fawnracene
Pre-op diet and other things
May 24, 2012
Its day three of my pre-op diet and things are going pretty good day one was really hard and that night I ended up really sick for about an hour not sure why but it passed thank goodness. The numbers moving on the scale are helping me stay focused on the diet. Its day three and I have went from 285-277.... I was like holy shit. The clinic in my town that leaves much to be desired is finally putting in my IUD tomorrow. I really did not want to worry about being intimate with my boyfriend all the time and this will help. It took me about 2 months for them to actually talk to my gyno about me and give me a call back. I am training new girls at work and its like thing one and thing two dress the same, hair the same, go to the bathroom together. I am like really we are in a max security prison. Anyways I hope the next few weeks fly by!!!!!
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Homestretch!!!
May 17, 2012
Got home from my pre-op visit, pre-op class and my pre-admit stuff. Surgery is still on schedule I have to drive in a day before planned for a hida scan for my gallbladder to see if they will take it out with the surgery. Getting excited and nervous. Training people we finally got hire before I am out for a few weeks. The only bummer is my Hida-scan is on a monday and my surgery is on wednesday and my Boyfriend has a job interview on tuesday so I am trying to find someone willing to drive me 5 hours to Reno for the Hida scan so my boyfriend can drive into reno the next day after his interview. Hopefully he gets the job we really need it right now!!!!!
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8 days to loose some weight
May 06, 2012
Apparently my surgeons office uses the the weight the day of your pre-surgery class not the weight you are the day of surgery to see if you have lost your pre-surgery weight loss goal. I have been doing the 1st of week my Dr's 4 week pre-op diet for a couple weeks(yeah i started it early) and NOTHING!!!! So scared they are going to make me reschedule. Also might add my pre-op and this class are three weeks before surgery so I am sure by the time surgery rolls around I will be at this goal weight. Its just because of the date of the classes, work and distance away from my surgeon I had to schedule it that far out. I am praying that I can at least weigh 5 lbs lighter than 289 with clothes on when I weigh in. I might need to do some begging and pleading. Wish me luck. Also why when you absolutely need to be on a diet do things on tv and all the restaurants and fast food places in town are calling my name.... ARRRGHHH
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Feel much better!
Apr 30, 2012
For the past 3 paydays I have worked tons of overtime. My job is very emotionally draining I am sure everyone could imagine a maximum security job could be. I almost for a minute there I thought maybe ill wait for work to get less crazy so I can actually focus on what i need to focus on before surgery I have been very naughty they gave me a 16 lb weight loss goal before surgery and what have a done started the first part of my pre surgery diet I do awesome at work but when I am home I have cheated and it doesnt help living 2 minutes away from the fast food places in town. Anyways my boss FINALLY sat down and talked to me about the time I was taking off which lifted a weight off my shoulder and even gave me the time off in a way it save me like 20 hours of leave. WOOT and gave me the 3.5 weeks I wanted off not the 2.5 weeks i originally asked for. Althought my life has been crazy I am thankful that it has gone by fast and with work, dr appointments, pre-op appointments, traveling back and forth to reno for all this, and my 27th birthday I am almost positive 6/6/2012 will come so fast. Im a little more scared than I am was in the beggining hoping all my pre testing ekg and lab work comes back okay and a little worried about how hard getting used to my stomach will be. But its worth it in the end all this stress, the pain..... I am excited.
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Signs from the WLS gods
Apr 23, 2012
Although I am VERY happy I was approved so soon I did not have any money saved up for the surgery beforehand has steadily become a problem because right now I live paycheck to paycheck anyway and living 5 hours away from my surgeon means not only the 1500 copay and $300 pre surgery class fee but it means traveling expenses. To add to my stress work is stressful and I have had my schedule switched because of staffing and working tons of overtime. You are probably saying Overtime why havnt you been able to save. Seems like something always happens that I cant save my boyfriend needs gas for work. We need grocieries, you know just little things. But right now instead of focusing on loosing weight and focusing on getting ready for my surgery date I am worrried about finances and work related stuff. Although I am trying really hard not to put off my surgery for a couple months. Its just like I need to take a breath and reschedule it.
