EllefireGA
To bypass or not to bypass is such a huge decision, and I've been back and forth on it for such a long time, but I'm now completely dedicated to making the drastic lifestyle changes necessary to improve my health and mobility, so that I can be a healthy example for my daughter. I guess a real sense of determination came over me when I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror as I was sitting at the dining room table, and I felt really sad about my appearance. My husband and I were in the process of painting the dining room, so our large mirror that ordinarily would hang on the wall was propped on the floor, and I was able to see myself from head to toe in just a regular t-shirt and jeans and sneakers sitting there at the table. That was the first time I really thought my body looked like that of a really sad person. I had been angry and careless and disrespectful and disgusted and determined and discouraged and regretful and hopeful and neglectful and encouraged and surprised and ashamed and proud and critical about my body, but in that broad spectrum of emotions about my appearance, I had never just felt plain sad. So, as I saw my own sad form sitting at the table, I began thinking about all the things I wouldn't miss about being overweight. Then I decided to write them down. When I first took a pause and started struggling to come up with new items for the list, I was already at #212. Wow. That's enough reason to do this, I finally thought. And here I am...My surgery is scheduled for April 8, 2008. :)
