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I'm 5 days post-op and I am struggling with this new way of life. I don't regret the procedure at all. I'm just in pain and it's difficult to think about drinking enough protein to have adequate nutrition on board. I will have to make a timed schedule of my medications and when to drink so I don't get it confused. I know that this is a process and I didn't learn to overeat overnight and I certainly know it will take time and discipline to correct those poor habits of my past.  This RNY is just the tool to stop any overeating and poor choices of the past from returning. Anytime I think about eating or drinking something not in my plan, I constanly think about the consequences and get really scared of stretching my pouch or just plain getting sick and throwing up. It's a chore now to just drink and take meds and I'm not even about to eat anything that can't be dranked. I truly thank all of you out there that have taken this journey before me and for posting your experiences so that I know I am not alone on this road to weight loss. You all are very encouraging to us newbies. 

Tomorrow is my surgery. I now have nervous energy. Anxiously waiting. I have checked my to-do list 4 times but I still feel like I'm forgetting to do something. I have my bag packed and ready. My liquid groceries are stocked and the vitamins are in the medicine cabinet. What else is there to do??? I thank God for blessing and keeping me during my journey. I know I will have an uneventful, uncomplicated surgery and everything will go well.

I am having my RNY this Wednesday at 7:30 am. I had 3 more pounds to lose and some now I have 4lbs to lose by Wednesday am. What's going on?? Is this stress weight or maybe it was rice I ate. What am I doing to myself? My liquid diet will continue for the next 3 days along with all the sugar-free pops and jello I can stomach. I can't stray now. I'm almost to the point of no return and I don't plan on back paddling. Chana Kurtz is sooo inspiring and encouraging. I love to read her blog. Chana, please post more often. You make me believe this is all worth it.

I will have had my surgery by this time next week. I will be 11hrs post op. I went to do my final clearance with Dr. Leiva yesterday and I have to lose 3......more.......pounds by next Wednesday. I can do that. The liquid diet has done it all for me. I'm basically good to go for RNY from the surgeons standpoint-just those pesty last 3lbs left to shed. I keep going over everything in my minds checklist. Maybe I should write my list on paper. I just keeping saying THANK YOU JESUS. I'm soo blessed to have a great team and surgeon at NeWeigh.

I have made peace with my liquid. I have only 5lbs to go help my liver get out of my stomachs way in time for surgery next Wednesday. I have made al the arrangements for my daughter, school, and work. I'm so amazed that my SO (significant other) is on board with keeping his child. I didn't tell him what I was having done. It's almost like he knows. Wonder if my daughter told him 'Mommy's having sugery on her stomach' in that cute little 4yr old way. She doesn't know how to cover or keep secrets-thank GOD.

Surgery is 10/20/10. 16 days and counting.....I started my liquid regimen on last sunday 10/03/10.  I have been in liquid hell. I did good the first day until I asked my daughter for one of the fries in her Happy Meal. That started a snowball the size of Texas and I couldn't stop. It all ended with some left over mexican food. I blame it on that time of the month. Hormones raging. So anyway, I got back on the wagon Monday. I had to call my surgeons office for moral support. I made it through work but I was very irritable. This is crazy. I went to Dr. Leiva's office today and his nurse gave me a white flag. She told me I can have chicken, fish, and turkey grilled without any fat or oils. Just any seasoning of my choice. The catch-decide when to eat this because I can only have 1 meal a day with a small salad w/o dressing. The liquids will remain for the other two meals. I ate steamed tilapia and vegetables and now I feel like I defeated my efforts. So I will re-commit to drinking my nutrition.

Only 20 days to surgery. I am getting the usual questions from the few people who know that I am having gastric bypass. Like, 'Are you excited?', 'How will you enjoy eating?', and the one I get most-'Why?'. No, I'm not excited yet but I know I will be the closer it gets, I will enjoy eating the same way I do now-with my eyes, nose and mouth-only in smaller portions, and because I want to be healthier and live a long life for my 4 yr old daughter. That in itself surpasses any other reason. I have soo much to do to prepare. I'm in school, working full-time and raising my daughter. Time stops for no one. But can it at least slow down a bit so I can catch up? I am very calm and relaxed when I think about my procedure day. It's the build up and planning that's a little stressful. But all in all , I'm doing very good and holding my composure in check.  This is wonderful and a very good thing for me and my child.

My road to WLS seem to be quick, fast and in a hurry. I went to my cardiologist  June 29th 2010 because I was afraid that at 41yrs old, I had a cardiomegly.  My doctor suggested gastric bypass beacuse in his words- 'I remember you being this heavy. What's going on?' He referred me to NeWeigh. I met with the staff at NeWeigh in Houston ,TX  on July 6th. My files were submitted early on September 8th to insurance because there was sufficient documentation to not have wait the 90 days required my the insurance provider. I was approved on September 15th. Now I'm scheduled for Roux-En-Y on October 20th. I have kept this a secret from all of my family members except one. She is my oldest sister and she she is happy for me. I never thought I could get approved for this procedure and resolved to just be another 'fat chick' for the rest of my life. I have been obese since I was about 14yrs old. I have a 4yr old who has taught me that I have a lot more and better living ahead of me for her and myself. I have never had a slim figure or been at an approriate weight. How will I adjust? I'm sort of afraid of the change. I have been this way for soooo long. What am I going to do with this new outlook and body? I see all of you looking like SUNSHINE. I want the same happiness and glow too.  

Much Love, Many Blessings, and Thanks,
Female68