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First entry!!!!
Apr 18, 2012
Looking back I have always had a problem with eating and my weight sad to say I believe I have been an emotional eater since grade school. Obessing about what i was going to eat bugging my mother and grandmother and going out to eat ect. I remember when my grandma was dying when I was 13 we went to a mall to buy me some clothes and my mother had to buy me sixe 16 pants from Lane Bryant I was horrifiied. I remember loosing a considerable amount of weight my freshman year and doing weight watchers before my sophomore year I remember thinking I was so heavy however looking back at pictures I looked thing and healthy and amazing. I struggled with wieght till high school graduation but it honestly never really bugged me. College came and my freshman year i was Diagnosed with Hoshimotos Thyrioditis this explained my 50 lb weight gain my freshman year. All through my several years of college my weight went up and down. It wasnt until about 2 years ago it wasnt just that I couldnt wear what my friends were wearing and that all the guys were hitting on my friends at bars, did no feel uncomortable around men I dated for the most part I felt confident and beautiful.
However looking back its like overnight if I was out walking for extended periods my hips would hurt. I began having periods from hell as in they lasted for months on end never knowing when it would start when it would end. I started to notice how hard it was wash my legs and feet in the shower. How uncomfortable I was in social situations when i never had been before. I am sure it didnt happen overnight. But it soon became instead of the fat funny friend I was hurting and uncomfortable physically and in social situations.
In fall of 2010 I began working at a max prison and believe you me even though you shouldnt take what the inmated say to hearts I did realize that they were only pointing out what people who werent in prison were thinking and had the manners not to say. Also there is alot of walking that comes along with this job. I began wishing my feet didnt hurt after just going to the units once. Walking up the stairs to the teer that i wasnt sweating like I pig. I did weight watchers and lost about 30 lbs when I started at the prison I was 310 and at my lowest in a few years i was about 265.
Well at my gyno appt in Dec 2011 my Dr was like have you ever thought about weight loss and I said yes but I wasnt sure I could afford it. I left the appt thinking and thinking about and called to see how much my insurance covered. Come to find out in my opinion they covered A LOT. because I live 5 hours from my surgeon I made my nutritionist appt, my psych eval, my appt with the surgeon, a required class, and some other required testing. When i got back home within a few weeks my primary wrote a letter and I had my upper GI serious. At this point they submitted me for approval, It happened so fast i wasnt even ready financially or ready workwise to take time off. I am excited to not only be able to fit in socially but more than anything I am excited to feel healthy and be able to do all the little things I took for granted with I was thinner. Although this journey scary its exciting at the same time.
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However looking back its like overnight if I was out walking for extended periods my hips would hurt. I began having periods from hell as in they lasted for months on end never knowing when it would start when it would end. I started to notice how hard it was wash my legs and feet in the shower. How uncomfortable I was in social situations when i never had been before. I am sure it didnt happen overnight. But it soon became instead of the fat funny friend I was hurting and uncomfortable physically and in social situations.
In fall of 2010 I began working at a max prison and believe you me even though you shouldnt take what the inmated say to hearts I did realize that they were only pointing out what people who werent in prison were thinking and had the manners not to say. Also there is alot of walking that comes along with this job. I began wishing my feet didnt hurt after just going to the units once. Walking up the stairs to the teer that i wasnt sweating like I pig. I did weight watchers and lost about 30 lbs when I started at the prison I was 310 and at my lowest in a few years i was about 265.
Well at my gyno appt in Dec 2011 my Dr was like have you ever thought about weight loss and I said yes but I wasnt sure I could afford it. I left the appt thinking and thinking about and called to see how much my insurance covered. Come to find out in my opinion they covered A LOT. because I live 5 hours from my surgeon I made my nutritionist appt, my psych eval, my appt with the surgeon, a required class, and some other required testing. When i got back home within a few weeks my primary wrote a letter and I had my upper GI serious. At this point they submitted me for approval, It happened so fast i wasnt even ready financially or ready workwise to take time off. I am excited to not only be able to fit in socially but more than anything I am excited to feel healthy and be able to do all the little things I took for granted with I was thinner. Although this journey scary its exciting at the same time.
