into my "old ways" and really need help making better choices, but seriously being 21 and having a fiance whom LOVES to cook and LOVES his butter and everything that's no so good for me. I know I can eat a small portion of it, but I don't, I dig in. I was always tough to "clear my plate" as a child so that's what I do. I don't want to "Waist" any food. If i really sit down and think about it, it kinda sounds ridiculous but when I'm eating and slowly(or quickly) clearing my plate, it makes sense. I Want To Lose Weight & My Bad Habits. I hate to go shopping, always have, but I know that's only because of my size. I don't enjoy going to a rack and only being able to pick up one thing. Or even having more then one "X" on my tags. I recently got back on insurance and my mother brought the Lap Band to my attention.
Oh my mother, bless her heart, I know she means well and is only concerned for my "health" but I never feel as if that's the case. I know shes always bringing up my weight or size for a reason, but damn, it really starts to hurt my feelings for awhile and I'm not one to just left something go, it'll bug me for a couple days. In the end I'll just end... aka an emotional eater ... Well this is the beginning of my story.
I have been looking into getting the lap band, but I am scared. I don't want a lot of saggy skin, I think that is mostly what I am scared of. I know i need to work out, but I come home, and see my fiance and I don't want to go anywhere because he is leaving
soon for a long time for work, like were talking over a year. I guess I feel like I need to hang out with him every chance I can, I know its only an hour maybe an hour and a half at the gym. I think I'm making excuses, and its not fair to me, nor my fiance. I don't want him to marry someone who is heavier and could have health problems down the road. I need this for me. I need this for my health. I need this for the love of my life. I need this to change my life around.
Looking forward to see where this is going to take me. I have not yet planned nor scheduled my op, but in time, hopefully soon, my life will change 
~ Erica
